Mr.Mush was very nice for me and I felt quite home already. I had a warm bed and I slept a lot because I'm very tired of all the things that's going on in my mind, I still am. But now it is time to go out, to have fun and drink some beer. It was half pas seven in the evening and Mr.Mush is making dinner. I am in the shower making ready for my first night out in years. I am a bit nervous, because I really don't know what to expect. I walk to my room and grabbing a blouse and a pair of braces. Shall I take my drawing book with me? Mr. Mush gave it to me because i was drawing on everything I could find. As I can remember I used to have a drawing book with me on board of Titanic. But it sank, I guess. I was ready to go. excited and frightened at the same time.
'Dinner is ready!'
Mr.Mush almost screamed. That is a thing i'm a bit scared of, he has a really hard voice. I'm really hungry so I run downstairs an I'm sitting, looking how Mr.Mush brings in the food. I saw some hamburgers laying on a plate. My stomach fell in love with the meat.
'You're eating like a beast'. Mr. Mush laughed.
His face became a bit more serious.
'So your parents kicked you out of the house?'
I nod.
'I used drugs and stole some things. My parents said that I was a disgrace to the family, so I packed my bags and leaved.'
That was the second time I lied about my youth. I've never told such a big lie, nut it is necessarily, and people believe me, so it's okay.
'It doesn't matter my friend, Mr. Mush responded, you can stay here as long as you want.'
I nod. I feel save but a bit awkward. How can he accept such a guy like that? We didn't talked a lot more about me. I ate like four hamburgers, then I brushed my teeth and we got in the car. Mr. Mush lives a neighbourhood from New York away. He said that he would bring me to his favorite club called N.03. It reminse me of my room in jail, N.09. I take a deep breath to get all my bad memories away. and it worked. When we were riding through New York I saw all those bright lights that light up the street, huge billboards and people in a rush. I've never thought that New York could change like this. When I was there it was so different. So calm, and still how city has to be.
'We are there in about ten minutes my friend.'
I nod. Now I have to focus on the party, not on Rose. Think she is dead Jack. Another deep breath is crossing through my throat.
'We're arrives my friend.'
I open the door. and everything that I saw threw the window are ten times worse. Everything is so loud. When we walked in the club it just looked normal, but when we walked in, it was such an overwhelming. I've never seen so many people standing so close to each other. Wait I've seen it before, on Titanic.
'Jack don't think of it, Jesus! you have to make new friends!' I told myself.
I lost Mr.Mush in the crowed, so I went my own way. Where do i have to start? Shall I first get some beer? Yes beer, I want beer, but when I wanted to go to the bar someone step on my foot.
'Fuck!', I screamed.
I went to the a sofa because the pain took over. Why I wanted to go to a club again Jack? I wish I was never gone. I changed a lot since they got me out of the ice. I'm not the fun loving Jack anymore. As i can remember I loved to go to party's. I'm just feeling so lonely. I sat there for five minutes or something when to blonde girls came to me.
'Are you new here?' one of the girls said.
I nod.
'Oh, we have a shy guy here!' the girls laughed.
They looked at each other and pulled me up.
'Now dance with us cutie.'
Even the people ar changed. It is a bit awkward, but I finally don't care, I just go with it. This is gonna be my night. My foot still hurts, but I don't mind. I went to the bar and asked for beer. It tased so good. And yeah even the beer is different. I drank a lot this night and slowly I feel that I'm becoming a bit drunk. I haven't felt this in years! And then, then I saw myself with Rose dancing on the third class party. I squeeze my eyes but I still see it.
'Go away!, I screamed, leave me alone Rose!, I don't wanna see you!, GO AWAAAAYYYY!!!!
I feel the tears burning in my eyes. And I see people look at me like I'm disturbed. I try to find Mr. Mush to bring me home, but I can't see him. I'm crying. And everything is happening in slowmotion. everything is passing by, laughing people, yelling people and drunk people. I feel a finger knocking on my shoulder, and it's the girl.
'Are you allright?, she asks me with a worried face, shall we go outside for some fresh air?'
'No, I'm okay, just leave me.'
'No you're not, come I will get you out of th...'
Before she was finished, I just kissed her. Maybe this is the only way to forget Rose. I didn't worked, everything became black.
Sorry guys this is not a very long chapter. But I hope you like it. This makes me so sad, he just needs to find Rose thats is the only thing that can make him calm :( poor Jack. But Thursday chapter 6 will be online! love ya all xoxo
