My Boyfriend is in BTS?!(Sequel to "One summer with BTS") (EXO and BTS fanfic)

Talking Pt5

Talking Pt 5

Alex P.O.V

"Then why did you leave? " I looked up at Jungkook.

He avoided my gaze and walked over to the window. Running his hands through his hair...

I knew I'd asked him a loaded question...but if he loved me...

Then couldn't I ask these questions? If I didn't we...

We...

Might not be able to advance...

Or be...

Together.

"You know that I had to leave because of our debut..." He trailed off.

"But what about us? " all the depression suddenly flooded in...

I'd suppressed this black hole of sadness for months...if I thought about a little thing from the hellish 4 years I'd been without him for I'd ...re-open all these feelings. And all of it would swamp me.

For example when I found his ring...Keiko had packed for me. I just suddenly burst into a hysterical crying fit.

"Alex...look...I had too....I was legally bound to the company...." He couldn't finish his sentences. Jungkook also knew there really wasn't an actual reason for his departure...

Other than the fact...he wanted his career more than..

Us.

"Ha...<laughs weakly> kookie...stop this...you had a choice...you didn't 'have' to do anything! Everyone has a choice!" I shouted then sat back onto the bed.

He stayed by the window. I saw his lips move about to protest...but he just nodded.

"I mean why didn't you even call...or text...I..." I took deep breaths...I was determined not to cry over him again...I'd done it way too many times.

"I did..." He walked over to me..."yeah right...enough lies Kookie! " I jumped up...not letting him anywhere near me.

"I'm not lying...." His expression was confused.

"I was waiting for FOUR YEARS! For YOU! And yet.....you...were just having the time of your life..." I felt the tears advancing.

"It was hell for me too..." He mumbled.

"Traveling the world living your dreams...oh how hellish...." I spat.

"You know if you just want to shout at me go ahead! Go fucking ahead!" He shouted right in my face. But he backed away so quickly it was like he want even near me.

I'd never seen him angry....I hated it..

He wasn't kookie when he shouted...he wasn't Jungkook either...he....was no one I knew.

"I don't "just want to shout at you"....I want us to be...to be...okay again." A few tears fell but I brushed them of so quickly that he didn't even notice.

"Well then stop saying hurtful things..I tried too! " he yelled once more.

"You tried to do what exactly?! Date other girls?" I mumbled the last bit.

I wanted to confront him about the girl he dated right after me...but...I felt too nervous...

"'Dated other girls?' What the hell does that mean?" Jungkook turned to me looking pissed off.

"It means this!" I shoved my phone in his face...it showed the image of his selca with the girl. You could only see part of his face...

I still hoped it wasn't him...

It couldn't be...

He turned white and backed away.

"You...didn't even wait a full fucking month!" It was my turn to shout at him now...

"If you 'never stopped loving me' then why did you date her?!" I threw the phone on my bed and walked to the door.

He wasn't replying to my accusations...

Did that mean...

It was true?

But...I knew he'd never do something like that...

Well...I guess he'd different now...

"Kookie...I don't know what's happened to you....I thought....I thought...I knew you...but I guess I don't" I pulled on my shoes and shut the door behind me.

Oh wait...I re entered the room.

He turned to me.

I walked right over to him and shoved the ring at his chest.

He looked surprised..

"I guess this means nothing to you anymore....just a crappy promise to some small town girl...and it's only brought me sadness....that...you weren't there...."

His head hung as I stormed out.

"I didn't need the promise kookie...." I looked at him my hand on the door knob.

The tears were now falling...

He looked right at me.

I saw tears in his eyes too...

"I just needed ...........you....."