My Boyfriend is in BTS?!(Sequel to "One summer with BTS") (EXO and BTS fanfic)

Talking Pt 6

Talking Pt6

Authors Note:

I know it's kinda weird that we're going into a 6pt + chapters...

But I want the Talking chapters to carry on until everything's resolved...If you understand me?

Anyway enjoy.....

P.S who's enjoying the newest Bts album? My favourite songs are....Butterfly....Silver Spoon.. Never Mind.

P.P.S yoongi in this pic! #everyfangirlever 

Chanyoel P.O.V

"Chan?!! It's been 2 days!!! Get your butt off that bed!" Kai walked into my room.

"Come on man...don't you want to eat? You can't live on minty gum." He laughed whilst throwing a wrapper at me.

"Gum is better than nothing Dongsaeng..." I pulled the duvet up in front of my face.

I'd been lying in bed since my meetings with Alex...and Baek...

I was trying to push put that memory..Baek...and...I...kis- no...nope....too soon.

"Hyung...were in Japan ! Let's go and do something! " Kai bounced on the bed.

"No...just go Kai...I'm tired." I muttered.

I wasn't tired...I just was confused and I definitely didn't feel like leaving this bed...let alone leaving this room.

"From doing what? Come on hyunggggggg! I'm bored!" He lay down next to me.

"Well then go ask...Suho....or Chen.....or someone who's not me." I buried my face into the pillow.

I just needed time to think...I was so confused....I like Alex? Right?

But more than that...I started questioning if...if I liked...guys too....

I mean it's feels awkward to think about...ever since I was little I was told it was 'wrong'...or 'disgusting' for men to like men...or women to like women...

And I always thought that was stupid...I mean love is love. No matter what gender or age.

So I never thought about dating either gender really....then when I moved in with loads of other guys (Kai..Chen...Suho...do...etc) all they'd talk about was girls...

But I never got involved...for some reason at that time I couldn't think of women being 'sexy' or 'attractive'...but do I think that even now?

Looking back Baek didn't seem interested either...is that because...he's gay?

Does him kissing me mean that?

Or am I labelling?

I know I seems stupid and childish...but I really know nothing about...love....relationships....anything like that.

My parents didn't love each other , they just got on...and they were married. No love there. They just were together because they both loved money.

I'm not gay...I think....cause I liked Alex....but...am I even straight?

Do I even need to label myself?

Does anyone?

I mean was there I time I wanted to be in a relationship or I wanted a girl? Heck did I even like people?!