Alpha mate Jealous?

chapter 2-werewolfs and mates rules

Hey i realised that u didnt know much bout my plot line- what my version of a werewolf is like so what they can cant do ect x x i will put it back into the story after this x 

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I hate that jerk for what he did to me, but it made me stronger, i was a loser, a no-body, a loner and even though it disgusts me now, i was a... Good girl. Did what i was told, when i was told, but when i found my so called 'mate' i completetly changed, not for better not for worse, just changed, i stopped wearing my school uniform in a way that made me look like a nun, i stopped wearing my ugly glassess, i turned back to my original hair colour black, i died it blonde because i thought i should act like everyone else. I stopped being the goody too shoes and started talking back to teachers flirting with guys, even making out with them and to tell you the truth, i prefer this side of me, not so fragile, not so vulnerable... Not so... heart broken.

What he did was unforgivable as a mate and he not only denied me as a mate he insulted me as a wolf as well. A few things you need to know about werewolfs that seperate us from the fiction in books, one, silver doesnt hurt us, we dont need the full moon to shift, the shift isnt painful, it's effortless all apart from the very first shift that will be excruciatingly painful,

but after that it will  be ok, because when our wolves first turn and are released, our body remembers the shape like a position to sit in, esay to get to, like breathing a few seconds and its done. 

Now there is a harsh part of being a wolf, mates. Mates are your world, your life its hard to turn your back on your mate because most often your wolf will take complete control and take you back or just refuse to leave in the first place, that is the only thing they can slightly control weather you leave your mate or not, but only alphas can disobey their wolves. 

Something about their inner strength. When mates are together they feel whole like everything is allright or can be, they will feel extreme ammount of love considering all our emotions are amplified, they won't want to leave them but it is possible to live without your mate but it's highly unlikely.

Now the huge draw back of mates are that if one of you dies the other one will either die or go completly insane. When a werewolf goes insane from mate loss they turn into a lycan, a beastly create with no feelings or thoughts other than the next meal it will catch and eat. It never stops hunting, never stops killing,

and it will kill anything in its oath even its own brother. It doesnt matter who that lycan was before it turned as soon as it turns all its known is ripped from its memories and it will be filled with a need a want for fresh blood. 

When a mate denies his or her mate, the other will feel broken for the rest of thier life and thewolf will never be satisfied. 

Me being me the powerful but hidden werewolf, i came out and told the world my new side and most (the guys liked it) but eric hated the attention i got, steaming with jealousy i found it hard not to want to do it over and over again. After all he did break my heart and my wolf spirit. i thiought bitterly as i made my way to the smoking feild, only called that by the smokers of course i already say my best friend alicia standing there in her badass clothes

ripped jeand boots to mid thigh (you would think she looks slutty for wearing them but nope she looked amazing) a shirt that said u bite me ? i bite back! in feirce black and gold cursive with a pink background. She was the nicest person i knew but could be the cruelest, to people who didn't know her. So anyone that wasn't me and our group of friends really. 

she found me heart broken and sobbing in the woods, she helped me more than she could ever know. And i owed her my life because if i hadnt had her i would have killed my self when i got home that night. 

Don't judge me our emotions are amplified, so it hits us harder. Almost overloads us in everyday life, them imagine the extreme situation i was in feeling an horrific anoutn of hurt anger, and sadness battling with depression. I was a state.

Shes taller than me by... a lot!! Shes super skinny, no hips slender and toned body of a swimmer, was 6'2 long straight brown hair to her shoulder, green eyes, and high cheekbones. but had really small boobs due to her athletic build. She was like a mother to me always comforting me whenever im sad or calming me when im angered.

And she hates what Eric did to me. She is human, but insanly beautiful, i told her about my world and then in turn what eric did and i was surprised to say that i had to notice she had a nice punch to her as i saw her and a few of my now close friends beating the living shit out of eric. 

But dont let her nice side fool you, if she likes you u get her bubbky happy side that wakes u up at 3 in the morning to get ready for school, and her making you laugh with all the practical jokes she pulls,

its really funny actually, only she drycleaned all the jock's jersys and made them pink, she stole all their towels when they were in the showers and then their clothes, lets just say they were a lot of naked buts walking home that day.  

but in all honestly she's my ray of hope in the cruel world, my shimmer of light when all is faded. And i love her.