Bad? (Harry Styles)

Chapter4 Dinner in hell

"Heyy" i said in a confused voice

"Hi honey i met the neighbors and invited them over, i though it would be fun because her son is your friend" she said excited

"O cool" i said Harry was there with his arms open waiting for a hug with a stupid grin showing his famous dimples.

"Hi Harry" i said with a fake smile and nervous laugh and a little wave i dont want to hug him

"O hi" he said with his big smile coming toward me and hugging me i felt his lips come to my ear.

"Nice bum" he whispered pinching my butt

O no he doesn't he's lucky my family was here or i would of killed him

So instead i pushed him off of me playing it off as friend ship "nice to see you" i said with an annoyed smile

This was going to be a long night

"Well come sit here you guys, you finished your homework May" Rain asked "ya all of it' i said "goody you are so great" she said showing me off

We're at the dinner table when our moms are talking so its just me and Harry.

"So luv can you do my home work" he said with a smirk knowing the answer "No Harry" i said trying to be nice "or you can do me whatever you prefer luv" he said "gross none of the above to bad i cant take out the trash" looking him up and down showing him i was talking about him "O luv stop checking me out we'er in front of our mums" he said "in your dreams" i said "in yours to luv you know you dream about me" he said ill he's so dirty "gross ...no" i said

Then he touched my leg and a memory came back from when after my dad would beat me he would put his hand on leg and say 'I'm sorry your such a bad doing ugly fat girl but i do this because i love you, how would you learn if we don't punish you' with his smile and his beer breath that sickened me and then he would push me on the floor and kick me and beat me.

I smacked his hand off my leg, thank god i was finally finished with my food "Rain and Ms.Styles may i take your plate" i asked "yes dear how nice of you" Harrys mom said i gave her a smile and took everyones plate and Harrys even though he wasn't finished "hey?" He whinnied "oops" i said and did a fake laugh to cover up how i felt on the inside, Rain didn't notice.

I feel so stressed from that memory coming back and haunting me that i need it, i need to cut right now i'll just say i have to do something because i need it i need to cut it will make me feel calm again

"Hey i need to actually finish a report I'm sorry Ms.Styles and Harry" i said "ok maybe you'll be done quick" Rain said "ya maybe i think I'm almost done any way" i said and went upstairs.

I ran into my bathroom and i had my old knife from my old home on me still.

And started and the pain maid me feel relived it hurt but i felt cured i felt like relieved " I'm ugly i deserve it" i whisper to my self " i will never be loved" i keep going i don't know this is how i feel on the inside and i know its true when i whisper it to myself. I hate my self for always hysterically crying when i do it then i here something

Footsteps?......

HARRYS POV

I love to tease May i love to see her fight back and love to hear her voice

She was different she wasn't scared of me and i liked that so at dinner bothering her i loved her blue eyes they were beautiful and her dirty blond hair.

I DONT HAVE A CRUSH ON HER

I think well i love to tease her but i like her as a friend more then anything but every time i saw her i felt like she was hidding something and i see her innocence and i want it....

I want to break it i want to idk i want it to be mine.

I just put my hand on her leg because i thought it would annoy her, when she had this look in here eye the look it was familiar it was ummm.... Fear

Wait what was she scared of, after 10 seconds she smacked my hand and stood up.

I saw right though her

Then she took my plate she came back saying she had to finish a report and left

That was weird I've never seen her like that .....

It was there five minutes when her mom said "hey honey how about you go and helpMay with her report?" She said happy "um..ok" i said

As i walked further and further up the stairs i hear crying i stood by the door and i look into the bath room to see this small desperate figure it was May CUTTING HERSELF CRYING

I run to her and take the knife from her I've never been in this situation so i went and called her mom then i heard a faint voice

"Noo please don't" she said in a weak voice

"WHATS WRONG GUYS" Her mom yelled I debated on what to do but i ended up doing what she wanted

"NOTHING" I yelled back then i went back to May

"But you need help what happened?" i asked in a whisper tone

Them she whispered "memory" "what memory?" i asked i can hear her getting stronger her voice and color

"Its personal ..ok" she said "um...ok" i hugged her and cleaned her up and she put her head on my chest and i felt this unexplained feeling...what ever

Then she was back to her old self "thanks um... Please don't mention this to anyone please" she said looking desperate i dont know "umm" and left it at um because i truly didn't know what to do then she looked at me with her eyes that look through me "ugh fine" i said "just...."

I started but my mum interrupted me "lets go luv" she yelled from down stairs "bye.um " i wanted to continue but I'm not her friend or any one to tell her what to do so i just hugged her and when i pulled away i kissed her forehead to her it was probably a comforting thing but for me i don't know why but it just never mind....

She said bye and i left i couldn't get the image of her cutting herself out my mind.

Ive seen worse like people killing them self and I've even killed people but this effected me in a strange way......

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