Falling for your best friend

Confessions

Malcolm's pov
After my first day of school I couldn't help but think about Jane. Man that girl had me feeling some type of way. I wanted to tell her how I feel but after talking to her mom's the night before I think I might just have to wait a while before telling her. But I'm scared for some reason, I feel like her and DayDay got something going on, but he doesn't seem like her type. And what the boys asked us this morning got me thinking about some shit.
What if they see something I don't?
Because I mean they wouldn't have ask just for the hell of it. I laid there in my bed thinking about her. Damn, she looked so beautiful today, I just couldn't help but stare at her. I think maybe I'm in love with her, because I don't want anyone else. But what if I take too long to tell her and she already has a man? I'm just not sure what to do right now.
I'm still trying to figure out what her and DayDay were talking about. It kills me that she hasn't told me. When I asked her she was so vague about it. I want to ask DayDay about it but I don't think he's gonna tell me because she probably asked him not to say anything.
I'm thinking about telling her how I feel no sooner than the end of the month. I tried to tell her last night but I chickened out. Damn, I just don't know what's happening to me.  All I can do is think about her and how I want to be with her all the time. And I can't help thinking about how she was all cuddled up to me yesterday while we watched the Patriot. I've been giving her hints that I like her but I don't think she's catching on. She is completely oblivious to what I'm doing. But I think she likes me because she's always blushing whenever I'm around her and man when she blushes it's so fucking cute. I asked Tyreek about it while she was talking to DayDay and he said,"My niggah it's so fucking obvious. That girl is crazy about you." I started laughing at him,"So that's why you said what you did this morning?" "Yup. And Malcolm if you don't tell that girl soon how you feel I'm gonna do it for you. You two are meant to be together, there ain't no denying that." I sighed a hopeless sigh as I said,"Man, I hope you're right cause I don't think I can wait anymore." He smiled at me,"So when are you gonna ask her?" I shrugged,"Maybe by the end of the month." Before her and DayDay came back Tyreek said,"You better." Then left it at that.
I held my phone in my hand looking to see if Jane had texted me back. She hadn't yet but I had just sent it to her like thirty seconds ago. A minute dragged by and I heard a ding from my phone. I looked at it, it was a text from Jane. I smiled at the screen and said,"What's up baby girl." That was what I had always called her so it wasn't weird. In a matter of seconds she said,"Nothing much, just thinking about some stuff." I frowned looking at my screen wondering what I should say. Was she thinking about me? I responded back,"What ya thinking about???" To my surprise she responded back,"You." Excitement rushed through me maybe I wasn't gonna have to tell her after all. I texted back,"What about me??" She texted back,"Idk, just you I guess. I'm thinking about what the guys said earlier about us." Man this conversation was about to get deep. Was she going to tell me that she had feelings for me, that she was falling for me? I responded back,"So what are you saying?" I looked at my phone she was typing then she stopped typing and then she would start again. After a minute I heard my phone go off. "Malcolm, idk what to say I'm scared. I think that I might be falling for you. But what if you don't feel the same and we don't work out? I don't want to ruin our friendship or have a broken heart. I think that I might be in love with you. Omg why am I saying this over text I should be telling you this face to face." I smiled to myself as a tear ran down my cheek, I don't even know why. I looked over at the long paragraph that she sent me again and then responded back,"Jane, I love you and I want to be with you more than anything. And I promise I won't hurt you or leave you. I want to be yours and only yours." Before she could respond back I sent her another text telling her I was going to be at her house in ten minutes. I ran out of my room excited. My mom looked up at me and said,"Malcolm where are you going?" I smiled at her and said,"Momma I'm getting my girl." She shook her head,"Finally, I thought you two were never gonna get together."
I ran out the door to my car and went full speed to her house. As soon as I got there I quickly walked up her parents front porch and rang the doorbell. I impatiently waited for someone to open the door. While waiting I regretted that I hadn't brought her a flower but it was too late. Oh well. It doesn't really matter anyway. Mr. Wiles opened the door. He smiled at me looking at me with his bright blue eyes that were always warm and friendly. He said,"Malcolm, what are you doing here it's almost dinner time?" I smiled at him respectfully,"I'm here to see Jane." His smile had gotten bigger,"Are you finally going to ask her?" My face went hot as huge smile spread across my face,"That's the plan." He patted me on the shoulder,"Finally. And by the way don't hurt my little girl. And remember how other people are going to react. Okay?" I nodded and said,"Yes sir." Before he let me in. Jane was in the living room with her mom watching TV. When she heard me come in she turned around to see who it was. She stood up immediately looking me dead in the eyes with her beautiful green ones. I walked over to her wrapping her into a tight hug. After a moment I pulled away from her and bent down on one knee. I wasn't sure what to say but I knew it had come from the heart.  My heart was beating rapidly and my stomach was in knots. I gently grabbed both of her hands and held them in mine as I looked up at her.
In a shaky voice I said,"Jane Caroline Wiles I know that I've waited a long time for me to tell you this but I'm completely and totally in love with you. I've waited twelve years to tell you how I felt. After listening to what your mom and our friends had to say I've realized that I can't wait any longer to tell you how I feel. I want to be yours and only yours. You're my best friend and I can't help but think that we were meant to be. I know that we might go through some things but I want to be able to go through it with you. I want to be your one and only. Will you please give me the honor of being my girlfriend?" I didn't realize it until I was done that I was crying and she was too. She said,"Malcolm Isaac Jones, you are the craziest boy I've ever met and I can't see myself being with anyone other than you. So yes I'll be your girlfriend." I quickly got up and hugged her tightly in my arms and kissed her lips for the very first time.
Her lips were soft and sweet and the movement of her mouth against mine was slow and lingering. I slowly pulled away scared I would go too far in the presents of her parents. Her dad shook my hand smiling at me as he said,"Welcome to the family." I laughed and said,"Sir, I thought I was already part of the family." He laughed patting me on the shoulder and said,"But it now it's more official."
I loved how excepting her family was. They didn't even care that I was black and that I was now dating their daughter. But to be fair they've known me since I was little and her dad always saw me as the son he's always wanted. Her mother came up to me wrapping me in a hug she pulled away kissing me on my cheek the way mom always did. She smiled at me,"I thought I told you to wait." I smiled back at her,"I couldn't wait anymore." She shook her head at me and said,"Thank you for showing this family respect by asking her in front of us. You're growing up to be a fine young man." I don't know what it was about her mother but I had a great deal of respect towards her she never treated me as if I was some dumb thug off the streets, she always saw me for me, she was such a good woman. I looked at Janes father,"Sir, if it's not too much may I take your beautiful daughter out this Friday?" He said,"Yes you may. I've been waiting for this for a long time." I didn't stay there long after that I had to go home to my momma and I didn't want to be late for supper. I quickly kissed my new girlfriend on the lips and told her goodbye and left. I couldn't help but smile. It had all worked out I had waited so long for this girl to be mine. I should have asked her sooner. Jane Wiles was my world, she meant everything to me. I knew right then and there that I was going to marry that girl in the future and I couldn't see myself with anyone else.
I was the luckiest dude in the world right now. I had the girl of my dreams and had her family except me as her boyfriend, life couldn't get any better. When I pulled into the driveway Momma was waiting for me outside. I got out with a smile on my face she knew before I could even tell her. She wrapped her arms around me and said,"Se said yes didn't she?!?" I pulled away just enough to look at her and said,"Yes ma'am she did." "Finally. I thought this would never happen. You two are meant to be together." I smiled at her,"That's what Tyreek and DayDay have been saying." She laughed at what I had said shaking her head,"Well those boys were right and I was getting tired of hearing you mope around because you didn't have the nerve to ask her." I frowned at her but in a teasing way,"I did not mope around." She laughed at me and said,"Honey, you looked so blue and love sick I could barely stand being around you." She pulled away from me and walked towards the door and said,"Come on sugar I know you're hungry." I nodded in agreement as I followed her in the house for some good home made fried chicken. After supper I took a shower and went to bed thinking about my Jane as I fell into a deep sleep dreaming of her in my arms with me.