mistakes

Having a baby

#Everna#

He just stood there mouth wide open not blinking just looking at me once and to my stomach once in an awkward silence

"What? " he finally managed to say while I didn't dare to look him in the eyes and turned my gaze to the ground

"I am pregnant " I repeated the same three words again which are not understandable to me yet
"This is not possible" he said and his muscles started to tense and the pure anger was burning in his eyes so I kept my gaze to the ground

"I am so protective every time we fuck , this is not possible " he said once more but this time I let my anger talk for me

"What do you mean Justin we have been fucking for almost two years you must have missed once or twice Justin what do you mean with that ,huh?" I yelled at him while he just stood there with no movement

"What you don't have an answer?"  I yelled once more while he remain there not doing anything just his muscles relaxed a little bit

I took a deep breath and looked him in the eyes as he finally spoke " I can't believe you that you are pregnant " he yelled

"What exactly part of  I am pregnant you don't understand?" I yelled and looked him in the eyes

"I'm so protective always make take the medicine or use protection so this is not possible and this baby is not mine  " he yelled rising his index finger out to me

"What ?" I yelled at him and then took a deep breath to calm

"I get it Justin you don't the baby or me either I am sorry to give you myself and trust you and now after you created a living soul inside my body you simply trying to deny it ... good bye JB " I said so calm and confident and walked passe him to get to another room but instead I felt a strong grip hold my wrist and pull me closer to his body

I immediately felt our lips together in an apologetic kiss which was very warm and felt so good ... he separated our lips slowly to look me in the eye. His eyes had a gleaming layer above it which I could tell was tears

"I am sorry " he said and got closer to me and kissed my forehead and looked me in the eyes once again

"I didn't mean that at all and I will not I'm sorry to say such words and I'm happy for us having a baby it was just the shock of knowing that you are pregnant but it is amazing I won't lie if I told I have been waiting for this " he said slowly and softly while a tear escaped his eyes and I quickly kissed it and whipped it away from his cheek

He pent down a little so he was in the  level of my stomach and I felt weird for the sight its new

"Hey baby ... I am sorry ... I love you so much either your a boy or girl I love and I can't wait to see you " he took a deep shaky breath and start talking again crying not talking " I love you so much .. forgive me if I was an ass in the beginning but I was shocked . I promise I have been waiting for this for ages it's just right now I love so much and I am worried of the dsicion your mother is going to take cause whatever it is I am going to support her and whatever happens I want you to know what I love I have been waiting ages for this moment the moment when I pent down to talk to the most amazing thing on earth inside the best girl in the world .... I love you " he ended up kissing my stomach softly and looking me in the eyes once more and rising to my level and gripping my face in the balm of his hands

"I love you babe ... I am really sorry whatever you gonna do with this baby you should know that I support you " he said resting his forehead against mine
I seriously though about losing the baby but after this I can't . The feeling is great having a living soul inside your body whi will in nine months be your son or daughter and enough that this baby is from the person you love and after these words I can't not love him or her and I will keep this baby no matter what as long as I know that he will be with me along the way I am fine but more I am happy to be with him .I smiled while rubbing my hand slightly on my stomach trying to get the whole concept of having a baby and then looked up at him to see him closing his eyes taking deep breaths