Turn Against

How could it be so hard?

"You've got that James dean daydream look in your eyes!" Tyler sang with such conviction you could almost not realize how terrible he was at it.

I buried my face in my jacket and tried to ignore the reflecting hair pieces blinding me in the sun.

"I've got that red lip classic thing that you like!!!!"

This was going to be a long car trip.

Tyler decided he wanted to go on a road trip so I suggested we go to Ramland. Its a small city about two hours away which happend to have base in it.

I would leave Tyler somewhere while I went to gather Intel.

"Hey Mer Mer are you hungry?" He lifted my jacket to check if I was breathing.

"Depends on what you're getting to eat" I growled and yanked my jacket back down.

"I was thinking somewhere nice since we're so far from where people may recognize you. I'm sure its probably been a while." He kept glancing over nervously like I was a word a way from shooting him down.

"Sure..." Even though we were getting farther from home we were getting closer to danger.

"Um Tyler we don't look so great though and I didn't pack anything nice"

"Oh no problem you always look beautiful but we can pick you up something if you'd like?" I blushed but he didn't even look over from driving.

"Ok" I went back to loathing his choice in music while he continued to sing at the top of his lungs.

We stopped at a little boutique that had fancy French words in the name and a pink French door for the entrance.

"Have fun" he said as he left me in wonder of the towering racks of feathers, sequins and fur.

"Where are you going?" My ears perked and shoulders drew back, erect.

I would not be left.

"I'm just going to sit down" he pointed to a sitting area.

"Oh ok" I drooped.

I tried on at least 8 dresses all too flashy or too much flesh being shown.

"May I help you?" A lady with a small nose and permanently arched brow came over. I stepped back and clenched my fists my frustrations already showing.

"No I'm fine" I gritted through my teeth.

God I hate shopping.

"No, no, I give you help" she beckoned for me to follow as she waddled in her tight black wrapped skirt.

I followed her reluctantly as she came to a dead stop in front of a rack.

On the rack held a satin black dress with jewels that fell right between the breasts and the back dropped open.

"Its very nice..." I whispered in awe.

I checked the size. Size 7. My size.

"How did you know?" I glanced at the sales associate

"It my job to know" and with that she grabbed the dress and walked me to the dressing room.

She helped me out of my heels and skinny jeans and I slipped the dress over my hips.

"You must take off bra it will show in back" she pointed at the low back.

"Ok..." I pulled it off quickly pulling the dress to me so flesh wasn't exposed.

It was beautiful. My hair made the jewels sparkle even brighter and my tattoos were seen streaming up and down on my back.

"I will ring up" she didn't even wait for an answer.

"Thank you"

I changed out and went to find tyler asleep in the chair.

"I found something " I looked down.

"Good I'm glad" he replied wiping his mouth.

We rung up the dress and stopped at a hotel not to far away.

"Hurry and get ready I'm starved" he said as he dived into the room he ordered. He decided to use his days off so we didn't have to hurry home.

I grabbed my bags and the dress and hurried to the bathroom.

I pinned my hair back in curls and brushed dark eye shadow across my lid. My eyelashes I dabbed with mascara and then stepped into the dress. I don't remember the last time I've felt this way.

I stepped from the bathroom as Tyler turned around to grab his tie.

He stopped.

His eyes traveled the length of my body and then even down to the end of the dress.

"You-you're beautiful" he stepped up till his nose touched mine. "Then again you always have been"

No. No. No.

I cannot have this weakness. It will consume me if I don't end it. I feel nothing. But I can't lie to myself it just isn't working. All of the discipline means nothing with him...

"Thanks you look snappy yourself" I scurried off to find shoes.

He shrugged and continued his routine.

I was doomed.