Dear notepad, 2/7/13
Today Felix brought up coming to Florida. I don't know how I feel about it. Ever since him and marzia broke up, he's been sort of sad. I want to fix him but I don't know how. He's my best friend, and I hate to see him this unhappy. I want him to come to where I am, but I don't know what it'll be like. Will he find me awkward, or what? Will he finally see my scars? I'm not sure...I guess we'll have to wait and see.
That's all for now.
Signing off,
Cry~
Dear notepad, 2/10/13
Pewds arrived today. He bought his plane ticket as soon as I said it was okay for him to come. He's been here for a few hours and it's going great. I decided to wear long sleeves, even though its 95 degrees out. He didn't question it, and I was glad for that. I don't even think he realized. I'll never tell him, either. Even if he asks me, I won't say anything. Well I have to go, Pewds needs assistance finding the bathroom...what an idiot.
Signing off,
Cry~
Dear notepad, 2/11/13
I guess I should say more of the details from yesterday. Well, as soon as I arrived at the airport, I saw Pewds by the American candy store. I remembered how childish he was, and I went up to him. He looked happy to see me, and he hugged me. I can still smell him on my sweatshirt. He smells like cologne. The really good kind that you buy in K-mart and Target. He smelt fresh. It was nice to hug him, to actually feel his presence here with me. It just felt nice. I like it when he hugs me. It makes my heart beat fast. I don't know, the ride home was pretty normal. We got inside and I showed Pewds his room. We sat on the couch and we talked. We didn't talk about marzia though. I asked him how his family was, and he asked me the same although I don't think either of us really cared. He stared at me a lot. He also looked truly happy. I like when he's happy.
Signing off,
Cry~
Dear notepad, 2/14/13
Today was eventful. Pewds was looking through my bathroom for some ibuprofen because he had a headache (the idiot accidentally threw a controller at the coffee table and it hit him in the face). He was going through my medicine cabinet in my main bathroom without asking me. Which wouldn't really be a problem, except for the fact that my antidepressants were in there. He brought them out to me, but as soon as he was about to give them over and ask for an explanation, he dropped the bottle. Pills fell out, and so did my razor. He took it from me. He asked to see my arms but I wouldn't let him.
Signing off,
Cry~
Dear notepad, 2/22/13
I thought Pewds had finally forgotten about the razor thing, until he saw my scars today. We were playing video games, Bloody Trapland obviously. He made it past the level when I was still stuck behind. He raised his hand for a high five, and I wanted to give him the same in return. my sleeve may or may not have pulled up in theprocess, and in the high five, he noticed and grabbed my hand. I tried pulling it away but he wouldn't let me. He asked for an explanation but I didn't give it to him. He doesn't need to hear about my shitty life.
Signing off,
Cry~
Dear notepad, 3/1/13
Today Felix was acting strange. I only say that because he wasn't eating, and he wouldn't talk to me. Half an hour ago, he spoke for the first time all day. He asked me why I felt the need to do such a thing to myself. I told him it was for reasons he wouldn't understand. So, he started taking off his pants. I didn't feel uncomfortable, which is unlike me. Because I don't like guys stripping in front of me. Normally. Anyways, he took off his pants and I saw..over 200 scars litering his legs. All of them were new. I was in shock...I don't know why he did this to himself, but all he said was "is it as bad as it looks?" I was crying, but he couldn't tell underneath the mask.
Signing off,
Cry~
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Dear Notepad. ~A PewDieCry fanfiction~
Fiksi PenggemarCry has a diary, and he writes in it. A lot. Its how he gets his feelings out, onto paper, expressed. And when Pewds comes to visit in Florida, Cry uses his diary to keep track of passing events.
