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When We Say (Juicebox) *RANT*

I remember writing this book because I was in love. It felt like it was MTB and even though I had doubts I still loved him. After time passed that "love" died. He suddenly stopped talking to me, he was happy without me and as for me I was crying myself to sleep (sometimes I still do if people push that subject to far). This song really helped me during that time and I learned to get over him... But my best friend keeps pushing the subject saying we should talk again. Why would we start talking again? It's been around 3-4 maybe even 5 months since we last talked and well why start now? Me and my best friend had a huge fight over this subject. She kept saying that he was my BF when really he wasn't. We just had a "some" relationship (Here is a very basic understanding of being in a "some"-relationship: you have confirmed your feelings for one another but you are not officially in a relationship. You might be going through the motions of having a boyfriend/girlfriend, but you stay away from putting on labels between you and your "some"-partner). I told her so many times her doesn't want to be friends and that he's happy without me but she won't listen, she just keeps pushing the sibject to the point that his and my "some" relationship that we had got between our friendship. I have apologised even though I didn' know why I was apologising since there was no point saying sorry if that person wasn't going to forgive you. I haven't moved on from him, I know this because I still love him. But I'm willing to hide my feelings so he can be happy. My BFF wants us to be friends but I don't think that's possible for me anymore. Once someone leaves me I learn to live without them (e.g. My dad - I learn to cope with life without him and not having contact with him also helps. Not having contact with him helps me forget my selfish desires of wanting him back. If I did get what I want then my dad wouldn't be happy and I'm not one to get in the way of someone's happiness) So if we were to be friends.. I think I would probably be crying myself to sleep every night again. I do want us to be friends but it isn't possible for me because of my selfish desires of wanting him more than a friend still. When the right time comes and I get over my feelings for him (which can also take years) then I will do something about it but not right now. I hope my BFF can understand this... Popstar13