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by mxssrs-

by mxssrs-

Hello!

I've realised that I have ignored this book for a very long time, and I do apologise.

I suppose I should give you all a explanation!

Over the past months, I've been busy. I started school really badly.

My transition into the school year was very difficult for me. I've never been one to be good with people and making friends and all that jazz. My anxiety struck up horrifically and it really made school devastating for me.

I also ended up in a two month relationship. I guess he helped me with some things, (and boom just as I started writing this steam sends me a notification saying he's playing cs:go that's great) like with my problems and giving me a new view of the world, even if he was kind of clueless.

Our relationship was like one out of a cheesy chick-flick, where the younger sister would date her brother's friend. But, as much as it was cliche, rushed and cringey as all hell, it wasn't a chick-flick at all. We obviously aren't 'together forever', we never kissed, it wasn't romantic, and it was just a confusing and fast relationship.

He and I were almost polar opposites. Bringing astrology into this, he's a Sagittarius and I'm mostly a Capricorn. If you are a zodiac lover like me, you'd know that SagittariusxCapricorn are one of the most unlikely and least compatible mixes.

ANYWAY, I'm sure you hate listening to me rant about pointless things, and don't want to hear me go on about him :')

So yeah, my tragic breakup and school starting, AND I've had billions of fights with so many people throughout the year, that's gotten me distracted.

The amount of schoolwork my annoying teachers just decided to give us, ugh. Ngl, I didn't even finish most of it xD I still got good midterm reports and term reports though, that was fun heh.

My nephew was born in June, on the 7th. Everything became busier!

Now, for the biggest reason.

As I mentioned earlier, I have pretty bad anxiety. It messes me up pretty bad, especially since I'm extremely insecure and paranoid. I've been busy trying to get help for it, and I am now. But along with this, I've basically been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. Right now, since I'm off school and not with any people, it's calmed down, but the symptoms are still there.

If you don't know, one of the criteria for major depressive disorder is a decreased interest in activities and hobbies. Before all this, I adored writing. I would write every single day, all day. Now, it takes so much out of me to write something. I spend my time looking through the internet, playing games that don't involve brain power (i.e Clicker Heroes, Crusaders of the lost Idols, Adventure Capitalist), and I just sit there. I sit, and I watch it progress, with the coins and stuff. I can't be bothered doing anything else.

I can't concentrate. Everything becomes so hard to concentrate on. This, is hard to concentrate on. I can't even write without my mind trailing off or getting stuck on a word or whatever.

I'm in horrible moods almost 24/7. I get irritated quickly, so I try and steer clear of other people on wattpad and irl, because I don't want to snap it at them.

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Future El here, i wrote that two years ago lmao ewwww anyway pls read

@kithlybun - chuck us a follow, yeah?

Hey all,

I'll no longer be updating my books, sorry. I have no inspiration nor motivation, or any interest anymore.

Its been so long since I've updated or even touch one of my stories on this account.. its really weird. I made a new account where i could flaunt my new interests in peace; that account is linked at the top of this page.

I'm sorry for this, it's actually kind of really sad tbh

It's been a ride, guys, thanks for sticking around :)