The Lesser Girl

Truck Bed

 
Tw this chapter contains self harm
She doodled on her arm with the brand new fine sharpie over the cuts, making the cuts blind to the eye. She looked at her other arm and noticed Henry number. It made her laugh that they had known each other for over three years and they had texted each other a lot but he still wrote his number on her arm as if she didn't have it. she said as she took off her shirt. "1,2,3,4,5,6.........." She kept counting all the new cuts she had made to her self. "23,24,25,26......aahh " her phone began to ring . It was Henry. She answered, " yellow." She herd a man breathing heavily "oh than god your ok I thought you killed your self....I have been calling you for hours and after what you did this morning ok I am glad you're ok ". She looked in the mirror surprised ," why would you care, it's not like you just meet me.why does that matter?" ... She herd him laugh over the phone, "you matter cause you are different. You don't let bitches bug you .... I mean come on you confronted Kai straight on.  I know you, you don't just snap without reason" he smirked , she stared into the mirror laughing "you saw" She laughed and put her phone on speaker and put her phone on the dresser and laughed more." Yeah, not really a friend of mine did and told me, but anyway, tomorrow morning you wanna talk,I see you walk to the commons everyday alone. Just come meet me at the track. I think you will be better with me then with him, Not in a relationship kinda off way , I know your taken, but you know what I mean."... She laughed, this boy had a crush on her and she knew it but he was setting boundaries for him self. " fine with me ... Ok I gotta go to bed. See you tomorrow,ok". "Ok then night ,.." She hung up. She put her shirt back on and curled up into her bed.
For the next week she met with Henry every morning and Jake never noticed. Months past and Jake still failed to notice her absence,he had even stopped texting her, it became only good morning and good night texts. She stopped worrying about Jake and Kai.  Henry had made her forget about all the stress but the school year was ending and she didn't really want to say goodbye.  The trip was coming up within weeks, and semi Finals were next week so Henry started studying in the mornings instead of meeting with her. One morning, She decided even though Henry was busy she was still gonna pass on sitting at the morning table. She nodded to the beat of her music playing in her ears, letting herself be consumed by the song. Jake looked up, noticing her walking right by the table. He took a second and excused him self, slinking out of the seat quickly picking up his pace
" where are you going Jake?" Kai called out to Jake, "I will be right back promise, Cinderella" He said to Kai as he followed her. She stopped, as the faint sound of her name being called made her wonder. She took out a headphone expecting it to be Elizabeth but her smile transformed into a straight line of utter disappointment when jakes eyes met her.
" hey , kiddo you ok?", he hissed at her, she snapped back in disgust, "I am fine, you hang out with Cinderella enough, darling" her eyes flickering with a look of disappointment on her face. He stood still, confused by her response. She raised an eyebrow waiting for a answer that would never come, after a minute she put her headphone back in and turn her self back around and She continued to walk on through the campus. Her friends were heading in when she was walking away. She lightly stepped through the halls and outside to her favorite spot to sit at, to her surprise when she arrived to her favorite place just to see Jake sitting there. He had a mad expression on his face. She stared at him and took out her headphones. "what was that back there, the face, did you really need to say it like that, you really know how to get me buzzed up. Don't you?" he walked towards her and cupped her face and brought it close to his face. " what are you do-" her words were cut off as he kissed her.  His kiss felt forced it didn't feel real like the first time they kissed. This was sloppy and disconnected. Her eyes widen as she pushed him away.
"Yo,whats the deal?" he said as he grabbed her arm. "You don't see anything wrong with what you do or say, do you?' She hissed, She  twisted and turned trying to to break from his grasp. "What do you mean, I'm not doing anything wrong, your being taken care of, you have me, and you are happy", Jake chuckled to her as he let her go slowly. He couldn't believe she was being so dramatic over the fact he had a female friend. He laughed to him self before rolling his eyes and letting go of her arm. She was stunned by the amount of force he used in his grip, it wasn't gentle it was harsh, his knuckles where going white while he was holding her arm. She paused before taking a deep breathe and turning back around to head to the front of the school. Jake went on his way back to the commons area.
As she rounded the corner to the main building a familiar but all to perky voice come to her ears. "Hey hey hey,where are you going." Kai ask as she stops her.  Kai had a weird look on her face, she wasn't sad but wasn't joyful, she looked like a lost puppy. "Just going home, why where are yo."
"Have you seen jake? He said he would be right back but i haven't seen him since." Kai begged , "Yea by class room 364" she responded knowing Jake was indeed headed back to the commons. Kai's face got bright before Taking off towards the direction of the classroom. She new she told kai the wrong room number, he'll, he wasn't headed to a classroom at all, but Kai didn't know that, she giggled under her breathe. She walked through the main hallway and opened a door to get outside taking out her headphones so she could here the cars and the birds. Her shoulders dropped and her,body loosened, she was looking around looking at the rest of the students coming onto campus when she her a familiar voice coming from a distance. She paused and tried to follow the sound of this voice, it sounded familiar but she couldn't figure out who it was. She looked around the corner to see jake and henry fighting or at least what it appeared to be them fighting.   Both of their bodies where tense, their faces red, mouths open. She wanted to get closer to know what was going on, she had to. As she walked closer she herd a few words.
" you never there for her any more jake. Why?  Now i am supporting her more than you" henry yelled pointing at the commons area. Jake snickered, "I am supporting her, shes smiling everyday,  we eat lunch together, we talk about what's going on with our lives, she has never once said anything was going bad, for that she didn't care for me anymore, thats all that matters." Jake scoffed. "Your blind jake" she thought to her self knowing just how many times she had physically shown her discomfort in Their relationship. Before the though could full process Henry barked "Jake, your the biggest dumbass, she faking it, and she's clearly uncomfortable with you, she has spent most of her relationship with you probably questioning to end it or not. She doesn't' the really know how to cut off toxic people till they have harmed her to a point, she will not be the one to end it." Henry's breathe was heavily, she could see how heated he was getting, she didn't care to hear jakes response because Henry was right. Jake replied smoothly, " she's doing just fine she isn't faking anything in our relationship, Henry stop acting like you know", she decided it was enough and decided to come forward,
" he's right jake" she stuttered as she took a breathe and made her presence known holding her head up high, "You don't even notice half the time. As along as you are with Kai i don't even exist to you. " she hissed at him. "Wait let m-" , "no,shut up let me continue, darling, you don't care about me, you never ask how i am, you rip my headphones out of my ears, do you know how much that hurts. Do you." She yelled as she held her phones in front of his face pissed. Jakes eyes widened,  he smiled softly before pushing her hand down lightly and responding, " No i don't ,but i do it cause i want you to break out of your shell. Headphones are not going to keep you safe from the world."
"it kept her safe from you" Henry said under his breathe breaking jakes self praise. "Your fine, ok, your just mad cause am hangout with Kai more and your jealous." He snapped at her. Her face lost all expression. "No I am not, Jake you give everyone more attention then me but you give Kai the most of your attention,praise, fucking love for all I know, you have caused me, your girlfriend,emotional and physical pain, and haven't even fuckin noticed." Her breathe was heavy, and torn. She looked at Henry then back at jack, " I disappeared for a whole month avoided seeing you every morning for a whole month and you never even batted an eye." She snarled at him,her eyes wide, jaw clenched,and body tense. She felt like she could kill him at this point. Henry's face read shook, she had finally snapped, maybe she will end it finally, right here. She put her head phoned back in her ears and she mad her way to Henry's truck. She was on the verge of tears, this whole day had drained her emotionally, he really thought she was jealous of Kai but he didn't care that she was gone, it broke her. She sniffed as tears slowly rain down her face.
Meanwhile, The two boys walked around a little, still a little shocked by her actions. They thought they would find her in her normal spots, back at the table, by the tree near the orchestra room, or near the track. With no appearance of her after five minutes of looking, Zack spoke first stopping and putting his hands in his pockets, "she left ok, i will see yea tomorrow.". Henery growled under his breathe
" so you just don't care do you" he snarled. Jake shrugged " I'll see her at lunch for sure". Henry walked a crossed the street to his truck thinking she had started walking home. He was not gonna allow her to walk. He walked up and opened the front door and through his bag in and herd the sniffling. He walked around back to his truck-bed only to see her rolled up in the blankets in the back, crying.  Her bag at her feet and her face in her knees. He hopped up over the back of the truck only to sit behind her and rub her back when he noticed it. He looked down the back of her shirt noticing some weird lines on her back, he ran his hand over one and she flinched, he instantly knew what she had done.