I Still Need You

Chapter 26

Joey's POV

2 years later.

"Danny? Where are you?" I said talking to Daniel on the phone.

"I said I was going to be there later. Now stop whining and just go to sleep or something." Daniel snapped at me.

"I-I'm sorry Danny. I just w-wanted you to be home already."

"God Joseph! Got to bed! I'll be there in a while and I better see you asleep by the time I come home." Daniel said before hanging up.

I was speechless.

This has been occurring for the past 4 or 5 months. Daniel constantly having to hang out with his friends. He's never home anymore. He stopped being affectionate towards me. He pushes me away. He doesn't even tell me he loves anymore. He changed his entire demeanor ever since he saved me. He makes me think that now I was saved by him I can't do anything without his say so.

I miss the old Danny.

I just want him home with me. I want him to have his arms wrapped around me to fee protected. I want to feels his warmth wrapped around me. I miss his lips on mine. Have I said that the last time we kissed was about 3 months ago because I accidentally turned towards him on the bed and our lips touched. I miss waking up and the first thing I see is him. I just want out weird perfect relationship to go back to two years ago. Everything was going so good. I don't know what I did wrong that made Daniel like he is right now.

It's all my fault.

I was cut off from my daydreaming when I heard the front door open and slam shut. I quickly went over to the bed and pulled the covers over my body and closed my eyes, pretending to be asleep. After waiting for about twenty minutes of just rustling and Daniels voice echo through the house I got up from bed and pretend that he woke me up from my sleep.
I tiptoed downstairs but before I reached the end I overheard Daniel talking to someone on the phone. I couldn't quite exactly notify what he was saying so I swiftly headed down the stairs and creeped down the hall and tried to hear what he was saying.

"Yeah I had a lot of fun tonight."

"Oh him? Yeah he's in bed. Little fucker never lets us have our alone time."

"I'm just with him because I feel sorry for all that happened to him."

"He's too clingy. If I leave him he'll be a emotional wreck. I can't do that to him."

"Just give it a couple more months. He'll eventually get sick of me and break up with me then I can be with you."

"Okay I gotta go. Love you. Bye."

By that point I sprinted up the stairs and went under the covers again, tears falling down my cheeks from all those awful things Daniel had said about me.

He's cheating on me.

He's only with me because he feels sorry for me.

But the thing that stings the most from all I heard was that

He doesn't love me anymore.

I felt the bed dip behind me and an arm wrap around my waist, his lips attached to my neck. I instantly got up from the bed and went to the guest bedroom.

After being in the guest bedroom I hear footsteps get closer to the door, only to see the door open fast and a angry looking Daniel staring straight at me.

"What the fuck was that about Joey?!" Daniel said his stare burning a hole through my head.

"I just want to be alone."

"Oh really you, want to be alone? Fine! I'm leaving! Call me whenever you don't want to be alone!" With that Daniel slammed the door shut and walked out of the house.

I can't take this anymore. I need to be set free from all this torture I'm dealing with on my own. There's only one solution to this problem. I promised that I will never go that low again and do what I am about to do to myself but, that's the only resort I have now. I quickly go to my bathroom in our bedroom, well Daniels bedroom. I rummage through the medicine cabinet and take out a orange plastic bottle and my crusty old razor blade. I know that this doesn't help with anything, there's some many different ways to handle this situation but I don't know any other way by but my way. I open the bottle and chug down all the pills that are inside. After I feel them go down my throat I take a seat on the floor. I carefully place the razor blade on my wrist, I close my eyes tight while crossing the blade with my skin easily slicing through my skin, blood oozing through the wound. After that one another is made, three, four, five. The endless amounts of cuts I have done to both my arms and thighs is enough to put me through a calm haze. Everything in the bathroom becomes bright, the door slowly curves and swirls in front of me, all I see now is a hue of white and red. During my daze I suddenly see another figure in front of me. I feel something grab at my shoulders, shaking me. They say something but I can't here what they are saying. I'm to caught up with everything that my eyes slowly start to focus on the figure and soon enough I know that face.

Daniels.

"Joey! Baby wake up please!"

Why is Daniel even here? Doesn't he want to be with someone else? Isn't he done with me already? I thought this is what he wanted? He wanted me to break up with him so he can be with someone else. I'm just making it easier for him.

"Baby please don't die! I can't lose you!"

"This is what you wanted Daniel. You don't want me anymore."

"No! Baby I'm sorry I fucked up big time! I'm so sorry! Please don't leave like this Joey! I love you! Please!"

That's all it took. I slowly closed my eyes into a never ending sleep. My senses quickly failing me. I felt nothing. I felt free. All my worries were lifted. I didn't have a single thought in my mind. The only thing I knew was that now I can live a happy life after.

I saw a bright light ahead. I knew it was my time. It's my time to leave everything behind and be at peace. I tried to start to move my legs but they seemed to be put down. As much as I tried I wasn't able to move. I suddenly felt as if I was being pushed away from the light, this is not what I wanted to happen. I want to be happy, free, alone. I lost track of the light. I was in pitiful darkness. That darkness consumed me whole.

I felt a sharp pain at the pit of my stomach. Why do I feel this way? I'm supposed to not feel anymore pain. I'm supposed to feel free, not to deal with anything anymore. I opened my eyes to only see a white ceiling. I shifted my eyes down and saw that I had a hospital gown on. Since when am I in a hospital? I was in the bathroom just a while ago? My sight was abrupted by a figure, that figure being Daniels. He had tears going down his cheeks. Why is he crying? He doesn't even want me anymore. He's just wasting his time with me. I slowly opened my eyes more catching Daniels attention. He quickly stood up from the chair and went to the side of the hospital bed.

"Joey please don't ever do that again baby. Please don't do that again."

"Why do you care Daniel? I heard you a while ago saying that you only were with me because you felt sorry for me. You were just waiting until I broke up with you so you can finally 'be together'. I was doing you a favor. You could've just left me there to di-." I was cut off by Daniels lips against mine. Why is he doing this to me?

"I'm sorry for all that I said baby. Please I fucked up big time. I never meant to say of any of those things. I don't know what came over me. I'm just a stupid person who doesn't know how to care and love someone without having to be a slut."

I stayed quiet staring at him, still shocked from the kiss. But that shock was quickly inverted to something else that Daniel said which caused my eyes to widen instantly.

"I still need you."