When In Doubt (urban) *slow updates*

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Jay's POV

"Mmmmmmmm right there F*ck me harder " I moaned My boss was killing my shit ion think I'm going to be able to sit down he was pounding in me my ass hard my hands was still tied up and I had to go soon I felt him feel me up and pull out he kissed my neck " Jay you the best baby " he whispered in my ear

I didn't say nothing I just pulled my clothes on and got in my car it stung a little when I sat down I was heading to Anya my baby momma house we got three kids together a three year old girl and a one year old set of twin boys yeah if u can do your math right I fathered all those kids while I was with Jakaiya she didn't want kids yet because she was still young and wanted to party with hoe friends Anya and I broke up because she caught me cheating with my boss and she couldn't accept the fact that I was gay yeah i know I had thousands of secrets that my wife didn't know about and they were all marriage ending secrets

But truth be told I loved my wife and I wasn't gone lose her to no lame thug my boo Harlem which was my boss who I was just with earlier was kinda mad that my pretty face had been damaged but he got over it and daddy did make me feel right I put the child support in her mailbox and got back in my car to drive home to my lonely home I'm supposed to be sharing with my wife but she left 3 days ago we haven't texted or talked in all those 3 days it makes me mad thinking about it she probably been with that man for 3 days doing god knows what yeah she should have been left me 6 months after our relationship because that's when the cheating all started but our marriage didn't get rocky till about six months ago and that wanna be thug came 3 months ago

It all started after I got sloppy with covering up my lies most of the time I was not on business trips with my clients I was with Harlem or my kids on trips to Disney world sometimes with my wife its hard maintaining this triple life I speed through down town Atlanta trying to get home and brush my teeth and get in the shower to wash these sins off and these thoughts away I'm gonna try and call my wife after I get out the shower I unlocked the door and walked In I went straight up stairs to our bathroom and stripped out my clothes and jumped in the shower I had thousands of thoughts going through my mind most of them about ending my life so I wouldn't have to keep causing so much pain to everyone around me

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Jakaiya POV

I looked at him smiling even harder as he pouted about getting whooped in black opps I knew D.C. Let me win this round cause I was lacking majorly in this round he pulled his head to my "it's okay you big baby I'll let you win next time" I said mushing his cheeks together like a baby would he rolled his eyes and knocked my hand away I got up giggling I had to pee I walked into our bathroom did I just our bathroom wow I'm getting a little bit too comfortable I peed and washed my hands I was putting on hand lotion when my phone started vibrating in my bra I pulled it out to see who was calling me

It was Jay wow a whole three days we haven't spoken and he wants to call now I picked up the phone nervously

'Hey Baby'
' it's so nice to here your voice Jakaiya '
' yeah nice to hear yours too are you okay? your injuries looked a little severe the last time I saw you '
'Yeah I'm fine just miner cuts and bruises the doctor said I would heal faster if I had the one I loved most by my side '
' hahaheha your funny but I'm glad your okay'
' I'm serious when are you coming home I miss you and I'm ready to work things out and listen but I wanna come clean to you also so we can start our marriage back off on the right track ' he said lowly like he is scared

'Just tell me right now and then we can talk everything out over a dinner date or something' I say cause I wanna know what it is
' it's so much stuff that I don't even know where to start'
I roll my eyes what is he up too ' start from the beginning of the story '

' well I'm bisexual I like girls and guys ' he says I take a gasp and put the phone down and on speaker
' I was gay at first until my baby mother Anya she had gotten pregnant with my child sophomore year but it died ' he said okay this was a lot
' so if the baby died how is she your baby momma?' I asked curiosity peeking through every word
' I have to tell you those parts face to face but anyways we broke up 6 months before you and I met and started dating because she caught me with another man ' he said okay this is too much he is Gay that's it that's all

' I wanna hear the other parts now '

' no I gotta tell you those things face to face we could meet at Diamonds house today so we're on common ground when I tell the biggest secrets of all ' he says

' yeah meet me there at 5 sharp '

'Ok- click ' I hang up

This better not be no bullshit I lock my phone and see D.C. standing there with a angry expression on his face " so you gonna stay with him after you see he can't be the man I can be for you " he says I roll my eyes I don't feel like dealing with him right now and his little kiddy emotions " he is my husband the man I gave my life and heart to of course I'm gonna try and work my marriage out '' I say giving him the duh face he walks closer to me and grabs my hands " does he love you like I do ? y'all don't have history like we do, he can't even please you! he is never home your just like the favorite trophy on his shelf that he polishes often '' he says and that really gets to me because it's true and that's how I've always felt

" he just reviled some big secrets to me like that he's bisexual and has a baby mother " I say looking down I'm really confused and unsure about things now " wow see I told you something was off about him and you didn't wanna listen " said D.C. yeah way to rub it in my face that my husband isn't who I thought he was I looked at my feet even more he grabbed my head mad tilted it up " yo pussy should turn any man straight " he says I smile that goofy smile and so does he I look into his cold red eyes from smoking and find warmth he leans downs and our lips connect I let out a soft sigh because we haven't done anything but cuddle at night before sleeping these three days the kiss gets deeper and rough he pushes me against the wall by the shower I grind my body closer to his he picks me up I wrap my legs around his shirt less torso

All I have on is a T-shirt and panties he just has on shorts not even boxers so I really feel him against me I hear the shower turn on in our kiss he pulls back we both suck in a breath he starts kissing down my neck and he looks me in the eyes I look back at him lust fully he pulls my shirt over my head and he eyes my boobs like there a prize he then pulls down my panties he blows at my hot wet lips while he's down there just to add shock i pulled him up and kissed him I pulled back and pushed his shorts down I watched them pool at his ankles he smirks at my little gesture and pulls me in the shower the water is hot just at that comfortable hot his friend is past my belly button because he's at full attention and towering over me " hmmm so many things to choose from " he whispers in my ear I kissing him soothingly on the lips he grabs my waist and pulls me closer he pulls back from the kiss he gave me that look with hoodie eyes and he got on his knees He started kisses my wet shakey thighs and kissed his way up to my heated sex he started with slow licks he completely swallowed my whole kitty he lifted my legs up over his shoulders and took me to even further heavens above this one

I rubbed the last bit of lotion into his back I stopped counting the times I came after the 6th one we didn't have sex but he gave more pleasures of the flesh I was dressed and he was partially dressed we were going to diamonds house well I was but he wanted to be nosey and tag along I had my luggage with me just In case it was time to go home to my husband and tonight I was gonna come clean to everything I had done that and I wasn't to be doing and hope that he still loves and forgives me for what I've done