When In Doubt (urban) *slow updates*

Posed To Be In Love

lowing up the phone, hope she see me calling her.
I whip up in the drive way she done packed up all my stuff.
And I'm like what the fuck, can't even talk to her
Ain't gone lie this pussy good, it make me feel like stalking her.

We supposed to be in love, we posed to be in love
We supposed to be in love, til it ain't no breaking up
We supposed to be in love, til it ain't no breaking up
Any way that we can talk about it, it ain't no walking out
We posed to be in love...

Jay POV

it was so many things I had to tell her I really didn't wanna lose her some times you live and you learn I just know I can never do this again because I have hurt to many people round me especially the most important person in my life my wife all because I couldn't get myself together I would pick her over them any day

I know we might never get back together but I would at least like us to be friends some day but that may never happen because of the poor choices I made I mean I can never say I regret my kids but I do regret that they aren't by her she was the perfect woman I just know I wont allow that slime bag D.C. he does not deserver her I cant possibly see him doing anything good for her but leading her to her death

I snapped outta my thoughts when I felt my daughter pulling on my pants leg I smiled and picked her up and kissed her head and took her to the kitchen to feed her and her siblings I made them some sandwiches with chips then I texted there momma what time to come get them I was on my way to filing for full custody cause me and my baby mother have a strained relationship since all the secrets affected her too but she knew from day one

I texted my lawyer to see if he was still working on the papers and if not when will she be served this divorce was my wake up call and I wont mess up and after I get my self together I will get kayia back and I'm gonna do way better

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Jakayia POV

I woke up from a good sleep last night I fell asleep at my baby crib we got high and drunk with our close friends we had a little kick back me and Daniel were dating but I didn't wanna be too serious cause I still didn't fully trust him and I wanted to completely be done with my divorce which is dragging on

Daniel was in the bed knocked out him and Cortez had some syrup , xans , and weed and liquor last night they partied hard him and Diamond were in the guest room knocked out I kissed my babies forehead and got up

I washed up and then went into the kitchen to make breakfast for everyone about thirty minutes into me cooking Diamond came in and helped me cook for our men me and her in the kitchen was dangerous we could throw down we turned on us some Kevin gates he be having you turned up but be laying facts on you

we was swinging our hips and making guns outta out hands to his song I felt hands on my waist I turned around it was Daniel he leaned down and I pecked his lips he smacked my butt " hurry up with my food woman " he said then he sat at the table and started smoking a blunt with Cortez I frowned at him he know I hate when he do that in the house

yeah I smoked but not like that everyday all day everywhere like how he does I was fixing plates I sat them on the table and everybody dug in and for some reason the smell of everybody eggs had my stomach upset I don't eat eggs so I had none on my plate I felt it coming up so I ran to the bathroom and I heard Diamond coming right behind me

I flung the seat up and threw up everything from this morning to last night I felt terrible " girl is you good ?" asked Diamond i took a deep breath to get my self together " yes i think its just the drinking from last night but them eggs made me sick girl" i tell her washing my mouth out with mouth wash i looked at her in the mirror she had that look on her face " what ! ?" i asked she giggled " girl is you sure your not pregnant ?" she asked i almost choked on the water in my mouth

i spit it out and fluffed my hair and turned to her " girl i don't have time to be getting pregnant I'm going through a lot and plus I'm not even married to the would be father " i say to her she giggles i roll my eyes nothing about this is funny i was in no position for this right now even though that was my dream to be a mom and be in love with a great career " who is the baby daddy anyway Daniel or your soon to be ex husband Johnathan " she asked

a look of pure panic came to my face what she was saying could be true but I'm pretty sure Daniel was the father because Johnathan always pulled out or we used condoms but it only takes once and i know me and Daniel never used anything because we were always in the heat of the moment when it happens and i know he knows what he be doing

i looked over at diamond she had a funny look on her face " yo chill I'm not pregnant and if i was for sure Daniel is the father i aint gone have  nothing to keep me tied to that bastard " i told her opening the door and pushing her out and she was laughing all the way back to the table " yo baby you good ? do we need to go to the doctor? " asked Daniel i smiled at how sweet he was and caring he was about me " no baby I'm fine it was the eggs there smell just got to me ill be fine eat your breakfast I'm good " i tell him he looks at me for moment then gets back to eating i grab his hand he squeezes mine back

" you know what they say when food smells start to affect yo eating habits " says Cortez i admittedly throw down Daniels hand slam my plate down in anger I'm tired of people saying well mainly them it wasn't true " IM NOT PREGNANT SO STOP SAYING THAT " I say then i kick my chair out of the way and walk into the bedroom at this point I'm heated i put on some sweats and grab my purde I'm about to go home to my loft i bought and relaxed away from them and all this mommy talk cause if its true I'm not ready

" where you going " asked Daniel getting up from the table when i walked through with all my stuff " I'm going home where you think I'm going i say trying to move outta his reach " i say he looked all calm about this like he don't care that i could possibly be pregnant " you don't gotta leave" he said  i kissed him and went to the door " i just wanna be alone right now you can come over later or i might come back over " i say then i walk out the door

D.C. aka Daniel Cole POV

everything was coming along Kayia might be pregnant with my baby and if she is I'm gonna propose earlier than i thought and have my family like how i wanted from the beginning