AloneMy Story

Chapter Three

They say bad experience's are the ones that make us the people who we are today... well they maybe but for some and only some they can ruin us tearing us apart from the inside out.

The next couple of moths was just a blur I could hardly concentrate at school the bulling was getting wars and I started to self harm (cut) on my inner thighs and wrist and stomach finding some comfort and release, by this time I had learned haw to fake being happy I didn't know what to do with myself , I started to sleep around with people without a care in the world were when or what would happen to me. I was in my last year of school when I told my mum..

"erm..... mum" I said scared not to shore haw to would react, I was scared that I might of bin pregnant at the time dew to I hadn't bin on my period in a mouth I started to panic. My grandmother was in town at the time as we were shopping I know I know not the best time to tell some one but I wonted help and comfort. She turned to me as we walked dawn the street behide my nan

" yes" she seid sounding slightly annoyed. I smiled gritting my teeth hoping she would help

"well.. er... I have some news and well I need help" I spoke trying to be confidant and not freak out.

"what's that.. you know I will help you any way I can" she smiled, I smiled back weekly

" I think I might be pregnant.." I said clearly looking at her as her face as it changed from happy to pour disgust.

"what!.." shock and anger written all over her face

" you stupid stupid girl!" she spat

"what's going on?" my nan asked as she herd all the commotion my mum was making.

She turned to her " Kaylee could be pregnant" mum said in a serious tone. Nans face dropped

"what! Do you knows who's it is ?" she asked as she stopped and staired at me. I shook my head keeping my mouth shut.

"you stupid girl do you think you could bring a baby into this world?, you would have to stop school and raise a child .... Would you like to be like those people on fen side.. do you wont that ?!" mum questioned

"no" I choked holding back the tiers , my mum always said she would stand my our side if anything had happed she would help us out but then it come to it she wouldn't.

"I thought you were better then that ... you're a disappointment Kaylee" nan said in anger and she started to walk off, mum nodded her head in agreement I said nothing just kept walking as I am suddenly stopped by my nan stepping in front of me.

"you know what you are kaylee..." she spat. I shook my head.

" your a SLUT!" she shouted I felt my hart twinge in pain, she begin to walk off with mum hot on her hills.

"but... you didn't even give me a chance to explain" I chocked

"no! .... She is right kaylee YOR A SLUT" mum said as she pointed at me looked at my nan and begin mumbling about me loud enough for me to heir but low enough for me not to understand or only make out bits. I slowly walked behide them fighting the tiers that are know streaming dawn my face, she always said she was there for us I thought as I dragged my feet across the floor.

"Haw could I be so STUPID" I yelled at myself inside my head, at lest up there on one could see that I was braking dawn that I was losing my mide. That night I felt so disgusted with myself I just wonted to be alone. "they are right..." I thought as I at on my bed studding. " I would have to give up everything ... my school life , my friends.. I would ether have to be on the doll or..." I shook my head trying to not keep thinking about it but I couldn't their words kept echoing in my mide. "I guess that more people who hate me know my own family" I siye out loud.

 This want the only time some one had done something like this...

I was in year 10 (15 years old) on my first week and work experience in a polity farm, I loved it I worked hard looking after all the birds (chicken, ducks, peacocks) there as well as attending to customers, clenching egg candling them as well as the other chores that needed to be done around the farm. The owners were lovely there grand children come round often so to make shore they were safe I look play and look after them as well as doing my work.

One day I spoke to my boss (Jasper) about never really seeing a tree house before and that I wonted to be able to have one one day.

"you wonna see a tree house?" he asked as I was rounding up the ducks and turkeys back into their pen.

I nodded "oo yes please ... wait ... you have one?" I asked abit surprised, he smiled and nodded.

"yes, me and my grandchildren are in the process of building one up there" he pointed to the emu pen "just behide them in the trees" he said pointing to the small forest line.

"ok" I smiled nodding as I clipped onto the tractor and drove him as well as the waste in the taller behide to the front gate.

"here you go this will distract them" he said as he past my a yellow bucket with pellets in it.

"throw it on the ground quick before they take it off you" just as he spoke on of them bit me

"ow... that hurt" waved my hand about and quickly as I could throw the food in the pen giving us enough time to go though.

"come on ... the tree house it just over this fence and a cuppel of trees" he chuckled as he leg me though the mine forest" I nodded as he spoke and followed his lead waving in and out of the thick bush to see four scaffolding post with a ladder underneath them. As I got closer I could see on top of the scaffolding was 6 big thick and long dirty planks of wood.

"o cool.." I said alittel disappointed.

"you can go up there if you like"

"you shore" I said looking for is approval.

He smiled and nodded "that's fine love don't worry" I clamed the dirty ladder I was never one to be bothered by dirt I thought it was stupid haw girls would get all stupid about it. "this is cool" I smiled "its coming along nicely" he nodded as I begin to swing around on the scaffolding climbing dawn instead of using the ladder.

He laughed "your like a monkey" I smiled

"nah I just like claiming" I shrugged as I jumped dawn and stated to walk back.

I begin to feel his hands massage my shoulders worried I pulled away alittel realizing his grip had tightened pulling be back. In one swift move he turned me round grabbing my face with on hand as the other holds he tight ageist his body so I was unable to move I froze I tried to pull away but he just pulled be tighter towards him as he kissed me on the lips, my eyes opened in shock as I pulled away again just as he loosed his grip. I stayed calm not showing that I was shocked and scared by what he had just done.

" you ok" he asked

I smiled " I am ok thank you I just got a celled from my mum though she is waiting for me" I liyed

"ok well lets get going then" he said as he led the way

as quickly as I could I jumped on the tractor and drove it dawn the car pack 2 minutes away, getting off I smiled.

"see you later" I waved trying to act like nothing happened. He smiled and wave back. I walked as quickly as I could to the driveway of the farm the with was on a dawnwers hill. I stat on a old tree stum that was out of the way and facing the rode the were one else could see me but the people entering the farm, before I could stop them tiers stared to flood dawn my face. What had happened???... my boss...my 65 year old boss just kissed me in a romantic way.. I tried to clam dawn as I let what just happed sink in, before I new it my mum was in the car picking me up and taking me home. "you ok ?" she questioned with concerned look on her face I just nodded in response.

I was working there before that week for just over two mouths, after that I never went back there again and just made the excuse that I wonted to focus on my Corse work which of curse I didn't care about I just never wonted to go back there again.