Some Secretes Are Meant To Be Told (Frerard)

I Should've Known

Okay Ive been going through a really big writters block so just cope with me. This chapter might not be the best but just cope with me. Please

(Also Im sorry for any mispelling and grammatical errors)

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"So this is your place?" Gerard asked as he slowly walked into my house and looked around.

"I mean I only saw your room, when I climbed into your window that one time but I had never actually seen your house......actually I didnt even see your room. I just jumped in told you what I needed to tell you then just climbed out......" he mumbled.

I smiled at him. God he's so fucken adorable when he starts to bable about pointless shit. 

"Well how bout we...uh...how about we watch a movie or something" I said

"What movies do you have?"

"Uh......let me check" I said as I walked over to where my living room TV was at. I had a small pile of DVDs that I owned right next to it. I leaned down and started scanning the many DVD's I owned.

"Uuuum....what kind of movie do you feel like watching?" I asked

Gerard walked over to me and kneeled down next to me. He started to scan my DVD's. His eyes focusing on every DVD, making his eye brows arch down a little bit. He honestly looked really sexy right now but honeslty he might not even look sexy right now in someone elses eyes. I mean I am a horny 17 year old that just started to date the guy hes been crushing on for a long time. Right now Gerard would even look sexy to me of he was wearing a chicken suit. 

"What are you staring at Frankie?" Gerard asked with a smirk. I quickly looked away.I could feel my face turning dark red.

"Uh....n-nothing....just looking at the wall" I said

"Aha and I was looking at the pink elephant on your kitchen counter" 

I looked at Gerard and smiled at him. He smiled back at me and leaned in and kissed my cheek.

"You're fucken adorable Frankie" he said as he stood up. A DVD on his hand.

"What movie did you choose?" I asked

"The Shining. Is that okay with you?" 

"Yeah that totally fine, I love that movie"

"Okay...where shall we watch this?"

"Uuum....I have a DVD player in my room" I said as I grabbed his hand and pulled him towards my room.

"Frankie I didnt know you were kinky" Gerard said with a smirk. I looked back at him and smiled.

I opened my bedroom door and walked in. I sat down on my bed and watched as Gerard carefully looked around my room. He walked over to my TV and turned it on, I was about to go and help him figure out where my DVD was at but he was able to figure that out by himself. He put the DVD in and came and sat down next to me.

I shifted closer to him and rested my head on his shoulder. The movie started and I was honestly not even paying attnetion to it. I kept on day dreaming and thinking about other stupid things. 

After a couples of minutes of me doozing of into space I heard someone walking downstairs. Is mom home? I thought she said she was staying late at work, weird. Oh well, maybe the jerk of a boss let her out early. 

Suddenly my door was quickly opened and a dark figure stood there in the door way. I sat up and was about to reach for my phone when a pair of hands grabbed me and threw me to the wall, making me loose my vision for a while. I slowly stood up just in time to see this dark figure knock Gerard out. 

I ran towards Gerard but the man grabbed me by my throat and pushed me onto the wall. His hands slowly started to get tighter around my neck, allowing me to only breath small short breaths. The man moved closer to me making me finally recognize who he was. 

"D-Dad p-please st-stop. Pl-please dont hu-hurt m-me" I managed to say in between short breaths.

He leaned closer to me, making his hand push on my throat. Allowing me to only see his eyes. His eyes that were full of hatred. Hate that my mom and I left him. I shouldve known this was going to happen, I shouldve known that my father was going to be the one to kill me. 

Yet right now the only thing I was thinking about was what he was going to do to Gerard. He had never liked that I was gay, he thought that it was a disgrace to the family name. He thought that I deserved to rut in hell for being gay. He was probably going to kill Gerard once he was through with me. 

He let go of my throat making me fall to the ground. I struggled to catch my breath when I suddenly felt a foot kick my ribs making me tumble to my side. I looked up and saw my dad pull out a gun. He looked down at me and aimed his gun to my head and smiled. 

"Frank" 

I closed my eyes. I shouldve known this was going to happen. 

"Frank wake up" 

I opened my eyes and saw Gerard leaning over me. He looked really worried. I slowly stood up and looked around. It was all just a dream, no not a dream. A fucken nightmare.

"Im sorry. I just. I was gonna let you sleep but then you started mumbling something about your dad hurting you or something like. And well your face was titching so I just felt the need to wake you up from your nightmare" Gerard whispered. I looked over at him and gave him a small smile.

"Its okay Gee....thanks for waking me up" I said as I gave him a small kiss on the cheek. He gave me a small smile then looked down.

"Frankie?"

"Yeah"

"Are you hiding something from me?"

Gerard looked up at me, he looked really scared for me. Should I tell him? I mean he is my boyfriend and you're suppose to share everything with your boyfriend even if its bad. But....at the same time most people don't have my horrible secrete. If he found out he might leave me. He might think that Im to much of a problem to deal with, he might even think that its not worth being with such a wreck like me. He might leave me if I tell him. No. He would leave me. Hell I would leave myself. 

"No Im not hiding anything from you Gee"