Cross My Heart (on hold)

Nice not knowing you

HEYYYYY yalllll !!!!!! *waves* this chapter is about Melissa and her new boo thang Kevin AKA dread head. Y'all should suggest some people who could be Kevin. Make sure he's a yella dread head...and suggest pictures for jerrick too. He may be lil scrappy though. Anywhoooo, enjoy !

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Melissa POV:

This morning was terrible. I only got 4 hours of sleep, Malik wouldn't stop crying and talking about Jerrick and I still had a big halfway empty house that I had to go out shopping for, so that was heavy on my mind too.

Jerrick wouldn't be picking up Malik until about 3:00 and it was only 11:15 now so I decided to go and get my house shopping out of the way. "Come on baby, mommy has to go to the store." I said to Malik. "Can we go to Wally World ?" He asked. For some reason that I don't know, Malik liked Walmart. "Yep ! That's where we're goin." I said. "Oooo yay !" He said jumping up and down. I laughed and looked at how happy he was. I love my son.

I put on a pair of light grey sweats and a white t-shirt with a pocket on the front. I went and found a pair of socks to wear then I slipped on my nike slides. I put my hair in a regular pony tail and let some hair from the sides hang. I spritzed water all over my hair to get my hair back curly. I love being natural ! After that I put some diamond studs in my ears, put my carmex on and then Malik and I were out the door and on our way to Walmart.

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I was walking around roaming the store, pushing Malik in the buggy when I heard my name being called. "Melissa ! Melissa ! Get yo ass over here !" I heard a man say. "Who the fuck....." I said to myself as I turned around to face the voice. By coincidence, it was a man trying to get his little daughter, Melissa, to stop running all over the store. I turned back around and laughed to myself. Malik was about to see his mom act out because I was gonna go the fuck off on that man.

I kept walking and not even five minutes later I heard another person say my name. "Melissa ?" They said. "Ugh ! not this shit again." I said to myself. Ok, either people need to stop naming their babies after me or somebody needs to tell me the next time there's gonna be a Melissa convention at Walmart. "Melissa !" The person called out again. I kept walking and tried to not here the person calling someone else with my name. "Mommy." Malik said pointing behind me. Then I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around to see a familiar face. Dread head ?

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Kevin's POV:

"Mommy." The little boy in the buggy said while he pointed at me. 'What the hell ? Did he just say "mommy" ?' I thought to myself. I was almost a hundred percent sure that this lady I tapped on the shoulder was Melissa. That is until the little boy said mommy. It had been about a week since the club but I'd never forget that face. The woman turned around and I saw that familiar face. It was Melissa ! She was even more beautiful in the light. I smiled at how beautiful she was. "Bartender guy ?" She laughed. I guess I never told her my name. "I see you remembered my name." She smiled. "It wasn't hard ma." I replied.

Damn, sweats nike slides and a t-shirt has never looked better on anybody else. At the club she was bad but here, in the middle of Walmart, she looked like a goddess ! She didn't even have on makeup and it damn sure ain't a lot of fees who can pull that off.

"You never came back to see me,ma." "I didn't lie to you, I was gonna come back just for you." She smiled. "But I've been busy..." She said frowning a little. "With what ?" I asked as we started walking down an isle. "Eh, a lil of this...a lil of that." She said. "But anywho... You never told me ya name. To be honest I gave you the name dread head." She giggled. Aha ! I been on her mind so much she had to give me a nick name. "Its Kevin." I smiled. "Mmkay, now all I need is your number." She said bluntly. It kinda shocked me that she was that confident. "Oh so you think you got it like that ?" I said laughing. She turned to look at me and then said "Do I not ?" She said biting her lip. She knows what she's doing. "Aight aight. I'll give you that." I said it like I wasn't going to anyway. Melissa can have whatever she want ! "So can I see your phone ?" She asked. "Sure." I said giving it to her so she could put her number in it. While she did that I was checking out the stuff in her buggy. 'Snacks, rugs, curtains...eww, pads.' I said to myself. 'Least that mean she ain't prego.' I thought. Oh shit ! Speaking of pregnant....is this her son ? I forgot all about that "mommy" shit. Lil man been sitting here in the buggy just quiet the whole time.

"So who's lil man ? Nephew...godson ?" I asked. She finished saving her number in my phone and then looked up at me. "Nah, he's all mine." She said looking back at him. "Say hi Malik." "Hi." He said plain. "Whassup lil man !" I said tryna brighten the situation.

Damn man, she got a kid ! I was really feeling shorty but now... I don't know man. That's a whole package right there. I ain't tryna be nobody daddy man.

It got quiet for a minute but then she broke it. "Guess I gotta go..." She said turning back to face her buggy. "It was nice seeing you again Melissa." I said. "Yeah..." She said about to walk away. 'Shit !... Fuck ! Say somethin nigga, you can't just let her walk away!' "Melissa wait !" I said stopping her from walking away. 'Stupid, stupid, stupid!' "Uh...we should chill sometime...." She laughed a little. "Look, I been a mom for three years. I know how it works. You see me. You think I'm cute. You wanna get to know me...but when you do...you back out. Just be real, I know you don't really wanna chill so....let's just leave it at that ?" She said bluntly. I didnt reply.

Damn, she was making me feel bad and she wasn't even trying to. "I thought so..." She said as she started to turn away. "Nice meetin you though Kevin."

I stood there looking stupid. I couldn't even say anything.....

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Melissa POV:

It was about 2:30 and I was packing Malik's bag for him to go stay with Jerrick for a couple days. That boy loves his father. I gotta say though, Jerrick loves Malik too. Malik is the only thing Jerrick seems to be caring about but as far as I'm concerned that's how it needs to be. I have to admit I'm ALWAYS worried about Malik when he leaves with Jerrick. He's a fucking street hit man ! He could have my son around anything ! But Malik never says anything bad or picked up any bad habits so I'm hoping that's a sign that he's being taken care of.

Malik was sitting in a chair looking out of the window. I couldn't get him to do anything. It's like he thought if he left for 2 seconds his father was gonna come and then leave him just like that. He didn't even bother to get his Incredible Hulk toy ! "He's here mommy he's here ! Daddy's here !" He said jumping away from the window and running towards the door. "Boy, get yo ass back in here and wait till he comes in !" He walked over with his pouty face and sat back in the chair. "Keep actin like that and you ain't goin nowhere." I warned him.

Jerrick came up to the porch and opened the door and came inside. "Where 'lik at ?" He said, talking about Malik. I pointed over to the chair to let him know where Malik was. "Daddy ! Daddy ! I missed you !" He said running up to his dad. "Whassup lil man !" Jerrick said picking Malik up. Malik giggled in his fathers arms. "Here." I said holding up Malik's bag of clothes. Jerrick came over and got it from me and put it around his shoulder. "Aight man, tell your mom goodbye." He said to Malik. "Bye momma...." He started reaching for me while he was still in Jerrick's arms. I grabbed him and held him for a little bit. "I love you mommy !" He said while wrapping his little arms around my neck. "Mommy loves you too ok 'lik ?" He nodded his head. "Gimme kisses." I said puckering my lips. Malik gave me a kiss with a big 'mwah' sound and then I put him down so he could walk back to his dad. "I'll have him back on time." Jerrick said. "Mhm." I said with a fake smile. After that they were walking out the door hand in hand.

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I was laying in my bed all alone in my empty house all depressed and shit. Malik was gone with Jerrick and I was just laying down watching Cartoon Network. I haven't had a good relationship since Malik's father. There been guys here and there but they never last...

I don't know why guys jump scared at the sight of a fee with a kid. I mean I'm not asking nobody to take care of my child except for his father. What is there to be scared of ? I'm a regular woman, why can't I have a regular relationship ?

All these questions were getting me in my feelings. I need distractions ! "You've never done me wrong righty. You love me for who I am." I said looking at my hand. There's no greater distraction than porn, masturbation or just sex !

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Lol don't think I'm a weirdo y'all ! Lol but anywho... I like this chapter. It's a good length and it was a little interesting. Mr.perfect ain't so perfect...any who, y'all know the routine. Vote and comment !