Querencia | ✔ (EDITING)

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I think seeing him crying was one of the biggest pains I've ever felt. Believe me when I say that you don't know what pain is until you see the man that you love crying in front of you.

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

If you are waiting for a cute love history that ends in a happy beautiful and totally usual ending, you are searching in the wrong place because this is real life and in real life shit like this doesn't happen, first because I'm not an ordinary woman well not anymore but in the past I was. I was polity, I was rich, I was "ordinary". In the past I was about to get married with a man that I didn't love, that I didn't know but them I did. I take a decision by myself for the first time in my life and I decided to run away of my own wedding , i decided to run away with him.

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

I have 23 years of life and I live in an apartment tiny as fuck with the man that help me find my happiness. First things first my boyfriend have a Possessive Personality Disorder, no one knows how or when started the doctors keep saying that this Possessiveness is not wealth and in some cases is life threatening for both of us and tonight he almost lost control.

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

He was being awful quiet since we left the club, eyes straight ahead, hands that usually are at my thigh or holding mine are gripping the steering wheel with such a force that his knuckles are turning white, jaw clenched and I don't know what the hell happened for him to being like this but I have a feeling that I will not like the answer.
By the time we get home he went straight to the restroom and it was beyond weird he didn't even talked to me and when I hear the door being slammed so loud that I'm sure the walls of our little home shaked I knew something was up and if I didn't ask he surely wouldn't talk. I was waiting for him get out of the shower when I listened the sound of something broke the blood in my body freeze and my heart was beating so fast I think I would have a heart attack "it can't be" "he didn't have an attack in almost a year" I jump from the bed and start bang in the door screaming his name, I swear to god if he didn't open this damn door I will broke this thing in two. By the time he open the door I was almost crying in fear that he hurt himself.

When you love someone but it goes to waste

could it be worse?

And when he opened the door I almost wish that he didn't, the mirror was in thousand of pieces with a hole right in the middle, the restroom was a mess just like him. His hair was all over the place his eyes bloodshot, heavy breath leaving his nose and a thin line of sweaty dripping down his face the veins in his head popping but the worst was his hand, blood was dripping down his long fingers few pieces of glass from the mirror was all over his knuckles and I was freaking the fucking out.

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

"what the fuck have you done?" - my voice was calm and low if he was in the middle of an attack scream will just make everything a lot worst.

"WHAT DO YOU THINK I HAVE FUCKING DONE? I PUNCHED THE FUCKING MIRROR ARE YOU BLIND OR JUST STUPID?" - I did everything that I could and ask every god to give me strength to not scream back and send him to hell.

"why?"

"YOU WANNA KNOW WHY? okay I will give you why"

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