Limitless

Chapter 11

Mo turns and walks into my bedroom. I go after her grabbing her hand gently stopping her from grabbing the sweater dress she was wearing when she arrived.
She won't say a word. She won't even look at me. It's like I'm not standing here with her in my grasp.
" Mo it's NOT what you think. Please... it's complicated and I wasn't expecting that AT ALL from her. She's STRAIGHT so I thought. I don't know what she was thinking! Please talk to me? I have strong feelings for you and I don't really know what else to say.."
She finally turns to look at me and she smiles a fake smile and says," I think you need to figure out what you want to do because I have feelings for you too. I want to be with you but I'm not going to be a back up plan and I sure as hell don't share. So, take some time and hit me up later when you got your head on straight."
I lean in to kiss her lips and she turns her face so I only get a cheek. She grabs her dress, changes back into her previous attire, and leaves. I go face a blunt and pass out on my bed, not to wake up until the next morning.
When I wake up and roll over, my clock on my nightstand says 4:30 Am. I have so much work I need to do. I've been trying to keep up with my out of class assignments this past week, but it can get a little over whelming.
I get up and go take a shower. When I get out I go to my kitchen and fix me some Fruity Pebbles and take them to my room to eat. As I sit down and start shoveling pebbles down my throat, I start rolling my body to my ring tone, Dessert by Dawin. It's all fine and dandy until I answer the unknown call and hear a familiar voice..
" Hey.", the voice says.
" Hello.. Who is this?"
"You already know.."
" I hope it's not who I think it is..."
" Girl stop playin'.. Sorry I had to do it like that. If you would have just LISTENED and STOPPED BEING SO FUCKING FOOLISH.. we wouldn't have had a problem! But I forgive you so when you're ready to STOP being an ASS you can come back."
" Derek I'm going to tell you one good time. STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME! Don't fucking CALL me! Don't TEXT me! Don't come by here! I don't WANT you! I'm a LESBIAN! I left you because I was just using you as a cover up and I didn't want to hurt your feelings by saying that, but nigga FUCK YOUR FEELINGS! I dare you to try that shit again! You are lucky I didn't have your ass locked up so that YOU can go through the same pain you put mine through! Make out your Will because nigga if I find you or you come at me again, I PROMISE YOU GONE COME UP MISSING!"
I hang up the phone before he can give a response.
No one has ever made me blank so hard. I usually try to control my temper but I've HAD it with him! He fucking RAPED me dude! That's NOT okay! And then he has the AUDACITY to act like it was my fault I got raped! Like, LIL BITCH come at me again! I'll slice your fucking SKULL OPEN! STUPID ASS BITCH!
I find myself completely enraged and full of hatred and disgust. I'm pacing a ditch in my floor. Back and forth. Back and forth. My palms are sweaty and I can feel the steam rising from my scalp.
My hands are shaky and I can feel my heart thumping, trying to bust through my rib cage. Tears fall from my burning, red hot, eyes. It's like I can see the future. I see me with a rope around his throat and wooden flag pole jammed into his asshole. I see the rope also wrangling his ball sack while he screams in agony. My thoughts are racing through my head, over flowing my brain.
I have to get out! I need to go! These walls! I can't! I just can't!..
I put on my sweatpants quickly and slip on my all black Vans and grab the keys to my car and my wallet. I rush out the door grabbing my black hoodie on the way out.
There is no more sadness.. There is no more fear.. There is only RAGE..