Four Years (Finished)

Chapter 18

A/N: Hi everyone!!! SURPRISE UPDATE!! But I think from now on I'll just update every Friday. Hope you guys enjoy this chapter.

Life was tough after I left Harry. I was all alone and I refused to let anyone in. My mom continued to call, so did Harry and the boys, so I finally decided to cut off my cellphone too. I was lost and had no idea where my life was going. I felt like I didn't have any options. Going back circulated through my mind a couple times but I just couldn't do it. I wasn't going to be selfish enough to go back. But I was hurting and I felt like the only other option was to end it all. I just didn't want to hurt anymore. I saw no light at the end of my tunnel that was until I met Hannah. I remember it like it was just yesterday.

I wiped away my tears pulling my sleeves over the lines on my wrists. I stepped out into the cold climate pulling my hood up over my head. The rain pushed against me as I slowly made my way to the highway. The feeling of the cars rushing passing me was exhilarating. I could see the newspapers now. Jane Doe Hit by a Car, Dies Instantly. Nobody would ever know my real intentions, they'd just think it was a freak accident. My parents would later see it and finally be done searching for me. I had it all planned out and I decided why not end my life on the day it began. My 19th birthday...this is definitely not how I thought I'd be spending it but it's for the best. I slowly neared the edge of the sidewalk waiting for just the right time before "falling". I hear the screech of a car and waited for the collision.

"Oh my goodness! Are you okay?" I turned towards the bright headlights watching a girl get out. "Excuse me? Are you okay?" she repeats and that's when I break down. She pulled me into a tight hug lightly brushing the back of my head as I sobbed into her chest.

Hannah helped me realize that ending my life wouldn't end the pain. I told Hannah everything that day, about "Larry" and leaving my family and thinking about ending my life. Lucky for me she didn't freak out and think I was crazy she knew just how to handle the situation. She was a leader of an anti-suicide group and after about two months of rehabilitation and Hannah by my side I was once again strong. Hannah literally saved my life that day and I really believe she is my guardian angel sent from above

I woke up from my dream feeling horrible. I wouldn't be alive today if it weren't for Hannah and I totally got all pissy at her yesterday. I walked into the living room looking for my phone and I found Hannah and Harry asleep on the couch. Her head was on his chest and his arm was wrapped carefully around her. I smiled to myself before pulling out some orange juice, eggs and bacon and got to work.

By the time I finished breakfast both Harry and Hannah had both woken up from their deep sleep due to the wonderful smell. What could I say I am an amazing cook.

"This is really good Hails, I miss your cooking." Hannah smiles taking a huge bite of her eggs.

"Thanks. It's the least I could do after being so rude yesterday. I'm really sorry for the way I acted I was just tired." I lie with a shrug.

"It was my fault, I guess I should probably try and get along with Gemma. I mean we're going to be sisters in less than five months."

"Yeah, maybe Harry could call her later and you guys could grab lunch or something?" I suggest turning toward them.

"That's a great idea Hails."

"No problem. More eggs?" I say holding up the pan.

"Yes please." Hannah and Harry both say.

"Looks like I'll be making more." I grin pulling more eggs out of the fridge.

"Aren't you going to have some?" Harry says as I wipe the eggs off onto his plate.