Dear Diary

Part 3

Hey people so today is the 19 of December 2015. I am on Christmas break and I have done nothing productive whatsoever. And I'm completely fine with that lol pretty sure my parents are going to get tired of me though. I haven't gone out with my "friends" in a while. I don't know guys I'm starting to realize that maybe my uncle is right you don't actually have friends just acquaintances. I'm the type of person that hates being alone so I try to always have a group of friends. You know just in case one is absent I still have someone to hang out with at lunch. Funny thing is that I'm in college now and I'll be lucky if I talk to two different people a day. I have made some friends but we're not close enough to go out and do things. I don't know if this is making sense. Just having a group of friends that you can call or text whenever and make plans with are very rare for me to have. In highschool those are the only friends you have but once you graduate you realize that your going to have to learn how to be independent. Going to school by yourself and eating lunch by yourself and not going anywhere on the weekends unless it's with your family is my life. I don't hate it but when all of your cousins around your age have their own lives with boyfriends and girlfriends its kinda rough. Granted I've never really been a very social person. It shouldn't bug me that much but I still like to go out and have fun with friends, you know? I read so many books and watch so many movies where there is a group of friends that go out to the beach or to the movies all the time and are really close, and I can't help but to wish I had friends like that. But no I'm laying in bed wishing I were somewhere else. I guess some people are just lucky to have really close friends and best friends that actually pick up the phone when you call. Lol anyways this is getting weird and serious. My day hasn't been all depressing guys. I layed in bed all day and just had pizza and breadsticks from Pizza Hut so yea my life is great! Haha seriously though I hope throughout my college life I find an awesome group of friends that check up on me, hang out with me blah blah blah you get what I'm saying. I know a lot of people don't have even one friend and don't complain as much as me so I'll let you guys go here. If you guys reading this have an awesome group of friends though let me know in the comments. Tell me about your group and what do you guys do for fun. I'll live through your lives lol bye people talk to you soon if I even know how to post this lol