Shadows pov
Black hair. Dark brown eyes. Snake bites. Gauges. Nose ring. Scars. Cuts on my wrists and legs. That's me. Shadow. I'm 18. Can't judge me. I was born to be this way. Living in an orphanage. On my own. Yea. I'm like this. Oh yea I have a couple tattoos. I only have a couple of friends. I'm known as a beautiful liar. It's funny though. I'm just an average liar. I'm not beautiful. I'm not gorgeous. I'm and emo freak. And I embrace that. I'm different. And I accept that. I smoke. I drink. I'm supposed to go to rehab and shit but I never go. I've been to juvy before. Jail. A couple times. Whatever. It was cold. It's October and I'm walking around. No one around. I don't like company unless its my friends. Jayy. Dahvie. They're amazing. Anyways I was about to start walking back home when someone called my name. "Shadow!" I heard. I turned and say Kellin. I smiled. "Hey." I said with a smile. "Why are u alone?" "I like being alone." I said. Kellin chuckled. "I missed you at work today." Kellin said. "I called in sick because I was busy." I said. Liar. "Oh. Okay." Kellin sounded hurt. "Kell. I'm sorry. I was really busy." I said. Lies. I was really cutting. And writing my suicide now. We walked in silence to te orphanage. "I'll see you at work tomorrow." I said smiling. "Alright. Bye." Kellin said. He smiled at me before leaving. I went to my room and changed into punk rock mini shorts, black spaghetti strap shirt, and black heels. No I'm not a hooker or a stripper. I'm just gunna go clubbing. I put on black eyeliner, lipstick, and black eyeshadow. I knew my cuts were visible but I don't care. I walked out and walked to the club. Once I got there I walked straight to the bar. "What can I get ya?" The bartender asked. She was about 5'9. Red hair. Gray eyes. Nice body. "Just a beer." I said. She smiled and brang me a beer. As I sipped it someone sat by me. He was cute. Black hair. Blue eyes. Tattoos. Damn he's hot. "Hey." He said lookin at me. He ordered a beer before I answered. "Hi. I'm shadow." I said. "Andy Biersack." He said. I smiled at him. Someone stumbled towards him. "Heeeyyyy Andy." He slurred. "This is Ashley. My friend." Andy said. Ashley looked at me. "Hey hot stuff." He slurred. "I'm Shadow." I said smilin at him. "Yur Purdy." He said with a wink. "I ain't interested Boi." I said. He frowned and stumbled back to the dancefloor. I chuckled a bit. "He's very drunk. I guess he'll attempt to get me to have sex with him tonight." Andy said. "Trust me. I've met people like that." I said. "Ur bi?" Andy asked. I nodded and pointed at the bartender. "She's pretty damn hot." I said. Andy chuckled and we ordered a couple more drinks.
-10 drinks later-
Me and Andy were laughing and flirting. I heard my phone ring and I answered it. "Yo! It's Shadow." I slurred. "Shadow? Where are you?" I heard Dahvie ask. "The club!" I said. "Ur drunk. I'm comin to get you." Dahvie Said. I just groaned and hung up. "My friend is coming to pick me up." I slurred. Andy pouted. He grabbed my phone and I guess he put his number in. "I'll see ya soon sexy." I said with a wink before I got up. I turned around to see Andy and Ashley making out. I chuckled before I stumbled outside. I saw Dahvie and he drove me to his house. "Why? U have work tomorrow." Dahvie said. I shrugged and he let me sleep in his house tonight.
-next morning-
"Shadow! Get ur lazy ass up! U have work!" Dahvie screamed. I groaned and got up. I got up and remembered I didn't have any clothes. I just had Dahvie drive me to work. I worked at Starbucks. I'm very awesome aren't I. I walked in and everyone looked at me. "Nice outfit." Someone said. I turne and saw kellin. I smiled and grabbed my apron. "I didn't have clean clothes." I said. Liar. Kellin just nodded and we started our days work. I saw two guys walk in. "Hi. Welcome to Starbucks. I'm Shadow. How may I help ya?" I said. I looked up and saw Andy and Ashley. I smiled. "Two caramel mochiatos." Andy said. I nodded and they paid. Me and kellin prepared the drinks. "Yo Andy! Ashley! Drinks are ready!" I said. They walked over and Ashley winked at me. I smiled and walked back to the cash register. It was slow today so we got off early. "You're such a liar." Kellin said. I looked at him confused. I pointed and my wrists and legs. "Sorry." I mumbled. "You told me you'd stop." Kellin said. "Kellin. I'm sorry. Okay." I said. "No. Sorry isn't gunna cut it! You swore you'd stop!" "Kellin you don't understand the pain someone has to be in when they do this to themselves!" "You swore! Look at you! All these scars and cuts! No one would like you because of those!" I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I felt someone grab me. It was Andy and Ashley. "Shadow... I didn't mean it like that." Kellin said. I just shook my head head and held onto Andy. I began crying into his chest. He held me close and comforted me. "Shadow... Listen to me." Kellin begged. "I don't think she wants to talk to you." Ashley said. I let go of Andy and walked outside. I wiped my eyes and calmed myself down. Ashley walked outside and stood by me. "You okay now?" He asked. I nodded. "Wanna go talk to him?" "Yea." I said. We walked inside and I saw kellin with his head down and Andy talking to him. They were both sitting at a table and I sat next to kellin. He looked up at me. "Kellin. I'm sorry I cut again. I just couldn't take it." I said. "It's f-fine. I shouldn't have said th-that to y-you." He sniffed. "Kell. It's fine. It doesn't matter anymore." I said. He had been crying. "Kell. What's wrong?" I hear from behind. We turned and saw PTV. Great. Kellin stood up and hugged Vic tightly. They all have me a dirty look and I just smiled at them. They rolled their eyes and I stayed back with Andy and Ashley. "You broke ur promise? And ended up getting drunk last night?" Vic said. I growled. "God. U probably Hooked up with so many guys already! You're a slut." Mike said. "Kellin are you really lettin talk shit to me?" I said. Kellin just looked at me. "Ladies and Gentleman! Whores and Sluts! Oh wait u are the whore and the slut." Jaime said. They all laughed. Including kellin. "Why do you mess with someone besides the girl?" Someone said. They were behind kellin and PTV. They turned around and took a step back. "Glad you can make it. Boys and Shadow. Meet Christian Coma. A.K.A CC. Jeremy Ferguson. A.K.A Jinxx. And Jake Pitts." Andy said with a smile. "Don't be messin with my friends." Jinxx said. "I've warned you guys before. I have a gang of friends that'll kick ur ass into next year." I said. The guys left without saying anything. Kellin turned around and have me a sorry look before walking away. "Thanks so much." I said. "Anything for ya hot stuff." Ashley said. I rolled my eyes and smiled. "Hey. Can u guys like take me to the orphanage were I live.... I have to get ready for a singing battle tonight." I said. They nodded and yet took me 'home.' They decided to stay with me for a while. I grabbed my black t-shirt with a leather jacket, black ripped skinnies, and my signature combat boots. I put on black eyeliner, black eyeshadow, and black lipstick. "Damn u look good." Jake said. "Aye stop flirtin with me will ya?" I said. They laughed and we left. Once we got there the first person that walked up to me was Kellin. "Good look out there." He told me. "I don't need luck ya dick." I said. I pushed past him and the guys followed. "I see now u have followers." I heard. I turned and saw Vic. "Stop being such a dick already." I said. "Bitch. I at least I can get some." Vic said. "You see these five guys and their dicks." I said motioning at the guys. "They're mine." I said. "Whore." Jaime said. "Suck it bitches!" We all said before leaving. "I can see ur boner through those jeans!" Mike yelled. "That's my dick." I said. We all laughed and kept walking. I went to sit down and looked at the guys. "About what I said...." I said. "It's fine." Jinxx said. I sighed In relief. When it was my turn I went up and sang 'Rise and Shine.' I ended up in first an left with the guys. "Shadow!" I heard. I turned and saw MCR. I smiled and hugged them all. Gerard was looking at Andy and Andy was looking at him. Love at first site. Cute. Frank was holding Mikey's hand. They're finally together. Ray was with bob. Aww. Jake and CC are together. And Jinxx has Sammi. Ashley. Ladies man. Andy might get Gerard. Me. I don't know.
Andy's pov
"Shadow!" We heard. We saw some of her friends. She hugged them all. I looked at the guy in front. Electric red hair. Hazel eyes. I looked him in the eyes and he locked his gaze with mine. I guess everyone noticed. I looked away blushing. "I'm Gerard." He said. I smiled at him as he stood infront of me. "I'm Andy." I said. He smiled at me. "Maybe we can hang out sometime." Gerard said. "I'd like that." I said. "You guys. We're gunna go. We'll meet you at ur house Andy." Jinxx said. "Oh yea. Um okay." I said. "We're goin with em gee. If you don't mind." Frank said. Gerard nodded and they all left leaving me and Gerard. I looked at Gerard. "You like what you see?" Gerard said. I looked away blushing. "Cuz I do." He said. That made me blush harder. "Andy. I know we just met and all but I feel like we have a connection. That we were meant to meet. Ya know." Gerard said. "Yea I know. Something just sparked when we saw eachother. Like as if it was-" I was cutoff by a pair of lips on mine. Holy shit Gerard is kissing me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his arms around my waist. Oh yea we had been walking around and ended up in front of a hotel. Ha. That's weird. Gerard pulled back and looked in my eyes. "Love at first sight." He said continuing my sentance. I nodded. "Andy. Lets go." Gerard said and we started walking again. Gerard interlocked our fingers and since we both weren't looking we literally ran into someone. I looked up and saw Kellin and Vic. Great. "You say any shit to me or Gerard I swear I will fucking kick both of your asses into next year." I threatened. "Listen. We don't mean any of the things we mean. It's just revenge from high school. She was the school bully." Vic said. I looked at them with a puzzled expression. "Shadow Deadwood. Most intimidating person you'll ever meet." Kellin said. I just rolled my eyes and me and Gerard kept walking. I felt my phone vibrate and I saw it was a message from Jinxx.
From: Jinxx
'Were leaving home now. R u there?'
I quickly replied telling him I'll be there soon.
"Gerard. I have to go." I said. "I can walk u home." Gerard said. I smiled. "That's sweet but it's fine. I can go alone." I said. "Please." Gerard begged. "Fine." I gave in. Gerard smiled and we began walking to my house.
When we got there, Gerard gave me a hug and a kiss. I smiled and walked inside. I guess he won't know that I won't see him for a while. I was leaving early in the morning for L.A. Goodbye jersey. I sighed and began packing. "You okay Andy?" I heard. I turned and saw Ashley. "I'll be fine." I said my voice cracking. Ashley hugged me and I cried into his shoulder. "I feel b-bad. Just l-leaving him like th-that." I sniffed. "It'll be okay. You'll see him again." Ashley said. I just nodded and continued packing. Once I finished I layed down and fell asleep.
I woke up to my alarm ringing. I turned it off and got up to get ready. I sighed and stared at my phone. Gerard texted me. It's 5 am.
From: Gerard :)
'Mornin! Wanna hang today?'
I sighed and replied.
To: Gerard :)
'Sorry I can't. Busy.'
I almost began crying. Jake walked in. "Ya ready Andy?" I nodded. Jake left and ashes walked in. "Come on bright eyes. We gotta go." Ashley said. I got up and we all got in the car. I looked out the window and tears began falling. Goodbye Gerard.
Gerard's pov
"Gerard. They're gone." Frank said. "What do you mean gone?" I said. "They left this morning to Los Angeles." Ray said. I got off the couch and slammed my room door and locked it. I grabbed my blade and lifted my sleeves looking at my wrists. I slid the blade across my wrist about 20 times on each arm. I heard a knock on the door. "Bro. U okay?" I heard. Mikey. Oh no. "Mikey. I'm fine." I said. He sighed and he left. The blood dripping. I noticed I carved something into my wrist. I washed the blood off in my bathroom. I carved that into my wrist. Andy's name. Oh shit.
