I Dont Wanna Feel Anymore

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Andy's pov

Me and Mikey have been hanging out alot lately. Holdin hands as we walk. Quick little kisses. He's a great guy. And he makes my life worth living. I haven't cut since we kissed. I haven't been depressed eather. Mikey's different than Gerard. He's sweeter. He's adorable.

"Hey Andy. Mikey's here." Jake said.

I smiled when he said Mikey's name. I walked out my room and saw Mikey. I ran up behind him and hugged him.

"Hey Mikey." I said.

He felt skinnier.

"Hey Andy." Mikey said.

I smiled at him and he smiled back.

"So what's up?" I said while looking at him.

"I'm going to go visit my parents today. I was wondering if u could come." Mikey said.

"Yo Biersack! Where the fuck are u?!" I heard a very angry shadow yell.

"Sorry Mikey. I can't." I said.

Mikey sighed and left without saying goodbye or anything. Someone turned me around and punched me.

"What was that for?!" I nearly yelled.

"That's what happens when u hurt frank!" Shadow yelled.

Frank. Shit. Oops. Nope. I liked it.

"He deserved it!" I yelled.

Shadow was about to hit me again but I ran. I ran all the way home.

-1 week later-

I couldn't take this. I was getting hate messages from everyone. I grabbed my phone and dialed Mikey's number. I waited for him to answer.

"Hey. You've reached Mikey. Can't answer the phone right now. Leave a message and I'll call back ASAP. Thanks bye."

"M-Mikey. I need u here. Please. I-I'm sorry I didn't go. I'm j-just scared right now. P-please c-come b-back. I m-miss you. E-everyone h-hates me." I hung up the phone and broke down crying.

Someone knocked on the door.

"Andy! Open the door. " I heard Ashley yell.

I got up and ran to open the door. I hugged Ashley tightly and cried. He's all I have left.

"Bright eyes. Calm down." Ashley said.

He picked me up and carried me to the couch. I was shaking. Ashley sat down and I layed my head in his lap.

"Andy. It's okay. You'll be okay." Ashley said.

My phone was ringing and I got up to answer it.

"H-hello?"

"Andy. It's Mikey."

"Mikey..... I need u here. Please. Come back."

"Andy. Look downstairs."

"Oh-okay."

I walked downstairs and saw Mikey. I ran up to him and hugged him. I dropped my phone and held him close.

"I missed u. Mikey I'm sorry I didn't go." I said in between sobs.

"Andy. It's okay. I'm here now." Mikey said.

Ashley wasn't there anymore. Okay.

"Mikey. I love u." I said.

"I love u to Andy."

I kissed Mikey. A real kiss. He kissed back. I could live like this forever. Mikey pulled back.

"Why didn't u come back?" I asked.

"I couldn't." Mikey said.

"Why not?" I said.

"I hated seeing u so broken and depressed." Mikey said.

"Ur the reason I'm so broken and depressed right now." I said.

I lifted my sleeves showing new cuts and scars.

"Andy. I didn't know." Mikey said.

"Now u do." I said.

"Listen to m-"

"Get out." I said.

"What?"

"Get out." I growled.

Mikey left my house and I began crying again. I threw my phone at the wall. I ran to the bathroom and grabbed the pills.

"I'm sorry ashes." I whispered.

I opened the bottle and drank the pills.

"Andy!" Someone yelled.

I didn't see who it was because I blacked out.

Ashley's pov

"Andy!" I yelled.

He had just overdosed. He blacked out and I called 911.

About ten minutes later the paramedics were taking Andy to the hospital. I stayed in the waiting room and called Gerard.

"Hello?"

"Gerard. It's Ashley. Andy just tried killing himself. He's in the hospital right now. Please hurry." I said.

"Oh-okay. I'll be there soon."

I hung up and waited. I heard footsteps and saw Gerard. I stood up an hugged him and began crying. Gerard hugged back.

"It's okay. Hell be okay." Gerard said.

I let go and sat back down. Gerard sat next to me.

"Is anyone here for Andy Biersack?"

I stood up.

"Andy isn't responding." The doctor said.

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