Love Vs. Lust (Niam Mpreg)

Chapter 12

Niall's POV

I still wasn't happy but I only assumed that I should be happy for him, this business was and still is his life. 

"You can't seriously be mad at me babe?" I felt his warm embrace around me. I seriously tried to be mad but I couldn't , I just couldn't. All I could do was lean into him. 

"I'm not I just I wish I was special enough to be told that earlier." I said, mumbling the word 'enough'. He replied by pinning me up against the wall, kissing me roughly but not so roughly to make in uncomfortable. 

"You are more than enough for me, sometimes I feel like i'm not good enough for you. It just slipped my mind okay? I have to sell enough profits in order to switch over and leave it to Harry." He just stared at me, hoping he was getting through, he really was getting through. 

"Okay, okay fine. I'm okay with that, just you have to make it up to me." I bit my lip. Did I just suggest sex? I wasn't ready to give anyone that, even him. It wasn't anything personal, I just, I was scared. I didn't want it yet. Hand jobs and blow jobs fine but just not sex. He begins to carry me upstairs and down to a secret room, the one I tried to enter just a few days ago. "Liam, no." He looks at me and tilts his head. 

"What?" He asks, setting me down. 

"I don't want sex, i'm not ready for that far yet, please." I say pleading he won't get too mad. I've heard stories and I don't want to be one someday. I really do love him and I don't want to lose him. 

"So tell me this-" He was angry. I look around, hoping I wouldn't need a getaway path. "-you hint sex but you won't give it to me? What do I look like to you? I will not be denied sex by anyone." His voice was raising. I was so scared that I just stood there frozen. "You will do what you are told." I curl up and fall to the ground, I close my eyes, rocking. "What the hell is wrong with you?" This is what he wants, me to be weak and to fall at the mercy of him, he takes power in that. I wipe my eyes and stand up.

"You will not tell me what to do, Liam. You listen to me, god dammit. I don't have to give you shit. And you don't deserve shit." I walk off but he grabs my arm. 

"I'm sorry, I don't know what went through me, don't leave me, I really do love you, please believe me." He pleads, it hurts the way he treated me. He treated me like all the kids at high school did, with disrespect. 

"You hurt me so bad Liam and here I thought you were different. I even told you I love you and you said it back like you cared but it shows now that you don't. You don't actually love me!" I cover my mouth as tears fall. I shake my head hard and run downstairs. I feel like i'm suffocating. Everything was closing around and on me. Liam didn't love me and I saw that. 

"Niall, babe, please!" I heard his voice get closer and closer. Suddenly i'm in the embrace of someone else. It's not Liam but it feels safer than the outside world. It somehow feels safer than Liam. 

"Hey Liam what the fuck?! I thought you got help for this!" The voice, the male voice was yelling. I only went closer to the angered voice, even though it defeated all common sense. Not only was this a stranger, a stranger that knew Liam, but this stranger was angry. 

Liam's POV

I don't know what came onto me but one minute I was caring for Niall, the next I was angry at him and now I regret everything wrong i've ever done to him. He took off running and I was hesitant to run after him. I mean, yeah, he needed space, but what if he gave too much space? I can't lose him, he's different. He's different than my other, I guess subjects. Subjects may be a strong word but people judge me before I get the chance to explain that they wanted it too. But somehow in the end they disrespected me and only got the name subjects, it's better than servants. 

"Niall, babe, please!" I got closer and closer to him only to have him run into the one person, the one person I really don't need.

"Hey Liam what the fuck?! I thought you got hep for this!" I did get help I just, I just didn't listen, they were all wrong. I wasn't the bad one here. 

"I did Harry." Harry was one of those "subjects", he was a nicer one who just happened to become my friend afterwards. My best friend actually. He tried to help me get help he succeeded, or so he thought. I usually wold skip my appointments and find a quick fuck. I still remember Harry, like it was yesterday. 

Flashback - 2nd year on the job

"Harry buttercup. Can you come here?" I was sitting in the office after being told some bad news. About the business, not Harry of course. Harry was flawless, he was kind and I was infatuated with him. He was the one, I knew it, we were just too young. Too young to know any better. He walks in slower than normal, with his head down. 

"Yes Liam?" Something was up, his eyes were darker, nearly just black. His eyes were distant too. 

"Is there something up?" Well obviously Liam. 

"I ran into some guy the other day and he knew you, yeah you have your business but he KNEW you. He said somethings about you and I read the signs and it's obvious." 

End Flashback 

He left after that. Who knew you tell the truth to someone who wants to hear it and they run away? 

"What's wrong with him then?" I heard Niall speak out, his voice coming out in a squeak. I'd zoned out through the whole conversation but came back in time to hear him reveal the truth. 

"Well nothing except for..." 

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Honestly I don't know why I stopped it there because we all know what he has. No this isn't the end of Niam, just a break. 

I know this is an Mpreg, but I do not want it to be based around the pregnancy. 

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