Acceptance

Chapter 3

As I walked towards the school gate my heart stopped. I suddenly felt really nervous. Jack and I had home room together. He was my boyfriend now. I had to stop acting so stupid.

I walked into my home room expecting it to be packed full of people but to my surprise, Jack was the only one there. I was kinda early. He was wearing glasses and sketching something into a notebook. He had headphones in and was casually bobbing his head to the music. He looked so focused on whatever he was drawing. 

He looks so adorable in those glasses.

"Hey." I said as nonchalantly as I could. He looked up at me, his eyes immediately lit up.

"Hey Lex" He said, glancing down at the notebook and quickly shutting it. 

"What are you drawing?" I asked out of curiosity. His face became red as he looked down at his now shut notebook.

"Ummm," He began "it's pretty stupid, but if you really want to see it..." he trailed off and handed his notebook to me. Inside was a picture of a dying rose. There was a ribbon wrapped around it that said:

Sing me to sleep 

I'll see you in my dreams

Those were lyrics to my song that I had written about Tom. It was beautiful. I was surprised Jack had remembered them.

"Thank you. You're an amazing person." I choked out, tears quickly filling my eyes. 

"Your welcome, Alex. You are the amazing one." He said taking off his glasses. I wanted him to keep them on. He was so cute. I sat in the seat beside him and we just talked until the bell rang. Me and Jack had first period together so we passed notes for pretty much the whole lesson.

Jack: Hey Lex!

Me: Hey Babe! :p

Jack: Maybe we shouldn't tell anyone about Jalex.. just incase. You know how scared I get about this kind of thing.

Me: Jalex? Haha! Awesome name! I don't mind telling people but if you don't want to tell anyone then its fine.

Jack: Thanks Lex. Thanks for understanding. I don't want to be judged by society but I still love you! <3

Alex: Please don't be sad. I'll do anything to make you happy. I have no reason to care about myself, so I care about you instead. p.s You look cute in glasses. You should wear them more often ;p

I looked at Jack, who was now blushing profusely. He reached in his bag and slipped on his glasses. Why didn't he wear them more often?

After that I ignored the rest of the notes Jack gave me. How was I supposed to pretend I didn't love Jack? I couldn't do it. Jack was the only person who I actually cared about other than my mom. This is great. The bell finally rang, telling us to go to our next lessons. I walked beside Jack. We were known as best friends by almost the whole school so I slung my arm over his shoulder. For that moment I felt like the whole school was staring at us so I slowly pulled away. This was going to be a long day.

At lunch I made my way over to my "friends" and sat next to Jack. The only person I actually cared about from this dumb group. 

"Why don't you sit next to me Lex?" A girl asked, fluttering her eyelashes. Eew. No.

" Because Jack's better than you," I said confidently " He's my little sweetie." I grabbed his hand. I had absolutely no idea what I was doing.. Everyone in the group looked at us in shock. It was silent until

"OMG YOU'RE GAY?!" another girl yelled at the top of her lungs. I saw the color drain from Jack's face.

"No, no it's not like that. It's an inside joke! You wouldn't get it. Alex," He said standing up            "Let's go." I quickly got up and followed him out of the school. There was no point in staying there as we would never need any of this crap that we learnt in our lives. We decided to go to my house as my mom was at work. I led him to my room where we sat in an uncomfortable silence. I felt like I had screwed up everything. After what seemed like years I hesitantly looked over at Jack. He was crying. 

I was never good with emotions, so I  just hugged him awkwardly. I silently cursed myself for not knowing what to do. Why did I always screw up? If only I wasn't a useless fag. I remember coming out to my parents. That was the last day I ever saw my dad.

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I walked downstairs to the living room to finally tell them the truth. Mom and Dad were sitting on the couch watching a movie and snuggling. 

"um, Mom, Dad, I need to tell you something." I said, My voice laced with nerves.

"Sure hon. Sit down." Mom said calmly, pausing the TV.

I didn't want it to take long so I went straight to the point.

"I'm gay." I said. I looked at mom. Her eyes were glazed over. She raised her hand to her mouth. At first I was confused and ignored it, then I looked over at dad, but he wasn't there. 

All of a sudden I felt a sharp pain in my gut. I fell to the floor, clutching my stomach. 

Dad had hit me.

Through my glossy eyes, I could see him, punching me. kicking me.

He insulted me in every way possible. I could fight back, but I didn't. He was my dad. I curled up into a ball and cried until I heard unfamiliar voices in the house. I looked up to see two police men dragging him away. 

That was when I passed out.

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A/N: Hey guys! CLIFFHANGER! I know this chapter is kind of crap but, I tried! Honestly, I knew what I wanted to write but didn't know how, but here's chapter 3!

Love you Guys

Byeee

~Q