Chocolate Boy

Chapter 1

I remember perfectly the first time I saw him. The first time where our paths crossed. That moment kept saved in my mind forever. I will never forget it. It was like a bright sunlight in my life.

I was just eleven years old when my brother Leeteuk brought him to have dinner at our house. He sat in front of me at our familiar table. I'm sure that maybe he thought I was an idiot who kept on staring at him all the time but luckily he seemed not to give it so much importance because he smiled at me occasionally.

I couldn't avert my eyes from him. Siwon was so handsome. The most handsome boy that I have ever seen in my life since the first time I saw him with my kid eyes. He was extremely hot and had the most beautiful smile in the world, with deep dimples on both cheeks. I have never seen someone so perfect like him before.

I was a little kid then but I was very sure about how that handsome teenager was affecting my whole world since that moment.
I didn't care if he was six years older than me and I didn't care if he didn't show any interest in an ugly kid with braces who stared at him like an idiot and wore awful glasses. I wasn't a cute boy then.

I still remember when he caught me staring at him shamelessly which made me blush like a tomato. He smiled at me sweetly and winked at me leaving me speechless. His smile was so beautiful. He was so beautiful.

When he showed me his beautiful smile, I still remember that something inside me woke up. His gesture made my heart skip like crazy and I felt a knot in my stomach. I felt warm and happy like I have never felt before But at the same time I felt shy and flustered. I didn't know what it was at that time but it made me happy somehow.

I was just a kid then who was not interested in girls. I didn't like any girl. No one caught my attention. I had a lot of friends who liked girls and dated them at that age. It sounds crazy but it was. I was a shy boy who didn't like to go out or show any interest in people till the moment I set my eyes on him.

I didn't know I was into boys until the moment I met Siwon for the first time. Since that day, I was sure that he was the man who would mark my life forever and that he would be mine somehow someday. No matter how long it would take...

Yes. It is true. I fell in love with Choi Siwon, a seventeen year old teenager, friend of my elder brother, since I was a child. I am very sure about what I felt towards him...as sure as he didn't correspond my feelings either.

I saw him with many girls in the next years. It always broke my heart but I couldn't ask for more. He would never notice a kid who looked like his younger brother.

I don't really remember if he said something to me the day we met. I just remember him behaving with well manners all the time. He was very polite with my mom and the rest of my family. My mom loved him and treated him like her own son.

I always thanked my brother Leeteuk for having invited him to our house and my mom for receiving him like a new integrant of our family. Siwon looked so happy and pleased with our family and was thankful with the delicious dinner that my mom offered him. That impressed me a lot. Definitely, he was a good boy.

I realized that Siwon was not used to having family dinners that's why he appreciated it very much the chance to have dinner with us. I didn't know much about his life then but I will always thank my brother to bring him home that day. He caused a great impact on me.

Siwon came back for dinner very often from that day on. Sometimes he seemed to be like a new brother in the family who lived with us but others, he disappeared for weeks making me feel very sad. When he appeared from weeks, he always had an empty expression on his face. It seemed that his family life was a shit.