Chocolate Boy

Chapter 3

Siwon gave a hard push on the door and entered the small space of the bathroom quickly. He looked pissed off with me while I felt terrible and frustrated with me and him. I thought he was going to give me sermon but he didn't. Instead of that he wet some paper towels and put them on my face. He left me with the paper towels and then he went to lock the door. "Where is Joon?" – I asked softly hidden behind the paper towels. "He's gone. He would never mess with your life again" he replied and then gave me a glass of water. I accepted it and I took a sip of it. He was taking care of me again as his damn little brother! I drank but I couldn't see him in the eyes. It hurt.
"Better?" – he asked with his beautiful voice that made my heart skip a beat again.
I just nodded weakly. I looked pathetic in front of him. I wanted to disappear from the Earth literally. Have him so close hurt me because I couldn't have him as I really wanted.

Then I realized why had he to be with me now instead of watching Yoona tonight? Or was he in the pub just to forget his military hardships? "Why are you here, Siwon?" He frowned at me and forgot about my question. "Let's go. You don't have anything else to do here tonight" He placed one of his hands on my back and took me out of the place in seconds. I was too weak to protest but I was not stupid. I loved to feel his touch on me even though it could be a touch just for a little brother. I didn't care too much, I just needed to feel him with me. It was that or nothing. Of course I was not stupid because I preferred that slight touch on my back than have nothing at all.
Sorry Yoona he is with me now even if it is just as a brother. That last thought hurt me like hell. But it was my cruel reality now.

On the way to my house, Siwon was silent while I rested my head on the window. I closed my eyes trying to forget my embarrassing situation but I couldn't because all I smelled was his exquisite and masculine scent in the car driving me crazy and even more frustrated. The situation was awkward between us. I felt miserable but again my mouth spoke by its own. "I-I'm s-sorry for r-ruining y-your night with Yoon-a" – I stuttered like an idiot. He just sighed deeply."I didn't go there to see Yoona" Ehh? So he didn't go because of her?? Don't tell me he went there for m... Is that possible?

In spite of those words made my hopes reborn, I obliged myself to ease my heart.
But what he was doing there then? He said nothing. And it was obvious that he didn't want to tell me the real reason anyway. I felt irritated. "If you say that you know what Yoona does exactly when you are in the army, explain me then why are you still with her? She cheats on you every time you come back to the army. Damn woman! She doesn't love you as I do I mean as she should love you" Fuck! My fucking mouth! Not again. The silence in the car was deafening.
"I don't date Yoona. I won't date her again" "I saw you with her when you came back! I saw you two a couple of times!" He rolled his eyes. "Yes. But I won't do it anymore, Kyuhyun." "really" I couldn't say anymore. I was too much astonished by that confession.

Had Siwon and Yoona broken forever? Suddenly I smiled weakly.
"It's true. There is nothing between us – Siwon stated – I know her behavior since a long time ago...and I don't care. We were just using each other from the beginning." Great! Just imagining that bitch enjoying the attentions of Siwon drove me insane of jealous. Imagining him and her making love and touching each other always hurt me and frustrated me all the time. "Oh...I had no idea"
"Now you know it." I felt like vomiting again and Siwon had to stop the car for me. I didn't feel well with all the information given by him tonight. I didn't know if I should be happy or even more frustrated. Everything seemed to be a nightmare. I had behaved like an idiot in front of Siwon tonight. I wanted it to be a dream because my heart couldn't bear it anymore.

I opened my eyes slowly trying to adjust to the light of the room when I realized I was lied on bed with Siwon by my side. "Wake up! Wake up!" He whispered softly.
Am I in his bed? How the hell. I widened my eyes in awe and I turned around to see the alarm clock that was on the night table. It was already 01:00 a.m.
I tried to get up as I could because it was too late and the place I was, was not definitely my house. "Am I in your apartment? My mom must be very worried..."
"Don't worry. Everything is going to be alright. I have called your mom. She knows you are with me. So relax. Do you feel better now?"
I tried to get up but then I realized I was practically naked under the sheets. I was wearing only my underwear. I felt my cheeks going red immediately. I panicked.
"H-have you undressed me?"