I Love You... But I Lied ❌On Hold❌

Chapter 2

Lauren POV:

I'm doing it tomorrow.

I need to find an easy, fast, and painless way to do this.

I'm really depressed.

I used to have a social life and friends but that was before my whole family died in a car crash.

It should have been me.

They had something to live for.

After the accident, I pushed away my friends and hello came the emtyness that i call my apartment.

I sold my parents house I couldn't bare living there without them.

I'm not doing this tomorrow because i'm bullied or anything in that nature, i'm doing it because it has been a year without them and I can't do it any longer all by myself.

Enough with the sad stuff.

I'm Lauren Jauregui and i'm 17, Senior in highschool and living off of my family's money they left me.

Yea nothing really else to talk about.
I have a shit life.

Well I am currently heading to a threesome with my phone and bed, So G'night.

Next Day

I slept on my thoughts last night and decided i'm going to crush a bunch of pills up an take them with a lot of nightquill before going to bed.

I hope that works.

Just my luck my landlord will come and call the paramedics an magically get my stomach pumped.

Currently i'm sitting on a bench at the park looking for things I could draw, when this girl with beautiful big brown eyes squats in front of me.

"Hi", she had the voice of a sour patch kid.

"Umm hey", this is probably the first time someone came to actually hold a conversation with me in a long time.

"I'm Camila Cabello, what's your name".

"Lauren Jauregui, uh not to be rude or anything like that but why are you talking to me", I say trying not to sound rude.

"I think your cute and i'm going to ask, no demand you go on a date with me", she cheekly smiles.

A bright smile, that I soon was going to fall for.

"Sure, I have nothing better to live for", I say the last part under my breath.

"What was that", she says with a puzzled expression.

"Nothing, Time is ticking lets go", I say quickly.

"Okay", she say still giving me a side glance.

We just got to this really nice restaurant.

I'm not trying to sound like some rich brat,but Camila looks like she can't afford this place.

"Hey i'm paying is that okay", I ask slowly not to offend her.

She glance back at the bill slip then gradually nod her head looking embarrassed.

"Hey it's okay, I find it funny how they bring the bill back to our table before our food is even done cooking", I say with sarcasm lacing my voice.

She giggle.

It was beautiful.

As we where finish off our food i've come to term that I like her, friendwise I mean.

"Hey uh Lauren it getting kinda late, d-do you feel like maybe wanna come to my place", she ask shyly.

"Uh sure", I say shocked she'd even asked that.

"Okay it's walking distance", she excitedly grabs my arm pulling me amongst her.

I dumbly go with this stanger I just met, but hey don't judge me blame loneliness.

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We were currently on her sofa watching Final Destination 5 together at Camila's place.

"Camila your head is hurting my shoulder now, i'll leave so you can get some sleep", i'm almost to the door when i feel a tiny hand grab mine.

"No wait, please stay"

Yet agian I dumbly agree.

"Okay"

She has a one bed and bath apartment unlike my two bed and bath apartment. So i'll sleep on the sofa.

I start to head towards the couch when Camila told me to sleep in her room.

"Here wear these", Camila says handing me pajama pants and a large shirt. I hand her the shirt back.

"Thanks but I kinda don't like wearing shirts to bed",I say while pulling off my shirt and putting on the pants.

"That's fine, real fine", she whispered the last part, but I still hear.

"Come here", I mutter holding my arms open for her.

She smiles widely cuddling up to my side.

I made sure little Lauren wasn't touching her before wrapping my arms around her securely.

"Night",she say in a dreamlike state.

"Goodnight", I breath out.

That night i fell asleep with a smile on my face.

I think I might hold on with this suicide ride for awhile, because i'm finally feeling happy.

I want happy.

~Destinie