Listen

Sometimes, I feel, no one is listening.
My hands start shaking
A hand squeezes my heart until it tries to beat out of my chest
Something gets stuck in my throat and I can't breathe
I feel like I'm screaming
But no one listens.

I feel nothing. It's strange.
I watch a great film
Nothing
I listen to music I once loved
Nothing
I play my instrument in a concert
Nothing
I meet my idol...
Something, but it's gone within a week

I hurt myself.
I tell people.
I need help.
I don't get any.

'If you cut I'll cut'
'If you do it again I won't be your friend'
'I don't want you doing that'
I'm screaming, 'Help me!'

My wrists are sliced open
I'm bleeding
It hurts
It hurts
No one moves
No one helps
No one sees the pain I'm in, just the blood
Just the blood that can be mopped clean.
Blood they can ignore.
Blood they can add to.
Help me!

They don't hear me
They don't see me
They don't help me
Why won't they listen
Just.... Listen.