Try To Be Okay (Perleo) (LeoxPercy) (PJO)

Life Isn't That Easy

Lucia

This was a very depressing place, gods damn.

The threats did stop. Nothing else did.

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Percy

Nothing.

That's why I felt.

Nothingness. With a side of regret, sorrow, hatred for myself.

The last two stuck out like an ass, though.

I was in my room. Chained to the bed so this time I would screw up my knuckles I guess. Leo was in the room, too. I wasn't really listening, though. Whatever he was saying was wrong. Unless of course he was saying I should just die. But he never would. Because he's Leo, and he's always happy.

I kept shaking my head in denial of everything he was probably saying, stuck in my own thoughts.

I should just kill myself. Popped into my head. Rot in the Fields. A coward. I don't even deserve that title. Or any title. Just Death to take me away.

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Triton

Dad was home.

"Where the hell have you been!?" Was the first thing I heard and I just walked by him, ignoring how mad he was. I don't care right now. I don't have the time. Because my brother is dead and the other is so depressed he'd praying for death I was sent back home. The one place I don't want to be. I wasn't the only one but... I don't know. I feel like I should be there right now. With Percy. Trying to talk through to him.

Not really in the mood to hear my parents thoughts, or anyone's, I slammed my door and  jumped into my room. Looking out the window. I felt like a horrible person and suddenly it was silent. Everything was silent.

It stayed that way for about 5 minutes until Dad came into my room. I really didn't have the motivation to tell him to leave. Too involved in my own thoughts.

"I..." Dad starts. "I'm not sure where to start aside that I'm sorry. Over my time away I came to realization and I just... I'm a horrible and shitty father. I shouldn't have yelled at you or Percy or Tyson or done anything. What you guys told me... I've never been told before. I didn't know how to react. I freaked out inside and so I flipped out to you guys. And because of that you guys hate me, right? U doubt Percy or Tyson will ever step foot in here again, honestly."

This is when he caught on.

"What happened?" For once in a long ass time he sounded concerned.

I just shake my head, wiping away the tears starting to fall. It was overwhelming. Tyson dead, that's was a huge shock and then Percy... I have this horrible feeling he's already dead. That he somehow managed to kill himself with the restraints on him.

My father sat there for 25 minutes, silent. Waiting for me to calm down so I could talk.

"I was at Camp." I answered his question from earlier. "Percy brought me. It was fun. Nice people. But Percy fell into an episode and I thought PTSD or something like that. A flashback. And it wasn't. They somehow got him to his room. Forced to restrain him so that way he won't run to the bathroom or somewhere and grab something and kill himself. And when they for him there they found Tyson's body and just... I thought for once things could be nice and it was ruined. Again."

I couldn't... I saw Percy in that episode. I saw him. How dead he seemed. How desperate he was for his life to be taken from him. He saw Tyson's body and he fell silent. He wasn't begging for death anymore. My brother waiting for it to just take over like it did Tyson.