When Feelings Take Over

Lose Me .

* FlashBack *

~~Yn♥~~

" No! I'm Done! I'm tired of you deliberately hurting me! " I yelled, as my blood fumed through my veins. 

" Stop! I'm sorry, don't leave." Ray says, as I feel his firm hand wrap around my arm.

Is this motherfucker crazy?

"I heard that too many times."I scoffed, as walked towards the door of my bedroom.

" Fine! You're choosing to leave! Go, I don't want to be second guessing our relationship anymore " he whined, as he plops down onto on the bed.

" You know what Rayan, I'm gonna go. But, You're gonna need me." I sighed, as I was just about to walk out he said something that made me snap.

" Just go . I've had enough . " he says, as he rests his head in his cupped hands, that are resting on his knees.

" Really, you've had enough?! You didn't have to stay awake all hours of the night crying, trying to figure out where you were. You didn't have to go to the hospital ALONE! I did, I got an abortion because of you, all of this is because of you, and the least you can do is say you're sorry. You have no fucking idea, what you put me through, you have no idea! All those times you kept hurting me and hitting on me, but I took you back and I gave in everytime you said ' I'm sorry baby, I didnt mean it '.

I'm tired of that shit Rayan. I look like an idiot, because I put up with your stupid ass and how I gave into you saying ' nobody will love you , like I do. You didn't love me then, and you don't love me now! All you did was hurt me! You should feel like a piece of shit, because I would never do this to you. Why? Because I loved and I cared about you. It has nothing to do with your money, your house, your car, your job. I don't give a fuck about none of that! I care about you! And I w- "

He had cut me off by crashing his lips into mine. I felt myself giving in, by throwing my arms around his neck. I disconnected my lips from his and pushed him away.

I love him, but I can't love him like this.

I can't do this anymore."I sighed, as I put my head down in shame and started walking towards the door.

I felt his hand wrap around my arm, I yanked away not wanting to make anything worse.

"Tell me you don't love me." He said, as his eyes pierced into mine.

" I'll always love you...But not like this."I gulped, as I watched the wrath build up into his pupils.

Then he raised his hand at me, then bringing it down with such force onto my face. I had this burning sensation in my cheek, that made tears stream down my face.

"Then you will fucking stay." He growled, as he towered over my weaken body.

I just decided to lay on the ground, curled up in a little ball. I held my cheek and weeped until the pain had started to deteriorate.

"Shut up! I'm tired of this shit! " He shouted, as he stormed upstairs with a handful of my hair.

End of Flashback

[~~Yn♥~~]

Later That Night .. Los Angeles, California

I was sound asleep in my bed, and it had to be around two-thirty in the morning. I was rudely awakened by a fellow citizen knocking at my door. I slowly opened my eyes and rubbed them; also throwing the sheets off of me in the process. I rolled out of bed even though my vision was blurry, it eventually cleared up once I placed my glasses on my face. I slowly walked downstairs, holding onto the railing, when the person who was knocking began to knock harder. "I'm coming!" I yelled, my voice filled with exhaustion. I opened the door to a light-skinned guy standing on my porch.

" Um, can I help you?" I asked, as leant against the door post.

" Um, yes you can actually. You see my car just broke down and I was hoping that I c- "I cut him off before he could continue.

"You were hoping that I would let you stay here?"I smirked, giving off a sense of cockiness.

" Um, yea." He said, as he nervously scratched the back of the his head.

" Well, Can I have your name first? " I asked, this time smiling. Making him a little more comfortable.

"Chresanto, but you can call me Chres. " he said, as he began lookin around.

" Well Chres, I think you have a place to stay tonight. " I smiled, as I placed a hand on my hip.

" Thanks, um can I get my bag and then meet you inside?" He asked plainly.

" Yea, that's fine. " I agreed, as I walked back inside.

Chres comes back with his Nike bag and sits on the couch quietly.

Why's he so quiet?

" So, I never got your name." He said, as he had gotten a little more comfortable on the couch.

"Oh, I'm sorry. My names Yn, nice to meet you." I greeted warmly, shaking his soft hands that I didn't want to let go.

"Nice to meet you too, you have a gorgeous name." He smiled, showing his genuineness.

" Thanks . I'm kinda tired so I'm gonna head upstairs . " you blushed.

" Ok , thats cool . Um , I'm just gonna sleep on the couch . " he said .

" Ok , thats fine . Well goodnight . " you said .

" Goodnight , Thanks again for letting me stay here . " he smiled .

" Sure , anytime . " you smiled , as walk upstairs *

As I plopped down into my bed, I started to think about Chresanto. His nice plump, pink lips, his killer smile, his eyes, and just him in general gave me butterflies. But tomorrow I have to move more stuff into my house, so I need to get some sleep and hopefully I won't have to deal with anymore drama for a long time.

Atleast, I think so.