LIFE

chapter 1

Rodney in media

"Im so sick of him!" i huffed on the phone with my bestfriend Megan.

"I been told you to stop messing with that fool a long time ago Haz"

"I dont need a "i told you" so speech.....you know what? ima talk to you later. i just made it home" i said pulling up to my 2 bedroom & one bathroom condo i shared with my high school sweetheart Rodney.

"okay boo call me later. and remember him sticking his penis in you wont solve the problems" she said before i hung up. i laughed a little as i walked through the door.

"rodney!" i yelled closing the door.

"what the fuck you yelling for?" he said coming from the bedroom.

"you tell me why the fuck im yelling rodney!" i said putting my purse down getting prepared for the agrument i just started.

"lower your fucking tone talking to me. who the fuck you think i am hazel? one of your bitchass friends?" he yelled getting angry

"nah you a bitch ass nigga that steps out on his girlfriend" i said pulling up the pictures some unknown girl sent me. He was giving her oral on one pic and the both of them laid up on another.

he took my phone looking at the pictures.

"5 fucking years Rodney! 5! and you've cheated so many damn times! i dont even know why i kept taking your pathetic ass back! Then you dumb enough to let her take the picture" i yelled pointing my fingers in his face.

"im pathetic? IM PATHEIC?! bitch how dare you be so disrespectful to me" he yelled throwing my phone at the wall. I knew that would strike a nerve but at this point i don't care.

"yes you are a pathetic low life son of a bitch! you are 23 and a manger at fucking burger king! i gave you all of me. My first kiss! My love! My virginity! My money! and you still cheat! you are a peice of shit!" i yelled mushing up in his face before walking away. Im so tired of him! all he do his cheat. Yea the sex is good but im tired of him.

he yanked me back by my arm and threw me to wall. it didnt hurt much though. im use to getting in fist fights with him.

i got up and quickly put my hair in a bun.

"nigga you got me fucked up. but i went out and got something for your ass!" i said going to my purse. Im going to taze the fuck out of him.

"nah bitch you got me fucked up" said throwing my purse across the room and slapping me. the burning sensation on my cheek really pissed me off. I drew my fist back and punched him so damn hard in the mouth making his lip bleed. in return he punched me back..BLACKOUT

I moaned as my eyes fluttered open. Feeling a nice sensation in my lower area cause me to lift up only to see him giving me oral. i tried to scoot away but he brought me back to him.

"baby im sorry" he said still flicking and sucking on my girly.

"no stop" i said trying to move until i felt a unwanted organism approaching. my legs unwillingly shaked as i accept the organism. A few tears started to come from my eyes as he came up trying to kiss me but i turned my head. he sighed kissing my jaw line instead. He then stood up and ripped open a condom before sliding it on and entering me. i gasping as he slid in and out. I wouldnt call it rape because i was kinda of letting him but i didnt really enjoy it. 30 mins he busted and collapse between my legs falling to sleep.

after about maybe 30 minutes of his snoring loudly in my ear i was able to wiggle from under him. i got out the bed and ran a nice hot bubble bath. i went to the mirror and checked my face. i had a big bruise on my left cheek, wrist and a cut on my lip. i sighed rubbing my face.

"nothing makeup cant cover up" i mumbled to myself.

We've been getting into fist fights for the last year now. i know yall wondering why the hell im still with him but the truth is, he didnt always act like this. He use to be my bestfriend. But things changed when his little brother, mother and step dad died in a car crash a year ago. Thats when he became so easy to snap. i know I started it this time but thats the problem. He ALWAYS START FIGHTS or get mad when i confront him about a bitch he cheated on me with.

I turned off the water and slipped out of my shirt and bra. i let the water ease the slight pain between my legs. i washed myself up and got lotiond up. I slid on a pair of blue jeans with a white cropstop and a camouflage green jacket along with my tan pumas. I applied my make up making my face look brand new. I went to my closet and quickly packed all of my clothes in 2 big suitcases and a medium sized duffel bag. i grabbed my makeup bag, purse and headed to the living room. i picked up my now cracked Iphone6 plus and sighed. i had a few text messages so i went ahead and replied.

bestie💞:hey boo how did it go?

me:can i stay at your place?

bestiemeg:Of course! i wanna know everything

brotherKev💙:wassam sis

me:Omw to meg

brotherKev💙: call me

me:in a few

mama👸🏽: i cooked your favorite babe

me:okay make meg and i a plate

i put my phone in my purse and grabbed my keys.

"so this is what you gonna do? you know i have nobody left" he said leaning on the couch scaring me.

"you have your hoes....look you can have the car and condo but im done." i said opening the door.

"hazel" he called after me as i struggled to get all of my things out

i was finally able to get it into my car before turning to see him at the door.

"have a nice life rodney"

"i cant without you in it" he said low and sad. i sighed shaking my head before getting in my car. i started the ignition then sped off. i never thought i would see the day i would break up with Rodney.

a few tears fell thinking about how inlove we were in high school. He started off as my bestfriend that lived down the street. Ive always liked him, he was so funny and cute to me. I never told him out i felt because i thought he would reject me. i wasnt a ugly girl but i had no booty, braces, and small breast. it wasnt until after graduation at my graduation party that i confessed how i felt to him.  he said he would start fucking with me and the rest is history. He's the reason for the curves i have now. i shook the thought as i called my brother Kev. His my god brother to be exact.

"wassup wassup wassup" his voice boomed through my Camry speakers

"hey boo what you doing?" i asked turning the street.

"about to go fuck something"

i laughed
"boy you gonna get that clap messing with these hoes"

"hell no i strap baby"

"boy you are 25 when do you plan on settling down?"

"whenever your sexy friend stop playing"

"Meg?"

"yeaa meg.. as a matter of fact bring her with you sat for my birthday iight?"

"ill see if she wanna come kevin"

"okay love you sis. i see a bigbooty walking my way" i laughed and hung up.

i hunked twice before getting out of the car.
i got my suitcases out of the car just as she came outside to help.

"hey girl" she said giving me a hug. i locked my car and we brought the bags in her living room.

"tell me everything" she said plopping down on the couch giving me her attention.

"well.."