The Chaos Inside.

The Search.

I am lost without you

My broken eyes don't see the way

I'm tired, I'm just stumbling along

I keep holding on to random things

Progressively pointless things

I do not see the light

There is no tunnel

No path to walk on

Just a tightly enclosed hole

Too deep in the ground

I can't see the light

So deep in the ground

I don't feel any air

My head says that it's meant to be

Look at my heart!

It's still flailing its arms around

Groping, for you.

I can't beg you to come around

I know you can't. 

I know this was meant to be.

So I'll just chop off the hands

The flailing hands of the heart

I'll pull its tongue out

I won't hear it scream your name

I'll lay down, pull my knees close,

Push my head down, and I'll sleep.

No need to close my eyes,

It's all dark around anyway

Don't pull me out now please

I'll stay here till the end

I cannot handle light or love

The darkness is my only friend.

                                                                                                                  -j.t.