autumn nights (tyler joseph)

prologue ?

Autumn's POV
It was silent. Too silent. It made me sick. I slowly slipped off my mattress, through on a hoodie and made my way to the door. I swiftly stepped out my new apartment, if you call 3 empty rooms with a air mattress a apartment (I hadn't had the time or motivation to get it cleaned up. So for now it stayed bland) and found myself alone at 2 am on a unfamiliar street. All I knew was I had to get out of my head and find something to bring me peace. A park. Very cliché but would have to do. I walked to the park only a few blocks away and did my best not to get caught up in my thoughts. But my efforts didn't last more than a minute.
"This was supposed to be your new start so why can't you go one god damn night without falling apart? You'll never get better, this just proves that."
I could only seem to keep those thoughts away for short periods of time before they took over. As each downgrading bullet rolled through my mind I felt my body weaken. Just in that moment I reached my resting place. I found a somewhat clean park bench and toppled onto the cold metal. Knowing how these nights went I cut right to the chase and let every itching demon overcome me and cater my fears. This, like many nights before, would be lingering for hope but always fall short. Why couldn't I just except that?

A/N:
Okay so yes, that was VERY short, crappy and didn't give much away but I just wanted to get something out there even if it was sort of a intro and not really a chapter. Expect the next chapter to be much much longer. stay street