autumn nights (tyler joseph)

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(A/N: I actually HATE the first part of this chapter just fwi it sucks)

T/W suicide 

It was reaching 4 am and I haven't yet found what I was looking for. Not that I knew what that was. My back was aching from the  park bench and my head throbbed from lack of sleep. I knew of course sleep would be best for me right now but considering I couldn't get myself to move, I didn't see any point in trying.

Nearly 30 mins later I decided to finally leave. I silently sighed as I made my way back to my apartment. As I took each step I watched my feet and avoided any bumps or holes in the ground. It wasn't a necessarily rough walk but directing my attention to something as simple as where I stepped helped keep my mind in a comfortable silence. 

Keeping my thoughts on the ground, I hadn't noticed the dark silhouette I was approaching until I was too close to avoid them. Nothing seemed out of place but then again why were they here too reaching 5 in the morning? 

My stomach dropped when what was happening hit me.   

They stood too close to the railing. There could only be one reason they were standing far to close to a bridge at 5 am. They wanted to die and they were going to try and become it. 

I sped up, now understanding. Each step I took forward revealing more of the silhouette. It was a he. He was silently crying. He kept inching closer to his end. He looked lost. He looked hurt. He looked.... well too much like I've looked some nights. 

 Moments later I had to be only 5 feet away from him. My stomach felt sick and I looked down to see my hands slightly shaking. I slipped them behind my back in hopes of hiding my fear. If he jumped I wasn't sure if I would too. and that terrified me. Unlike some nights I didn't have hopes of dying.

"Hello," I whispered so quietly I wasn't even sure I had said it aloud.

I quickly cleared my throat and raised me voice.

"You don't have to."

He quickly jumped and faced me, obviously startled by my presence. He opened his mouth slightly as if to speak but instead he stayed silent.

"In fact please don't."

We looked into each others eyes both in a loss of words. Through those soft brown eyes I knew he was hurting. I knew there had to be a lot going inside that head of his. 

I noticed he was looking into my eyes as if he was analyzing mine like I had his and very quickly got even more nervous and looked down at my feet. 

"Why?"

I looked back up at the boy confused.

"Why are you doing this?"

I wasn't sure if he was even looking for a answer. My body weakened as I looked into his eyes once again. He really had lost all hope.

I slowly sighed and stepped toward the bridge. I stood next to him and looked down into the water, the water that might have killed this boy.

"Because I care. Because somewhere life has a hopeful undertone. Because you made it this far and I know you can make it farther." 

We stayed silent for moment as in to take in the past few minutes.

I could see he had turned back towards me and I again got nervous. 

"You're shaking," he whispered

"I know. I was scared. I don't normally talk to people much less try and convince someone not to die."

He chuckled softly at the last bit.

"Normally no one tries to stop me," he says bluntly.

I looked into the boys eyes once again. 

"I'm sorry"

"It's fine."

"But you're so far from fine."

"Aren't we all"

I looked away after he said that. I didn't want him too see me cry. This situation was all too familiar and I so badly wanted to help the boy more, but I knew I couldn't. How does a broken girl fix a broken boy? 

"What's your name?" I asked almost at a whisper.

"Tyler. Tyler Joseph." Tyler stated.

"Autumn Brooks"

Tyler looked me up and down and placed his hand in front of me. I shoot his and hand and silently admired his soft touch. 

"It's nice to meet you Autumn. Thank you for saving me."

The corners of my mouth tugged up and a soft smile appeared on both our faces.

"My pleasure"

A/N: Haha remember a few months ago I said the first chapter would be out in a few days? Nope. Sorry bout that friends. I'm still trying to figure out how to do this whole fanfic thing so feel free to leave any suggestions and pointers!! I PROMISE ON MY LIFE the next chapter won't take months. Stay alive everybody.