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More Than Best Friends(20)

Chapter 20

Its been 3 weeks. 3 weeks since i spoke to Niall, Ive been trying to get home but the boys are blocking my way 24/7. I've never ignored Niall, and it breaks my heart to ignore him. Everyday i ignore him my feelings get stronger for him, and i just want to cuddle up against him, but then i remember that I'm mad at him.

And that just stops me. Ive never been mad at Niall, when i say never, i really mean never. When the boys are on interviews or gigs, Niall just puts on a mask and plays along like he normally does, but when he is in the flat, he looks terrible. Even talking to Demi doesnt cheer him up, which surprises me. Not that leaves me at the text messages.

Demi has been sending me text messages 24/7. They are even worse than before, she is telling me to go home and die. She is telling me to cut myself. I know what she went through when she was younger because i WAS  a fan, and now shes telling me, i mean that is messed up. She told her fans what she went through and now im going through the same thing, but i haven't cut.

 Lovatics hate the crap out of me, then ad up the hate from Directioners, and some of the jealous bitches from my school years. Yeah thats probably over millions of people. My life is a mess, i haven't been out of the flat for at least 2 weeks. The boys are encouraging me to go and look for a job like i have to, but that isn't happening. The girls have been trying to cheer me up, but that doesnt help.

Yeah, my life is a mess. So now im sitting on the couch watching a interview of the boys, Niall looks really happy, but he's not.

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The boys walk in and the boys look at me angrily. I raise my eyebrows, "You really want to make Demi's life miserable huh," Niall says, "What have I done this time?" i ask crossing my arms across my chest. "Youre sending her deat threats," he replies, "What the actual fuck?! Would you really think i would send her death threats?! I woudnt do that, im not that mean, i can be but im not!" I shout.

"Great, you know, your letting your fucking girlfriend ruin our friendship," I say before running up the stairs. I grab my clothes out of the closet and throw them into my suitcase. "Jessie dont leave," I hear Harry say as he comes in. "All i do is fight with Niall, thats not what im here for," and my phone lights up. Harry looks at it, "What is that?" he asks curiously.

"What is what?" i ask him, "Go die in hell, from Demi," he says. I sit down on the floor, against the wall and i let out a big sigh. "She's been sending you the threats, you havent send any," he says scrolling through them, "you made a discovery!" i say sarcastically,

"And you havent shown them to Niall," he says, "why should i? he wont believe me,"  i reply. "Do you wqant to know what he told me last week about Demi and You?" he asks, i shrug. "He said he is stuck, he likes you both a lot, he is believing Demi because he is trying to stop liking you, he is afraid you dont have feelings for him."

"It still doesnt change the situation," i reply, "Im going home, and your not going to stop me," i say breaking tghe silence, he sighs and says "alright," and he walks out. I finsih packing and i grab and pen and paper.

Niall,

I dont know if you wanted this, or if you didnt but im doing it. Im going home, i really dont care what your thinking about right now. In all honesty i hate you so much right now, your putting your girlfriend infront of me, and how long have we been friends? Yeah since diapers if you still remember. You even believe her more as me...that hurts a lot.

Oh and dont mind looking at my phone, through my text messages, if you read those and you still dont believe me you have some serious issues. Trust issues. Thanks for the one fun week i had here...and by the way, i fucking love you (And hate you), so this breaks my whole heart.

Jessie x