Darkness (H.S. Smut)

Trust Issues

What the hell? This slick son of a bitch.
"Harry please tell me what's going on."
By this time robin has walked out of the room to go sign some release forms in the main lobby and pull the car up.
"No need to worry baby girl." He said scooting closer to me and grabbing my hand.
"I had to let you go..I couldn't hurt you anymore. Your life is in danger every second I'm around you and I can't risk something that I love the most getting hurt. This was my only option. Please don't be mad at me I'm only doing this for your benefit." He kisses my hand and looks at me with tearstained cheeks. I really want to be understanding, I do. But I just can't...I can't go on without harry. People think I'm crazy already and this isn't gonna help anything.
"Harry you can't leave me..please."

He raises his eyebrows, "Baby girl I'm not leaving you. You just won't be seeing me that often. This thing that we have going on between us isn't going to work. You may not be able to see me but I'm gonna be here with you 24/7. I want to protect you I just can't be with you physically."

"So what are you?"
"I'm a son of the devil who is deeply in love with an angel."

And with that he disappears into thin air. I close my eyes and open then to make sure that what I saw was just real and I'm not hallucinating.
"Baby what's wrong? You look like you've seen a ghost" Robin walks back in laughing.

"I just saw Harry..again..he was here while you left an he just disappeared." I sigh covering my eyes.
"It's gonna get better we just have to get you home okay?"

*****skip 2 months*****

I still managed to see Harry in my dreams and things were okay in my fantasies world but in reality my life was a living hell. Robin began to cheat on me and he became more abusive over time. I have tons of bruises and cuts from when he's came home drunk and took his anger out on me.

*Sensitive material*

"Robin please stop" I cry uncontrollably as he punches me in the back of the head. I'm laying in the middle of the floor on my stomach because robin decided it would be funny to trip me when all of a sudden he just got angry and began punching me continuously.
"Shut up you stupid bitch!" He punches again and this time my eyes roll into the back of my head as everything goes black.

When I wake up I'm covered in sweat and my shirt and pants are off.
"Its about time. I wanted you to be awake when I took your virginity baby girl." Robin smirks and I cringe at the way 'babygirl' rolls of his tongue.
I try to sit up but he has my hands and legs tied to the bed.
"Robin this isn't funny just please untie me." I begin to cry again as he strips off his clothes and walks to the bed.
"Awww what's wrong? Were you expecting some candles and roses? All that romance bullshit well too bad."
He jumps onto the bed and straddles my waist and kisses my neck..this feels all too familiar and its making me sick. I feel disgusted with myself.
He finally takes off his boxers and throws them down. I screw my eyes shut I don't want to see this happen to me.

He rips off my underwear then I feel him crouch between my legs. My back arches as he shoves two fingers inside of me. It feels like I'm being torn in half and he is enjoying it. He enters a third finger and I begin to cry harder because I feel so helpless. The pain is so unbearable its a feeling I can't explain.
"Robin please stop."

I feel like my prayers have been answered because he immediately stops and covers me up. I hear him groan and I open my eyes to something unbelievable.

What I see in front of me is Robin laying on the floor in pool of his own blood and Harry holding a bloody knife....no this cant be happening.

He takes the knife and stabs Robin again as he lays there lifelessly.
Harry goes into my drawer and pulls out a pair of under, pants, and a shirt.
"Put it on."
He turns away and I quickly put my clothes on.
"Are you okay baby girl?" He walks towards me and attempts to place his hand on my face but I slap it away.
"What took you so long?"

"What do you mean?"
"What took you so long to help me?"
"Jordan I-"
"HE BEAT ME SENSELESS FOR THE PAST TWO MONTHS AND YOU WERE NEVER THERE TO PROTECT ME HARRY. HE HURT ME IN WAYS YOU CANT UNDERSTAND...AND YOU JUST LET IT HAPPEN! What happened to protecting me or that If anyone hurts me that'll be their last day above ground? What the fuck happened harry? I knew I shouldn't have depended on you. I'm used to getting lied to anyways its nothing new. I just thought you would be different Harry. I just wanted to trust you..that's all. I would sit up late at night and sometimes cry myself to sleep because you weren't there for me. But now I see what your true intentions are. You just wanted my innocence just like Robin. It explains a lot. Can you just leave please?"

"Jordan listen, I know what he's done to you and I'm sorry. I can't make up for what happened but all that matters is that I'm here now. You have to realize that I love you and I can't just be here 24/7 with you."

"I can't believe you harry. What the hell am I going to do now? My boyfriend is laying in a pool of his own blood probably bleeding to death right about now. What am I gonna tell the cops? They're gonna put me in Jail. I can't go to ja-"
He cuts me off by kissing me. I try to get out of his grip but he's holding my face and to be honest I've kinda missed this feeling. His warm lips on mine. He pulls away for air and we both catch our breathe. He places his forehead on mine and closes his eyes.

"I'm so sorry but I have to do this." He whispers. I raise my eyebrows in confusion.
"Just know..that no matter what happens. I've always loved you and I always will. You're my little angel. I need you to stay strong no matter what. Once again, I'm sorry." He disappears and that's when I hear someone barge into my room.
"FREEZE! PUT YOUR HANDS WHERE I CAN SEE THEM!"
"I didn't do it I swear...it was Harry!"
A police officer snatches me off the bed and places me in handcuffs.
"You're under arrest for the murder of Robin Wilson."
"I didn't do it! I'm telling the truth let me go!!" I struggle to get out of his grip but its no use.
******1 year later******
It's been 1 year and 3 days since I've been in this asylum.
Somehow I was found not guilty by reason of insanity. Thing is I'm not insane. I know the difference between reality and fantasies. I know who killed Robin and it wasn't me. I've been telling my counselor this but she blames it on my illness.

I haven't seen Harry since the day I got arrested and I don't want to...I hate him. I hate him more than anyone I've ever known. And I hate myself for trying to forgive him over and over. I must be plain stupid. Harry never really loved me. He just wanted to use me for his own sick pleasure. Who was I to trust the word of the devil. I was naive and he played me. He played with my mind. He wanted me to believe that I was really crazy. But I'm not. I'm just a normal girl who got caught up with the wrong guy.

A nurse suddenly opens my door and walks in.
"Ms.King you have a visitor."
I assume its my counselor since she visits me every other day but I though wrong when my eyes meet with a set of familiar emerald ones.
A pair of eyes that I'd thought I'd never see again.
"Harry."
"How's my baby girl?" He smirks.