Replaced- Jesse x Jaden

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I can't believe you replaced me.
We always played together and we were always happy...I always helped you...
I was always there for you...

Always.

How did this happen?
You told me all the time you loved me, but did you really love me for one second?
Do you even know what love is?
I guess the answer is no...

Are you unhappy with me?
What did I do wrong to deserve such a punishment from you?
You don't even look at me anymore, your attention is always on this boy, Chazz...

You really like him, don't you, Jesse?
I knew you were attracted to other boys, you'd reported it to me as they began bullying you because of it.
I had been there for you. I'm still there for you if you want to come back to me... But that will never happen...

I knew the day you'll leave me would come... You've planned this all along, haven't you?
You planned to leave me, to break my heart in tiny pieces and to kick it like it's just some kind of rubbish.
Kick again, Jesse, after all its just my heart and that's nothing worth, right? Yeah, I don't deserve your love because I'M nothing worth.

I remember the times we had... I'd often comforted you if you had any problems, I always made your day better. You once said: "You always cheer me up whenever I'm down and I'm really thankful you exist, Jaden."
If you're thankful that I exist, why do you treat me this way? It obviously proves I'm nothing more to you than a toy you throw away if it becomes too boring for you.

I thought I was more than that to you.

You said you loved me but why do you betray me then with Chazz? I gave you everything I had, isn't that enough to satisfy you?
My heart burns everytime I see you with him and how you laugh and have fun and how happy you are.
You promised me I would be the only one for you and now you broke that promise...

Why did you replace me?

Did your feelings for me really just vanish like fog? I tried so many times to speak with you but you always ignored me.
Always.

I think I should just stop trying and accept you don't love me anymore. Now you love Chazz and that's okay. I've got to live with that.
But I promise you, I'll keep our times in my broken heart and I'll love you forever even if you don't love me back.

Yesterday Chazz asked you to be his boyfriend and you said yes. You seemed happy and looked at me and I just smile like I always do.
Always, even if my heart shatters into a million sharp shards like it did yesterday.
Chazz promised me to keep you safe and you laughed. And I smiled. Knowing he would keep his promise...

"Jesse?"
"Hm, what's the matter, Chazzy?"
"I told you not to call me that..."
"Aw, don't be like this, I know you like your nickname!"
"I definitely don't!"
You crawled over to him and gave him your puppy-look. "Really~?"
He patted your head and grinned slightly. "Yeah really, you smurf!"
"HEY! I'm not a smurf!"
"You've got blue hair and you're short, you're a smurf."
You turned your head to stare at me. "Jadeeeen, he's being mean again! Do something!"

I smiled.

Chazz leaned back against your wardrobe, eyeing me. "You do realise that's a doll?"
"Yeah, I know but I've got the feeling he can feel, see and hear as well."
"That's just silly, Jesse."
"When I was little he was my best friend. When I was upset about the guys at school he comforted me somehow and made me feel better. I loved him in a way. And even after I've grown up so much, I can't bring myself to throw him away."

You walked over to me and pressed me to your chest like I was a treasure.

You still love me, that's why you never threw me away even though your mother said so many times you're too old to play with dolls.
Jaden. That's the name you've given me as a child. And I'm proud to have this name.

"You keep saying 'him', it's kinda...creepy. Like this doll would have a mind of its own."
"You'll never understand it", you established and put me back on the commode.
And I smiled like I always do.

You didn't replace me, I still have a special place in your heart.
You still love me.

~Owari (End)

I hope you liked it more than I did XD It's just so boring but I don't know...