My Issa

Chapter 6... Finally in LA

IM BACK!!!!

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  We were getting off the bus and checking in the hotel. When we got our room keys, Issa pulled me up to our room. "When can we go to the stores?"

  "Later promise. We need to unpack."

  "I never unpack. I work out of my suit case," I said setting up Jewels palace and sitting her inside.

  "Not even your make and hair stuff?" 

  I sat on the bed and looked at him. "They come out when I use them and go in when Im done."

  "Wow." He just stared at me.

  "I know now come here," I scooted up the bed and he climbed on top of me.

  "Are your hormones raging, that much?"  I laughed and smacked his arm. 

  "So you wanna tell me your promotion strategy."

  "Ive called everyone that I need in clubs and scheduled an appearance and show for every night were here considering you'll be at Jive most of the afternoon, you have mornings to rest. Your shows start tomorrow, and yes Lashae knows. I gotchu babe!"

  "My little planner," he said kissing me.

  "Issa," I said looking at him dead on. "When am I gonna meet your family..."

  "When we get back to ATL...excited?"

  "Yes! Im meeting your family! Its a big deal. My future family."

  He smiled, "Ive never met someone quite like you Sasha."

  "Well thats nice to know," I wrapped my arms around his neck. How am I gonna tell this guy about Julius... and the dream. Not now...no. Not now. 

   "Whats wrong hun," he said laying on his side. 

   "Nothing," I said a little too fast. "Why would something me wrong," I said frantically. 

  "Babe, somethings wrong. What going on?" I stood up and started pacing.

  "I-I-I," I stuttered. "I cant say it. Ask Quees."

  "Why does he know? What did you do?"

  "I did not cheat. I just needed a brother. You were asleep and he came out. He saw I was upset." Tears overflowed my eyes and my hands were shaking. 

  "I trust you baby. Stop crying, please." He held me. 

  "No. Don touch me. Im filth, I dont deserve you," I said pushing myself back into a corner. I curled up in a ball. Issa ran out and came back running with Quees and Jeanette on his tail. Jean slowly moved close to me and held me. I flinched at her touch.

  "Shh Sash. He's not here. We wont let him hurt you anymore," she said to me. 

  "I dont deserve..." I was staring into space. I felt myslef slowly reverting to that girl in school with him. The small, scared, fragile girl. Quees explained everything to Issa and they both looked at me with the saddest face. 

  "Sasha... baby girl? I wont hurt you like he did. You know I love you right?" 

  "How do I know," I whispered.

  "If I didnt love you, you wouldnt be here. Let me show you Sasha." He stuck out his hand. I stared at it like it was a foreign object. " I promise babe, you will never have to go through that again."

  I looked at his eyes, truth. I slowly took his hand. "Its okay," Jean said encouraging me. When I took his hand, he pulled me to his chest and I broke down. "He scared her...permanent traumitization, her doctor said to expect this to happen. She'll revert, have dreams, we fear she'll never be completely heal."

  "How long ago?"

  "Few months. They were together all of high school. All those years and I didnt see it." Everything Jean was saying made me cry harder. Issa carried me to the bed.

  "Please dont hurt me," I sobbed out. 

  "Just let her sleep it off," Jean said as her and Quees left. Issa rocked me back and forth and rubbed my back. I slept for what feels like days.

  "Sash, come on babe. Time to get up," Jeansaid shaking me. 

  "What?" I groaned and rolled over. 

  "Come on get up. The boys went to Jive and Issa said to go to the store."

  I slowly sat up and ran my fingers through my hair. "Do you even know why I have to go?"

  "No but I know Ive gotta go." I got up and slipped on my shoes, then put on a snapback and pulled Jean out of the room.

  "Alright alright you grinch geez."

  "Thats what you get for waking me up."

  "You wouldnt be saying that had it been Issa."

  "Damn right!"

  "Do you remember anything from last night?"

  "Actually... no. But I know it was bad."

  "You thought Issa was Julius." 

  "Oh no!" I slapped my forehead and stopped in my tracks.

  "Yurp," we caught a cab and went to the closest CVS. I got what I needed and Jean ran off quickly.  I went up and down the aisles til I saw her.. buying a pregnancy test....

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Ugh guys I feel like such a douche guys! Im sooooooooo sorry! I'll definitely post this and my other story all this month and next.