In Love With A Gangsta

Chapter 12

I've been depressed for a month after I broke up with Eric. That son of a bitch Jose told my parents that I was involved with Eric and that he was black and a drug dealer. All hell broke loose. My dad threatened to kill Eric if I ever went around him again and thanked Jose for telling him about what was going on and "keeping me safe".
"If I ever see you with that nigger ever, imma pop a cap in his ass", my father said to me. I was devastated. I missed him so much.
All my friends are mad at me for breaking up with Eric and when they found out it was for Jose, they were pissed. I couldn't tell them the truth because if I did they would go back and tell Eric and I can't let that happen.
I'm not allowed to go out with anybody else except Jose or family. When my parents found out that my friends were involved with Dre, Cube, and Ren they told me to drop my friends and to never talk to them again because they blame them for even getting me involve with black guys even though it's not their fault.
      My friends all think, including Eric and the boys, that I was cheating on him the entire time with Jose and that's not true. That broke my heart knowing I caused him so much pain and if he only know the real reason behind it.
    I felt so depressed because I missed him so much and he thinks I'm just this bitch who did him dirty. I feel like a hypocrite because I told him I wasn't going to give up on him and look what I'm doing, giving up.
      I love him and I never got the chance to say it to him and I may never get the chance. It's been a month and I was forced to move in with Jose so he could keep an eye on me. My parents don't know that's why I moved out.
      They thought we were a happy couple, ready to take the next step. Boy were they wrong. I am beaten everyday by Jose and nobody knows about it. I still talk to my friends but only when Jose is there. He wants to make sure I don't tell them anything that is going on. I'm only allowed to go to my parents house and back here to the apartment. I feel like a prisoner. And that's because I am one.
     I'm pulled out of my thoughts as I hear keys rattling in the door and I get up to make sure his food is ready and hot. If his dinner is cold he'll hit me until I get it right. It's so horrible the way he treats me.
     Jose walks in, throwing the keys on the table. "Hey baby", he said grinning. "I hope my food is ready?", he said threatening. I swallowed hard. "Yes. Why don't you go freshen up and I'll put your plate on the table for you?"
   He smiled and walked over to me. I got scared so I instinctively back up. He put his hand on my cheek and kissed me on the lips. His lips were nothing like Eric's. Eric's were soft, nice and wet. Jose's was dry, chapped and disgusting.
     "Alright, baby", he said smacking my ass as he went out to the bathroom. I only like it when Eric does that to me. He makes me feel comfortable and sexy when he did little stuff like that like put his hand on my ass or tongue kiss me. Jose makes me feel disgusting and dirty.
    I bet he's out there cheating on me too. Sometimes he doesn't come home until real late at night and I know he is because I can smell perfume on his body when he walks in.
    I questioned him about it one time but that only got me a beating and a "shut the fuck up, I can do what I want" statement. I haven't questioned it any further but I'm not stupid. I know he's sleeping with other women.
    He rapes me whenever he wants sex from me because I don't give it up easily. I was a virgin the first time we did it and he was so rough with me I screamed and cried in pain all night while he slapped me and told me to shut up.
    I told my parents about the abuse and my mother said, " Just give the man some sex, Gabby. If you would just do what he says, then he wouldn't hit you or force himself on you".
    I felt sick to my stomach after she said that. And what's worse is that my so called father agreed with her. Parents are suppose to protect their children from stuff like this not turn against them. I wish so bad that I could get to Eric but I'm scared because one, I might get caught and two Eric might not want to see me.
     I know he would protect me but would he give me the chance to explain? I don't know but at this point I have nothing else to lose. I've been beaten and abused mentally, physically and sexually for over a month now. I have to get away but I have to wait and make up a plan first before I pull this off.
     If Eric doesn't want anything to do with me after I explain what happen, I have to think of a plan B. I'll just get a job and live in a hotel until I save up enough money to get a place of my own. When that happens, I'm not telling my parents where I am. If I do, then they'll come and get me or worse, Jose will.
    I hope Eric let's me explain and forgives me so we can be together. I'm so in love with him it hurts and the thought that he thinks I cheated on him with Jose makes me sick. I have to get the hell out of here cause I can't take the abuse anymore.
    As Jose came back out of the bathroom and sat at the table eating his food, I watched him. I  was hoping he would get choked on his food.
    I couldn't wait to get out of here and back to the man I am in love with. I was gonna do everything in my power to make it back to him. Even if I die trying.

Uh oh. Gabby's gonna sneak out and leave Jose. So do you think she's gonna make it? And if she does, do you think Eazy will forgive her for breaking his heart and let her explain what happen. If he does, can he and the boys protect her from that crazy ass Jose? I hope so. Like I said before, I'm going to try to make Jose as crazy and psychotic as I can. Something like them lifetime movies lol. But tell me what you think?