Carter

Letters of Truth

Carter whispered "I'm leaving"
" So you're saying you're leaving. Am I right ? " I looked at him for agreement . He nodded his head yes. "And you're never coming back ?" He nodded yes. I can't believe this boy is actually leaving. I know that earlier I didn't want anything to do with him, but he's so addicting. Why of all times would he leave now ? So many questions ran through my head, but I have so little time to ask.

" I know you hate me. I can leave with that, but I must go. I know your already in this crap. I'm sorry for bringing you in. As of tomorrow you will have a better life. I know I have been cruel. I did it to protect you. " I stared at brown headed boy shocked. My mouth widen a little. Was this a joke ? Is he actually leaving ? To be honest life was very dull before he came in. I know I promised myself to never fall in love with him, but I can't help it. Its funny how you always doubt your true feelings for someone till they leave. Once they do that's when you unravel your true feelings. Why fall for someone if you don't admit it ? That's something I couldn't answer.

"Be safe." Was all I could mutter out. This adventure has been a fun one, I'll admit. I loved every second of it. From driving to Texas, to flying in an airplane. It was something you don't do often. A dream come true. Also I would have never thought my 'prince charming' was really a guy with tattoos who had a bad rep.

"I will. Maybe one day we will see each other but for now." He lifted up my chin with the ends of his fingers. He gave me a loving look. He leaned down to my left ear and whispered " don't forget me" . With that he left out the window and jumped down.

I turned to see him already gone. Is this how heartbreaks feel ? I know we aren't dating or anything, but I feel like he dumbed me. Both emotions and feelings suck. Now my life goes back to dullness it always once was. Tomorrow I will have left all the memories created within just a few months behind. Locked in the back of my mind.

I now know that even if someone looks ruthless doesn't mean that they are. Everyone has feelings even the wickedest ones. Who knew that a Good girl with straight A's would have fallen for the Bad boy with straight F's. Guess that's why they say "Opposites attract" but then was Carter ever the opposite ? He is very smart just never put in the effort. If only he could.

Now the question is if you will ever see him again ? And if so when and where ? Could it be 5 years from now ? Or maybe even 10 or when you've grown and have a family. What if he never shows up again ? What if the last time you see him is when your on your death bed at the age of 80 ?
This question will not be answered. Maybe I'll see him next week.

I had closed the window and lied down on my bed. School... I don't even wanna go anymore if it means I won't see carter anymore. I wonder what he's doing now. Is he thinking of me ? Probably not. But who knows. He could be watching me right now as we speak. What will I tell everyone at school ? Whatever I'll think of something. So many what if's.
My view of carter has changed dramatically .

I moved my hand underneath my pillow to come to find a light baby blue envelope.

" what's this ?" I mumbled under my breath.
I opened the letter.
Its from carter !

Dear selen,

If you're reading this that means I have left. Now just know I'm not good at releasing my feelings. From now on you'll be safe. I have moved elsewhere and deleted all evidence that you have been with me. You can go back to your life...

I felt teardrops rolling down my cheeks . One by one they came rolling down. Wiping my eyes I continued reading.

I know you will most likely be happy knowing I'm leaving you're life. Hell I would too. But just know this is for you're own safety. I known I've been cruel and ruthless to you, but it was the only way to keep you safe. I'll admit this at the beginning I wasn't acting , but after a while I've developed things I never had before in my life. Of course until i met you. I have been meaning to get this off my chest but selen.

My eyes widen. I can't believe this. My tears had stopped and blotches of my tears were stained on the letter. How long had he kept this from me ? But that wasn't the part that got to. Three simple words threw me off track, all my feelings and emotions crashing into one another . Each fighting for dominance. If only I could tell him the words back. I was holding back.

"Damn you carter" I sobbed into my knees. Who would have thought that just three words can knock someone's feet off. Three words that can send someone into tears and have their heart thumping faster by the second. The one thing that can show someone's true feelings. Three words that are the most dangerous yet most powerful.

I love you.
Sincerely,
Carter mahone
"I love you too." I whispered. My eyes closed and I let darkness take over me
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Hey lovelys. So what you think about this chapter ? Huh ?
I'm think about ending here. Maybe make a sequel . what do you babes think ?
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