Screwed Up.

this is awkward....

Carters p.o.v

i wake up with nothing but Louis and a smile. when i face him hes already awake and i peck him "morning lou. thanks for last night"

"baby that happens almost every night" he chuckles then i smile noticing that he thinks i'm talking about the sex. i get serious and look in his beautiful aqua eyes.

"no, i'm talking about the harry thing. thanks for not being mad and understanding where i was coming from. other guys would've got more pissed at me then the guy who texted me and wouldn't leave me alone. i love you so very deeply" i smile and see the ends of his mouth go up showing that i'm still forgiven

"i have nothing to forgive you for, i'm not like those other guys. i'm Louis tomlinson, tommo, your cookie monster just like your my little elmo. i still remember how you forgot my last name when we were little so you called me Louis monster or Mr. monster. and sometimes i would be so confused if it was a good thing that you called me monster i would actually cry a little because i really liked you and in 6th grade when i had the guts to ask you out and you said yes i really felt like i proposed and then we separated because i went to a different school and your brother (liam) told me you were a big fat mess and you wouldn't stop crying until you heard that lisbeth and zayn were over and she started to like luke, but that was when you stopped i don't know why. why did you stop"

"um i was in deep depression i started cutting i wanted to die and then i stopped because me and luke became best friends and then i introduced him to lisbeth and they hit it off. i stopped because i noticed that i can be happy by not dying. lisbeth always changed the subject when i brought you up...so yeah"

he starred at me and was about to cry. he smiled and he hugged me tightly. his breath was getting heavy and i started to feel him cry on my shoulder."i missed you so much. those few years with out you have been nothing but suckish. And if i hear that you ever try self harm again im gonna make you put tape around your arms and thighs so you cut nothing but layers and layers of tape" we laughed and i looked away in guilt trying not to tell him what really happened between me and luke those 2 years. No one know but me and luke and james but that doesnt need to be talked about right now. I smile and get my JBL speaker and put the boys bu nicki minaj. I start to dance like a true white girl to then realize i need to be like louis' type. So i get my phone and put swinging life away by MGK and sleeping with sirens.

I start to take off my shirt and pants and walking around in my calvin Klein bra and panties, feeling a pair of blue eyes on me i start to bend down on purpose acting like the slut i try to be with him, i take my hair out of the bun and whip it to the side a bit. When i feel a pair of hand on my waiste from behind i turn around i crash my lips on his and bring my hands to the back of his neck when he moans i pull away. "Im gonna take a shower and if we keep doing this i wont have anything in my anymore, wanna shower with me?" He answers with a "sure" and a smile. I go to the bathroom and take my towel from the floor and put it on the toilet after putting the seat down i get undressed and turn the water on, i hear louis close the door so the warm fog from the soothing shower to escape and bring the cold AC from the room. I hope in the shower and when louis is in with me about 2 minutes later i have soap on my body already. "AH MY EYES! SOAP! IN MY EYES! FUCK!" He starts to laugh and when i clean my eyes out i smack his chest

" ow! What did i do. If anything you should hit the soap" i smile and push him lightly and lean in the kiss his gental lips. I pull away and whisper an i love you at the crook of his neck.

When our cuddle sesion was over i got my phone and saw i had a text from luke

Luke: hey um i heard your with tommo now and i wanted to say im sorry about those 2 years it was awkward but i missed you can we have lunch? :/

I look at louis and hes watching a movie on netflix " hey lou im gonna go meet up with a friend real quick and then ill bring lunch" he looked at me and smiled pausing the movie "okay love, when you get back if im not here im at zayns. Call me if anything tho." I said okay and put some jeans and a big cali hoodie and some black boot-heels, i head out and get out my ohone and text luke

Me: yeah sure, can you pick me up im at the hotel?

Luke: no problem, be there soon.

When 10 minutes go by i see lukes brown hair and green eyes. I get in the car and hug him and before i can look away he crashses his lips on mine im shocked, not because hes kissing me. But because im kissing back.