How not to love

**Chapter 5***

**Same Day~~couple hours later **

**Brenden P.O.V.**

i was sitting on the couch, well i think im still sitting on the couch because ?really i dont know. im halfway asleep because i had just waken up and on the urge of falling back to sleep. i guess i must have been really tired.

i heard a loud thump come from upstairs which had fully waken me up now. it sounded like someone dropped something on the floor or they ell or something. i dont know but i am surely about to find out cause ikow no one is even here so what the fuck is that. i walked upstaist go see what it was.

***Kayla's POV***

it has been acouple of hours since my mom and dad left. i have just been laying here starig at te ceiling and drinkingmy water. i got of the bed and m phone fell off my and i bet it made a real loud noise downstairs. pcked up my phone and threw it back on my bed and went to the bathroom. man i was so eager to get to the bathroom cause all that water make a nigga gotta pee!! i got to the toilet and huried to sit tryna unzip my shorts. finally got it!

'Ahhhhhhhh.........Whew thank you jesus' i said in releif

when i got finished with my buisness i got up and flushed the toilet then washed my hands.

right when i was about to lay back down on my bed, someone opened my door who i was really tryna not see for basically the rest of my life because im really not ready to face him at this point in time.

me:*sigh* ''get out' i said with a attitude

brenden: "wait" he said looking sad and concerned

me:" brenden, why are you here?'' i asked tryna hold back the tears

brenden: "i-i just......i h-heard a loud noise downstairs and came to see what happened cause i didnt even know you were even here" he stuttered

me: "i dropped my phone ok s you can leave now and first how did you even get in here." i asked cause i know for sure i didnt he woouuldnt have even passed that front door.

brenden: "oh uhmmm your parents let me in when they came and told me i could stsy here with you." my heart almost dropped when he said that i know this nigga got a house is good for his sloopy neck ass to stay in and his ass aint stayin here for sure.

me: "well i dont need you to company me im good i dont neeed or wanna talk to you. not now. not ever. so just get out cause you really got a lot of nerve tryin to come in here after that shit you put me through tryna look all sad and shit cause really shouldt i be the one with all the sad emotions. you hurt me i never did anything to you so i dont know why you lookin sad and shit." i said still standin by my bed and he was still by the door but standin outside of it. he then started to walk in and close the door behinf him.

i walked over by the door angry as hell and opened it up gesturing for him to get out.

me: "i dont know why you closed this damn door. you need to get the hell up out my room then get yo shit and get out my house." i said pushing him out the door

he picked me up kicked the door back closed with foot and put me over his shoulder while i just kept screaming "put me down" and hitting him. he put me down and i just gave him that death glare then spoke up.

me: 'THE FUCK!! now you think you can just touch me and shit!!" i yelled

brenden: look kay im sorry and the reason i look sad is because i know that i havent been treating you right and im finally realizing what ive been doing to you. now for 1 you need to calm all this shit down with the yellin and cursin at me and shit i know i did you wrong and all that but you need to just calm down and listen cause you doin a little too much and 2 i was just tryna calm you down from yo lil temper tantrum you was having!! he said in a semi yell

me:".............." i didnt say nothin cause i was just truly lost for words and i tried to speak but nothin came out i just had mixtures of hurt, anger, and betray.

brenden: "now im really, truly sorry for what i did and i dont blame you if you stay mad at me or dont wanna talk to me for a while cause i would be mad at me too. but i just want you to know that i still love you and im changin all my player ways and im going to stick with the one i truly love and stay loyal to what i do and who im with and stop fuckin around with all these hoes cause they aint makin life any better than it already is. so im really sorry and hope you can find a place in your heart where you can forgive me for all the things ive done and accept my apology. i promise i wont do it again." he said looking serious and concerned and still sad and by this time i was already crying and couldnt believe how he was taking this. yea he apologized but he takin it like it aint nothin.

my tears were flowing freely nowand heavy. i couldnt even find the words i was tryna say. i just lost thought of almost everything and completly nothing to say. he was just staring at me with hope in his eyes waiting for an answer. i finally found the words to say.

me: "look, i still love you too....way, way down. but...."

brenden: "but.....?"

me: "but im tired of your bs and alll the crap you put me up with and im also sorry too..........for you. but i dont kno if i can be back with you cause youve put your hands on me more than once, talked about me, and plus cheated on me with one of my own friends ad now tryna apologize and sat you gonna change your ways. a player will always be a player and play the game so im done with itand you. i dont know what you were thinking that i would just accept your apology and we would livebhappily ever after for a ay then t next you're out there screwing another oneofmy friends and then want to come back herewith another one of your symothetic apologies thinking ill far for it again. so just so you know im owith you doing that now. you can do whatever and youinstead of tryna say imma change now ts too late to change. you shouldve thought about that before all this happened because now im done with all your mess so by, get out and leave."

i felt like a huge weight just lifted off my shoulders when i got finish. i stopped crying a little and looked up to see hurt and anger in brenden's eyes and he was crying.

brenden: "kay im so sorry but please dont leave me. i cant go on without. and even though i was cheating i was still thinking about you a-." i cut him off

me: "DO YOU KNOW HOW STUPID YOU SOUND RIGHT NOW." "YOU WERE STILL THINKING ABOUT" "IF YOU WERE THINKNG ABOUT ME,WHY IN THE HELL DI YOU KEEP GOING OUT AND DOING IT. THE FUCK!! WHAT DO YOU NEED, PLEASURE EVERY DAMN NIGHT FROM SOMEBODY. WELL YOUR HOEIN ASS CAN GET TO STEPPIN CAUSE I AM NOT ABOUT TO GET CAUGHT IN YOUR LITTLE TRAP ANYMORE AND PUTTING FORTH AND EFFORT T GET HURT OR EVEN A DISEASE CAUSE YOU NEVER KOW WHAT THEM NASTY ASS HOES HAVE CAUSE YO ARE ONE NASTY ASS MOTHRFUCKING BITCH-" wait hold up i know this nigga did not just cut me off while im talking

brenden: 'ok now you is doing too damn much like you need to calm yo damn tits or somethin cause you mst of lost your mind. now you can let me know when you loose th attitude and actually want to talk!" he yelled threw his tears

me: "brenden, i dont want to talk to you about anything you bitch!!"i yelled.

he rushed over to me and me into the wall and i winced and arched my back in pain and he raised his hand

me: so you about to hit me..i knew you couldnt change.

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