The It Girl

Chatper Four

After the kiss, we didn't talk to each other for weeks. The car rides were awkward and it was so hard to make conversation. I don't know why I kissed her... She was just there, and I knew it was now or never. I should have just not have done it. I should have just kept my lips to myself....ugh, I need a drink or maybe a smoke.

I get up and walk down to the main level. Nobody's home today since it's Saturday, Amber is off with Holly doing God knows what, and my mom is off on business, like usually. So, I'm left alone, 99.9% of the time. My mom is never home and when she is, she's a complete bitch. We did have a Dad but he died, when I was in middle school, in 7th grade.

I walk out the back door to the deck, I get on my knees and search for the loose board. I finally find it, I open it up, there's five bottles of vodka and two cartons of cigarettes. I grab a pack of cigarettes and a bottle of vodka. Putting the board back, I then take them both up to my level of the house. I throw the vodka on my bed. I find a lighter in my top drawer of my night stand.

Taking the lighter and pack of cigarettes, I sit by my window. Silently opening the window, I look out at the neighborhood.

Where did it all go so wrong?

I open up the cigarette pack and take one out. Putting it between my fingers, I take my lighter and light it. I gently press the cigarette to my lips and suck in. I blow out a smoke out the window. After I do that a couple times, I put the cigarette and put the rest of it in my ash tray that's hidden in my nightstand drawer. I hide the pack in there, too, with the lighter.

I look at the picture frame by my bed, it's a picture of me, Amber, and Holly. A tear escapes my eye and rolls down my cheek. "I'm an idiot," I whisper to myself.

Buzz, buzz

I pick up my phone and see Bethany texted me. "Party in 5, you in?" I know the party will be at Bethany's and I know there will be vodka and more alcohol , so why not? I respond with, "Hell yeah."

I rush to my closet and pick out a small tight black dress. I strip down in just my push up bra and panties. I slip into the dress, then look in the mirror. I fix my hair and make sure my makeup looks good.

*Party Time*

I get to the party and half the people there are already wasted. Nate comes up behind me, he grabs my butt them puts his arm around me. "We good, sexy," he asks. Nope, we never will be! "Of course, sorry I was being unreasonable bitch." He smiles and kisses my cheek. I scrunch my nose and as he walks away, I wipe off all the slobber he left.

I walk into Bethany's house, and I automatically see Bethany and Nate talking. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I walk through the living room, pushing all the dancing people out of my way. Walking into the kitchen, I see a girl that looks really familiar staring at me. She's really beautiful. She had brown hair with red tips. She's wearing a jersey sweater and high waisted shorts. She has beautiful curves. Her eyes were green with blue speckles.

I give her a weird look then I went back to the alcohol. The table is covered in red solo cups, but there's no bottles or cans of wear it came from. I shrug my shoulders and pick up a cup. I take the rim of the cup and put it against my lips. I slowly drink the substance. It's a bitter taste, but it makes the pain fade.

I try to walk but everything feels like it's spinning. I fall to the ground and everything feels loopy. Then my eyesight goes black.