Watermelon [Wonwoo] #2 ✔

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Listen to sorry (dear. Daddy) by f(x) or any of your favourite sad song, this is important!

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25/12/2011

I don't remember my father. He was a doctor and he died when we were too young to remember. My mother never remarried for our sake but instead she devoted her life to her work. She loved helping people and for this she was always at the hospital from one shift to another.

I haven't spoken to anyone after the news since yesterday and it's getting really hard for me to write right now, but i feel like i need to get it out somewhere.

Growing up not having a father and a mother who was never around was harder than you'd think. Though i always had cassie with me. That made everything better. She's older than me by 3 minutes and she always took pride in that.

"Jessi, you're my little sister, I'll protect you from everything, just trust me okay?"

I was always the scaredycat between the two of us. But I'd always have faith in her. She got my back. I can do this. She'll protect me.

We learned to be independent from a very young age. And offcourse also became troublemakers. But in the end, we knew how to take care of ourselves and that's all it mattered.

I was weird.

We both were.

It made me harder to get friends, but i didn't give a shit. I was born with a best friend by my side and it was my sister, my mother, my father; cassie.

Now she's gone.

Just like that.

She said she was gonna get me a great present but what kind of present is this, God? What did i ever get to deserve this? I know i was mean to a few people but you know my heart better than anyone else. You know i never meant anyone harm, I'm not capable of such things, how could you do this to me?

How could cassie do this to me? How promised she'd protect me but she fucking lied! She left me all alone to be with my father! That lying bitch!

I'll never forgive her for betraying me.

Never.