Why can't I be normal?

Chapter 1

Have you ever wondered if love was actually real? Like if the girl actually loved the guy? Or if they guy actually loved the girl? I've never really believed in love or ever been in love.

My mom has been in love many times but they all leave her. I don't think it's her fault though. After every break up or divorce she's always depressed on the couch eating ice cream and watching old romance movies. I don't blame her though. That's just how you express your sadness.

Since my mom has had so many failed love life's. I've chosen not to believe in love. I don't even know who my father is and honestly I don't want to since he left us. He left his own daughter to be with some disgusting other women.

"Come on Becca, you can't give up on love now. Your only 16", my mother lectures me as I'm eating my breakfast and waiting for my best friend to take me to school.

"Why? You gave up on love and plus I don't need love. What's the point of it? You meet, you fall in love and the next you know one cheats on the others then you break up, the end. Your love life is over and you never talk to each other ever again. Love is not worth it", I said wanting this conversation to be over already.

"Sweetie, your young. You'll find someone out there. You just have to be open and get out of your comfort zone a little", my mom said making her coffee.

"I don't care about love. Besides I'm too busy for love", I said rushing to eat.

"But-", my mom was about to say before we heard the honk of a car.

It's about time. I wish you would have been here sooner.

"Bye Rebecca", my mom said as I grabbed my backpack and ran out the door.

I got in my best friend Claire's car and we were off to hell also known as school. The car ride was pretty quiet. She didn't ask about my morning because she knows my mom lectures me every morning about finding love and opening up, which by the way I don't need to.

When we arrived at school I went to my locker to get my notebooks for the day. As I was walking by I noticed people starring at me and people whispering. It's nothing new. People do that and other things to everyday. People think I'm weird because I don't believe in love. I don't care if people think of me that way because it doesn't faze me.

Off to my first class, chemistry. I hate chemistry. As I was walking I tripped over someone's foot a fell straight on my face. Everyone around me started laughing and pointing.

I saw someone in front of me. I didn't know who he was but he looked new or I just didn't know him.

"Hey. Let me help you up", he said handing his hands out to help me.

"Thanks", I said taking them and pulling my self off.

"Are you-", he was about to say when the bell ringed.

"Better. Get to class. I'll see you around", he said running to his class.

"See ya", I said even though I knew he was already gone.

I walked into class and sat down in my seat. The bell ringed and it was time for class to get started. Ugh. I have chemistry.

3 hours later

It was finally time for lunch. On my way to lunch I tripped on someone's foot again and fell on my face again.

"Better watch where you step, freak", I heard someone say as he walked by.

"You should really watch where you step and stop expecting me to help you up all the time", I heard a familiar voice say.

Wait so one minute he's nice and the next minute he's acting like a jerk. What's wrong with him? More important what's wrong with me? I feel different around him but I just don't why.

" I wasn't intending to fall and I don't expect you to help me up all the time. Why don't you just go away?", I said pushing him out of my way.

I finally got to the lunch table where Claire was sitting and threw my bag on the chair.

"What's wrong with you? You look pissed", said Claire eating her sandwich.

"I am. This guy, I don't know who he is but one minute he's nice and the next he's a jerk. Why?", I said angrily pulling out my lunch from my bag.

"Oh! Your talking about Jacob Wilson. He's cute. You should be lucky he's into you", Claire said.

"Well I'm not. He's a jerk and plus I don't believe in love. Just drop the subject. I don't want to talk about him anymore", I said sitting back and crossing my arms.

"But-", Claire was about to say.

"I said drop the subject! I don't want to talk about him anymore!", I yelled slamming my hands on the table.

Just then everyone looked around at me. Claire was sitting there shocked and upset.

"I-I've got to go", I said grabbing my backpack and running out of the cafeteria.

While I was running a lot of people stared laughing at me.

I know I said people laughing and pointing doesn't faze me but deep down inside it really does. I get laughed and tease everyday. It sucks and I don't know what to do about. I've had to suck it up for so many years and this was the time where I just lost it.

I ran to my locker and didn't stop for anyone. I buried my head into my knees and cried like I have never cried before.

"Hey, are you ok?", I heard a familiar voice say.

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Yay! My first chapter! I hope you guys enjoyed it! Please don't judge if you don't like it, it's just my first chapter and story. Please tell me what you think in the commits below! And thanks for reading! I'll make sure to update soon if you guys liked it!