Closure (Completed)

Chapter Four

Vielle lay down on her bed with a broken heart. After a year of being single, including the six months when he was gone, she can still feel the pain. The heartache. The misery.

Nakamove-on ka na ba talaga? Her conscience asked. She nodded trying to convince herself. She bit her lower lip to stop her tears but it was too late.

No more crying, Vielle. She scolded herself. But what she can do? Mahal niya pa rin si Warren. That stunt he did after the concert was beyond her dreams. Pero natakot siya na baka saktan siya muli nito. Na baka iwanan siya muli nito na para bang hindi siya nito nobyo.

Heartache.

That's what she's afraid of. First heartache never fades. She believe. Hanggang ngayon masakit pa rin.

She reminisce the past. Their past.

The happy moments.

The special moments.

The unforgetable one.

"Vielle." He called the love of his life as they lay down the soft grass embracing the cold breeze of christmas. She was looking at the beautiful night sky with the city lights at the end of their foot. "What if I might die before we get married?"

Biglang napalingon si Vielle sa boyfriend niya nang sinabi nito ang salitang married. She never imagined that after five years of being together, he would thought of marriage with her. She felt her heart go crazy and her romantic self did a jump high enough to reach the night sky. She felt giddy all of a sudden. Until she remembered a word he also said. Die.

"Bakit? May sakit ka ba?" She worriedly asked. Napa-upo tuloy siya ng maayos at tinitigan ang katabi na nakahiga pa rin at nakatingin sa mga bituin. She combed his hair using her hand. She always do this when he's worried. She thinks he is.

"Wala naman, siguro? I don't know. Pero paano nga kung ganun?"

"Edi magpakasal na tayo ngayon." She answered like it was just a simple statement. Napatingin tuloy si Warren sa kanya.

"What did you say?" He asked. Amazed that she actually said she would marry him. Damn! He felt like he was in cloud nine. This is what he wanted. To be with her forever, for eternity, until infinity.

"Umm. Let's get married?" Vielle asked him. Napatanga si Vielle sa sinabi niya.  She thought na parang may mali. Warren chuckled at her question.

"Di ba dapat ako yung magtatanong niyan sayo?" He asked. He looked up at his love. He really admire her. Hindi niya kayang makita ang sarili na hindi kasama si Vielle. He loves her so damn much.

Vielle blushed. She suddenly felt shy. She muttered a sorry and covered her face using her hands. Napahiya na naman niya ang sarili sa harap ni Warren.

"Vielle." Warren chuckled on what she did. He find it cute. Kinuha niya ang kamay nito at hinalikan ang ring finger nito. Vielle looked at him with curious eyes. He smiled at her. He put her hand on his chest, above his heart, and said, "Marry me."

Napahagulgol na ng iyak si Vielle. That was the most unforgettable moment in her life. Everything was so perfect. Everything was in the right place. Everything with him is like a world she thought never existed.

Kinuha niya ang unan sa tabi niya at niyakap iyon. She cried and cried the whole night. Tuwing naaalala niya ang gabing yun, napapaiyak na lang siya.

He really wanted to get married. Both of them wanted to. Simula nung gabing yun, mag-fiancee na sila. Pero isinekreto nila iyon sa lahat. Only the both of them are the only one who knows that special moment in their life. Gusto kasi nila na isurpresa ang pamilya't kaibigan nila pag nagawa na ang wedding invitation at lahat lahat.

But everything was destroyed when he left. Nasayang lahat ng pagpaplano. Nasayang lahat.

She was heartbroken for months. Akala niya hindi na siya sasaya. Until she realized that her life was going nowhere. Kaya itinuon na lang niya ang atensyon sa trabaho, sa pamilya, sa mga kaibigan niya.

Even though it pained her everytime they asked what happened between them, there are only three words she could answer.

"Hindi ko alam."

Hindi niya naman talaga alam kung bakit. Hindi niya naman talaga alam kung ano ang totoong dahilan. She really wanted to know. But she's also afraid to know what it is. Baka kasi mas lalo lang siyang masaktan. And she know too well that she would go back from the start in movimg on again.