Exact Opposites [ COMPLETE ]

Chapter 15 : Growing Apart...

***SASHA'S P.O.V.***

When Janna left for dinner, I was stuck alone with Ban's mom. It was awkward at first. I mean who won't be hella scared. She could ask me questions that I couldn't answer or questions about my love for her son. For a long period of time awkward silence engulfed us. No one talking. No moving. We were in the same room but the space between us felt as big as the Great Wall of China. Just us heavily breathing and waiting till Ban arrives. She tried breaking the silence, but I think she's still as scared as I am. Maybe she might embarrass herself or Ban. Eventually, Ban arrived and his mom decided to cook some dinner and left.

"Hey Sasha! I love you." he kissed my cheek.

"I'm flattered." I smiled. It was awkward. The first time Ban said "I love you" to me, but I couldn't say it back. What's wrong with me?

"Sorry if this isn't the best time or way to ask you, but did you tell your mom that we are dating?" I asked.

"Yeah." he answered. "Aren't we?" he asked. "I mean, we kiss, make out and hug a lot."

"Yeah, but you haven't asked me." I clarified.

"So I had to?" he asked. "That's pathetic."

"You know what's pathetic?" You! You're pathetic!" What? Did I just say it. My hands flew to my mouth after I said it. I slowly put it down, maybe I did mean it. Or not. I don't know. What I said is what I said already anyways.

"Seriously Sasha? The first time I confessed my feelings for you and you just blow up! If you're just going to tell me that I'm useless, a freakin bastard and what? Another selfish know it all! Then why don't you leave." he yelled, pointing at the door, "Leave my damn household!"

"Fine! I'll leave you useless, freakin bastard and you selfish know it all!" I slammed the door shut.

"Just shut up with all the criticism!" I hear him mutter on the other side.

Every time I get into a fight with Ban, it seems so weird and stupid. Our fights are always so shallow, then we end up criticizing each other and a lot of screaming. Once in awhile I sometimes get so tired of it. All the drama, all the stupidity, all the people trying to break us apart. Sometimes, I really just think that we aren't for each other. We aren't meant to be. It's hard to say it, but I think we need to take a break.

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Home sweet home, away from Ban. He is so damn annoying.

*Flashback*

I was at home, about to watch Hunger Games, Mokingjay Part II, hoping Safe and Sound plays in the end. I mean, why not? Since I've been so busy, this week. I haven't watched it yet.

***

It was already the part where Katniss and Peeta were about to kiss when this Unknown guy texted me.

Unknown : Hey Sasha! This is my new number. It's Shaun 😊
Me : Shaun?
Unknown : Yeah! I'm the guy who likes pizza?
Me : EVERYONE LIKES PIZZA?!?! Who the hell are you?
Unknown : Dammit Gurl! We are classmates!!!!
Me : Just tell me what's ur damn whole freakin name!
Unknown : Sheesh much
Me : -.-
Unknown : I WILL ANSWER UR QUESTION IF YOU ARE NOT HIGH NO LONGER
Me : Oh that's it! I'm freakin blocking you

Few moments later....

After the movie, I stepped into the shower and took a quick bath. Suddenly Ban decided to call me.

"Hello?"
"Oh! You finally decided to FREAKIN ANSWER MY CALLS! HUH?" he yelled.

"What are you talking about?" I asked.
"I'm Shaun dammit! You blocked me." he yelled.

After that I hung up and hopped to bed.

*End of Flashback*

I've to tell Ban about this break. I've to tell him about it soon or later.

***BAN'S P.O.V.***

Sasha is so annoying. She is flipping angry about something I just said. What's wrong with telling my mom that we are dating? Is she that embarrassed to be with me? Doesn't she care about my feelings? Maybe she doesn't even feel the same way I do... It's hard to love someone who doesn't love you back. It sucks to be useful as a boy toy. When you kiss, hug and make out, but there's no true love in it. It's all just fake. It's harsh to think about it, but maybe it's true. She cares, but she doesn't. She loves, but is it just for pity. Just because I love her doesn't mean she has to love me back. Maybe that's how she feels. I stare on a corner. Peace and quiet is the key to all of this. I just need some time.

"Why doesn't she love me back?!?!" I holler at nothing in particular. Great. Now I'm talking to myself.

All these thoughts inside me can blow my mind, it could blow up in minutes or seconds. Imagining all the lovers in the word...they care, they love, they trust each other, but I think that's everything that ruined Sasha and i's relationship. We cared for each other, but if we did then why do we continue to hurt each other? I don't even remember the first time Sasha said "I love you" to me. Is that so much to ask? Then lastly the trust. Trust is everything. Without it there's no love in a relationship. That's why I think Sasha and I aren't working out as much as I want it too be. She doesn't trust me with our relationship, that's one of the reasons why she can't even call us a couple.

"I want to be alone." I mumbled, crying myself to sleep.

Not everyone knows how I truly feel. I may sound stupid and immature in the outside, but no one knows how I truly feel if they continue to hurt me. The people I value the most is like trying to stab me with a knife every time they call me something I'm not.

"I give up..." I whispered. "If Sasha thinks she's going through all of this by her own, then why not join her." I thought. "I love her. I can't let her go...she's my everything."