You're There || Jaspar

Chapter One

Cancer.
You hear that word and immediately think it's a death sentence, I know I did - and I was right. I've been diagnosed since the age of eight, I won't go into the details of it, but it's terminal. I know I'm going to die, it's just about when. Later today? Tomorrow? In a few weeks? Months? Years?
I don't have any security, my family don't, we're all just waiting.

They gave up with chemo on me a year and a half ago, all it did was make me feel ill and the chances of it actually working were so low I managed to convince my parents to agree to have me taken off it. I remember my how much my mum and dad cried, my sister didn't cry though. She didn't speak to me for days after I made my decision to stop the chemotherapy, it was like she was angry with me.

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After a week of ignoring me she came into my room and sat on the bed next to me, she took my hand and pressed it to her lips.
"You're giving up. Just like that."
My voice wouldn't work to answer her. What can you say to the person you're closest too who you know you're going to have to leave at any given moment?
A single tear ran down her cheek as she got up and left the room.

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At least now my parents have managed to come to terms with the truth. They try to act as normal as possible with me though, it's almost convincing. Zoe however, she still feels I've given up. She has barely said two words to me since she told me just that, that I'd given up.

It's hard to cope with, all of this. I cry a lot more than I used too, but not even because I'm necessarily sad or scared. I can't put a name on the emotions I feel, but I know they all build up and flood out in the form of tears from time to time. I am okay otherwise though, I've stopped flinching every time I hear the word 'cancer.' I know what it is, I know I have cancer, I know I can't be cured.
I know my time is nearly up.

So why on earth did he have to walk into my life?

Hello everyone,
this is my second fanfic I have on the go! I was a bit scared to tackle a story based around such a serious topic and there's still a chance I may just delete this, but if end up completing this I hope I do it to my best ability and if there's anything I get wrong along the way then please let me know.
- Belle xoxo